Most of the people there use an Antipolo bathroom system which is basically a hole in the middle of their floor where they do their business. Their junk then falls down to the river and ultimately causes all the funky shit going on there.
Couldn’t find a picture but i’m pretty sure you have the idea floating around in your head.

Next week i’ll be assigned at the OR-DR of mactan doctors hospital which is basically on another island near Cebu and it usually takes around an hour to get there. 😦 But duty is at 2- 10 which is actually my first experience at the PM shift so i’m pretty stoked about that. New experiences.

I love all my duty mates this semester because it’s a  mix of my old duty mates and they were pretty cool. There’s no one there that i actually hate but then there are a few people i don’t really feel comfortable talking with but whatever :

Me and paolo just celebrated our 4th monthsary and although we do fight occasionally, it’s never anything major anymore. Of course i do get annoyed about the whole trust issue and although I shouldn’t be blaming myself for this, i do take A LOT of credit for him being like this.  Knowing all the things i’ve done in the past… who wouldn’t? People ultimately think i’m some skank hore around here which is kind of how i acted before anyways. But i’m just trying to fix myself. Not for them but because i know i’m better than what they think.

i’m rambling. Bye

You think that because I like to drink, I’m wild.
You assume that because I smoke on cigarettes, I’m some punk ass.
You tell me that the reason I’m so tough is because I don’t care.
You think that you know me so well.. but you dont’ know me. It’s impossible for you to know who I am when I can’t even figure that out myself.

— Most of the time I pretend to be so tough and bitchy because I’m tired of crying.
— I don’t like talking about my emotions because I have so many of them and talking about them make me feel weak.
— Sometimes I force myself to be honest with myself to make you happy and when everything comes pouring out, I look at myself in the mirror and think, “I don’t even know who you are anymore.”
— On most days I know you think that I don’t care but there is not a single second when you are not in my mind. You may not always be on the top of my mind but you are always floating around there somewhere.
— My greatest fear is that I would give up so much for this relationship and end up with nothing. I don’t want you to be my entire world because a part of me is always scared that you are going to leave me.
— I feel like a little girl lost at the mall right now. I don’t know what to do and I feel like if we are drifting apart, I am the one to blame.

It just feels like you don’t give me enough credit. I am trying SO HARD to make you happy but i don’t think that it’s working. You are like a magnifying glass that only sees my flaws. Sure, I’m not perfect and neither are you but why does it feel like you’re God and i’m just this pathetic sinner?

i am manic depressive. And my words aren’t coming out right.

but if you must know the truth, i don’t know what to say to you. I love you so much that my words would never be good enough to justify that. I love you so much that i fear that nothing i could ever do would ever add up to these feelings inside me. You are too perfect for me. I don’t deserve you. But i have you anyways and you make everything in my life so wonderfully perfect.

I know we’re not always ok and i’m fine with that because i am finally ok with the fact that i cannot always have everything. And i’m coming to terms with the fact that i don’t always have to be ok- i just have to be with you.

They say you only live once and now that i have you, i could really only ask for one life. Because what would my life be like without you in it.

I am crazy in love with you. and i mean it. ❤

that is why i don’t appreciate it when people talk about love like it’s a trust fund. so what if he’s not as rich as your ex husband? what is wealth when you’re miserable all your life? it’s people like YOU that i hate the most. GET A LIFE. life with money MAY be easy but it’s not always the perfect picture.

you should know. you’re still married to a wealthy man who cheats on you and beats the hell out of you. Go forth and marry another rich guy. because you refuse to marry someone lower than him.

dumbass.

You are so scared that i might find someone else, that you might lose me, etc. but by holding me back and choking me up- it just doesn’t make any of this any easier. sometimes, the more you try to hold on tighter to the person, the more you start to lose them. That’s something i learned the hard way and it’s not something i want you to learn from me because i don’t want to have to go anywhere before it starts to sink into you.

i love you and i want to be with you and for the last time, i’m not going anywhere so stop pushing me away. i hate it.

i can’t keep fighting over the same things. i can’t keep forcing you to believe i’m in this for real if you never want to hear it.