We werenāt friends from the start nor were we meant to be best friends since birth. We never always understood each other and at times, I think we didnāt really try to either.
We started out disliking each other without a single thought that maybe, just maybe by a twist of fate would we end up being best of friends. We both have our differences and I think thatās whatās brought us together. Sometimes we donāt get along as much as we would want to but I know that God works in magical ways, which is why I always find myself running back to your embrace each mesmerizing fight or misunderstanding.
Iām not always there for you as much as I want to. Sometimes I am but not as much as you want me to and Iām sorry for that. I wish I couldāve been there when you cried. If I was, I wish that I paid more attention to you because every time I needed someone to hold, to listen to me or put up with me, I didnāt have to look that far. I know a best friend is supposed to be in the first row seat cheering you on during a performance and itās so humiliating to claim to be your best friend yet I never did any of those. I was never in the first row and I didnāt get to cheer you on. But I wanted to; well at least if I couldnāt be there physically, I wanted to be there in you heart. Iām your biggest fan, I just never got the chance to tell you that.
Before, I wanted so badly to turn back time and change certain events in my life, wishing that I would make things better. But when I come to think of it, it was those events that brought such joy to me that I will always treasure in my life. Without a doubt, the one that has brought me the most amount of joy is you. If I werenāt the biggest suck-up that I was, I wouldnāt know you. If I didnāt torture you back in elementary, no one would call me a āwitchā and still accept me for that. And now, we can still laugh about those stuff and just think of reasons why little events like those has stuck us like mighty bond glue.
Now, if I could think of things that I would want to do, that would be to hold on to more things. I wish that I were Superwoman and do two things at once. Better yet, I wish that I could freeze time, so that I could freeze a second that I get to spend with you to an eternity.
Of all the things that I had to decide on, leaving you and all the things that remind me of you is definitely the hardest thing to do because I have to choose whether to live the life I want or to be with someone who has made this life worth living.
If leaving is a mistake is a mistake, I know that this is the biggest mistake Iāll ever make but I hope that youāll be able to forgive me for that.
Iām going to miss you chub ⦠you will always be my best friend, forever. And if Iāve said it before ⦠this time, I mean it with all of issa. [lol] You have a special place in my heart that distance can never replace. Even though Iāll meet new people, no one will ever be half as good as the person I have found in you. I know we all have our doubts. But I promise you things will work out. I love you with all my heart. And if you need anything ⦠Iāll stop whatever Iām doing for you ⦠promise.
Schary. [There, I said it for you! and I canāt believe it!!]
I bet you thought that Iād just stop there, but Iām not done yet.
A friend is the one that calls you up when sheās meant to call her man. āoops, wrong numbah, beb. Iām just soo used to calling you.ā
A true friend is someone who thinks that youāre a good egg even though youāre slightly cracked
We said our last goodbyeās and when I almost gone I gave you one more look. The look said it all; everything was going to be ok.
A true friend picks you up when you fall. But if they canāt pick you up, theyāll lie beside you and talk for a while.
You donāt have to be all these things to me because youāre so much more. I have my own definition of a true friend and it starts with a c and ends in an l. yeah baby, its CHABEL!! Ć
hey .. i woke up today at 10 something .. i was like soo tired from yesterday.
i took the test and all at montessori .. i got in. JOY.
it just wasn’t so exciting as i thought it would be . the school didn’t fucking call me up or anything. which kinda disappointed me cuz i wanted to tell me personally but then, they didn’t.
im not gonna make a big fuss outta tiz here .. maybe on the phone wit chub though.
haha. i’m pissed for multiple reasons!! fuck this life!
anyways, it’s phil-o-rama and i spent most of my morning watching tv [buhm] and nothing else. i decided to go online cuz i didn’t get to write a blog or anything.
im buying my guitar today [for te record, this is my 3rd guitar this year!!]
can’t wait .. i wanna write songs again. im inspired.
gtg.
much <3..
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