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I’ve come to realize once again, that i do not truly know who my TRUE friends are. I’m actually starting to wonder if such a thing actually exists.

Recently, my close friends’ [who was at a point, my best friend but i doubt it anymore] boyfriend threw a party that she “forgot” to invite me to. Well, she ended up not going but everyone else in our group went except for me. I honestly find it hurtful because we see each other everyday and how could she have excluded me. And to add insult to injury, she even told this girl that i HATE about it. I don’t understand how she could have forgotten to tell me when i ride with her going home everyday. EVERYDAY.

i guess it’s just hard to find real friends. Especially when your friends way back from grade school just don’t cut it anymore.

maybe it’s me….

Eevryone’s a Hypocrite

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… including myself.

I keep telling this girl, i long to the thin here on xanga to keep holding on and that she’ll make it. When i, on the the other hand, who doesn’t even have it half as hard as she does, is having a hard time merely making it through the day.

My mom and paolo’s mom could possibly be fighting because of some rumor. I find my mom the biggest hypocrite of them all and i personally cannot wait for every single thing she’s done to bite her in the ass. She speaks for poorly of a lot of people and in the process makes herself sound as if she is or was any better than anyone else. Well, she’s not. She thinks that her opinion is the best opinion or like she’s never been in that position before. It’s about time that someone attacked her. She’s a bitch [even if i love her, i’m not a liar] and she deserves whatever horrible thing that could happen to her. [socially speaking]

ugh. i’m just so tired of hypocrites.

i mean, who gets a burberry bag and lies about buying it? Yeah, she won’t seem to admit that her “new”bag was given out of this charity shit her friend is doing. And who buys a 40k LV bag and says that we don’t have money? she does. It’s nice to know where half of my allowance is going. yeah, she cut my allowance in half.

a hypocrite and a liar. God blessed me so much.

I’ve Found My Calling

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i’ve just had the best 2 weeks of nursing in my entire life! i was just on duty at the Psych ward at VSMMC center for behavioral sciences and i think i’ve just found my calling.

A lot of people to discourage psychiatric nursing cuz they think it’s really risky and stuff but i see it in a really different way, i suppose. I mean, i get how a lot of people or even most people don’t understand these people and if i can’t understand them all the time, i would like to think that i am one of the very few people who wouldn’t judge them. šŸ™‚

ive been feeling really depressed lately and i’ve considered cutting again. i have a new blade.

Freudian Slip

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My actual conversation last week that’s STILL making me feel bad…

Diana: Thanks for putting on my make up.
Me: No problem.
(After a long pause)
Wow, you’re a waste of concealer. You basically need to cover up your whole face.

And that’s why i don’t have friends. šŸ˜

Let’s Get One Thing Straight

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If you are going to fall in love with me, it’s only fair that you know what you are falling in love with.

You are falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me. You are falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, my overactive tear ducts, my internet obsession, my tendency to be too clingy. You fall in love with my troubled past, and my hopes and dreams, and how I’m a hopeless romantic at heart. If you fall in love with me, you fall in love with my self-hate and all my imperfections and my perception that nobody could ever love me.

But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when I’m with you, the way I’ll text you in the mornings just telling you I hope you have a great day. You’re falling in love with the occasionally humorous and/or thought-provoking things I say, and the way I blush when people ask me about you. But to me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me, despite my thinking that it is impossible.