A Day In the Life..

6:00 am – wake up
7:00 – 6:30: School
6:30 – study, eat, write notes
9:00 – pretend i’m interesting
10:30 – sleep

my life is soo complex. 0o.

Had a meeting with my research group today and when I called my papa to pick me up found out that they couldn’t fetch me cuz they were all on their way to S and R. Out of frustration,I used my mom’s money [that i still owe her from last night] to buy Mcdonald’s because well… I’m always hungry. But half way through my meal I realized that she”ll proli take it out of my allowance for next week and then I just wanted to punch something.

Tomorrow’s monday and here I am putting the pro in procrastination again. I am the absolute shit. Someone build me a shine and praise me.

Almost Infinity and Beyond

I swear to God today was like the hottest day in the world and what an unfortunate day to be hot when it just so happens to be the first day of your second semester!

I literally had this going on the whole day…


And no matter how much I tried to make myself look human-like with ALL the make up I had, I still ended up looking like a zombie from the lack of sleep all because our AC is messed up and I had a bad case of the munchies at 1 in the morning.

And then there was the commuting-to-school part which I absolutely dread the most. It makes school sound like a haven on most days but at least I rode with Diana and we split the fair which meant I saved at least 1/4 of my allowance. BIG HELP- you have no idea!

When we got to school I was really unsure if I was happy to see most of the people or if I was completely apathetic since I’ve been seeing their faces for the past 3 years but I love my blockmates no matter what and I know they missed me so I chose NOT to deprive them of the awesomeness that is ISSA.

At Cebu Doctors’ University no day is a chill day. It’s always hectic and literally draining but then I tell myself and everyone else secretly chants this, “1 1/2 years nalang…” and then it’s like what the hell, I don’t care. I can do this!!

So now I’m slowly going to say Good-bye to my sanity because I’ll be consumed in notes, pre and post tests and everything that will be the death me now.

P.S. I’m the hostess for this years Garland ceremony. Yey me!

P.S.S. This blog has benefited me one way or another. My mom happened to catch me writing my blog around the time I complained about commuting and I NEVER HAVE TO COMMUTE AGAIN!!!! šŸ˜€ i STILL want my car.

!i!Hola!i!
 

Almost Infinity and Beyond

I swear to God today was like the hottest day in the world and what an unfortunate day to be hot when it just so happens to be the first day of your second semester!

I literally had this going on the whole day…


And no matter how much I tried to make myself look human-like with ALL the make up I had, I still ended up looking like a zombie from the lack of sleep all because our AC is messed up and I had a bad case of the munchies at 1 in the morning.

And then there was the commuting-to-school part which I absolutely dread the most. It makes school sound like a haven on most days but at least I rode with Diana and we split the fair which meant I saved at least 1/4 of my allowance. BIG HELP- you have no idea!

When we got to school I was really unsure if I was happy to see most of the people or if I was completely apathetic since I’ve been seeing their faces for the past 3 years but I love my blockmates no matter what and I know they missed me so I chose NOT to deprive them of the awesomeness that is ISSA.

At Cebu Doctors’ University no day is a chill day. It’s always hectic and literally draining but then I tell myself and everyone else secretly chants this, “1 1/2 years nalang…” and then it’s like what the hell, I don’t care. I can do this!!

So now I’m slowly going to say Good-bye to my sanity because I’ll be consumed in notes, pre and post tests and everything that will be the death me now.

P.S. I’m the hostess for this years Garland ceremony. Yey me!

P.S.S. This blog has benefited me one way or another. My mom happened to catch me writing my blog around the time I complained about commuting and I NEVER HAVE TO COMMUTE AGAIN!!!! šŸ˜€ i STILL want my car.

!i!Hola!i!
 

Divorced, Divorcing, Divorcee

So today I almost died at the sound of my grandmother, my aunt and my own mothers’ voices as they spent around 3 hours rambling on and on and on about each others personal lives [which really has no business being on here] and one major topic that constantly kept reoccurring- divorce.

And after watching FRIENDS the whole day, I feel like I sympathize for Ross Geller and what the heck… it’s not some thing I haven’t talked about before so hit.

Malachi 2:16: “I hate divorce, says the LORD God of Israel.”
Matthew 19:6).“So they are no longer two, but one. Therefore what God has joined together, let man not separate”

Well, my grandmother, who was obviously on the con side of marriage mentioned that God says some stuff about divorce in the bible so I decided that I would search it on the internet [thank God for Google] and that was basically what I found. Usually I like to win conversations like this with, “well, what if I don’t believe in God?” but as someone who one day does hope to get married in front of God, I shouldn’t.

But my mom has been divorced and so has my aunt and knowing their reasons for getting a divorce, it just made me wonder, if God knew what kind of men his children would turn out to be would he still say the things he said? Idk, I don’t even want to start on the topic of God and His opinion because that raises so many questions and I’d rather not. But going back to topic, is divorce such a bad thing?
 
Honestly, on my side, I wouldn’t want to get a divorce unless I absolutely had to. I mean, it defeats the whole purpose of a marriage right? But it just teaches us to be absolutely sure about the person that we want to marry. But, it has come to my attention that a  lot of women [girls, actually] only get married out of practicality.
Oh, if I married him I wouldn’t have to work a day in my life.” EVEN if they know that the man they want to marry if a two-timing man whore. And in the end, when they are married with a family and the whole she-bang they realize that they don’t wanna live that kind of life anymore and just mess up everyone else’s lives. But then again, that’s their story are really not any of my business.

In the end, I’d still say I am pro divorce and I support anyone who wants to get a divorce it’s just that… I wish that people would learn to be smarter because that way they would save a lot of people the hurt and frustration.

Divorced, Divorcing, Divorcee

So today I almost died at the sound of my grandmother, my aunt and my own mothers’ voices as they spent around 3 hours rambling on and on and on about each others personal lives [which really has no business being on here] and one major topic that constantly kept reoccurring- divorce.

And after watching FRIENDS the whole day, I feel like I sympathize for Ross Geller and what the heck… it’s not some thing I haven’t talked about before so hit.

Malachi 2:16: “I hate divorce, says the LORD God of Israel.”
Matthew 19:6).“So they are no longer two, but one. Therefore what God has joined together, let man not separate”

Well, my grandmother, who was obviously on the con side of marriage mentioned that God says some stuff about divorce in the bible so I decided that I would search it on the internet [thank God for Google] and that was basically what I found. Usually I like to win conversations like this with, “well, what if I don’t believe in God?” but as someone who one day does hope to get married in front of God, I shouldn’t.

But my mom has been divorced and so has my aunt and knowing their reasons for getting a divorce, it just made me wonder, if God knew what kind of men his children would turn out to be would he still say the things he said? Idk, I don’t even want to start on the topic of God and His opinion because that raises so many questions and I’d rather not. But going back to topic, is divorce such a bad thing?
 
Honestly, on my side, I wouldn’t want to get a divorce unless I absolutely had to. I mean, it defeats the whole purpose of a marriage right? But it just teaches us to be absolutely sure about the person that we want to marry. But, it has come to my attention that a  lot of women [girls, actually] only get married out of practicality.
Oh, if I married him I wouldn’t have to work a day in my life.” EVEN if they know that the man they want to marry if a two-timing man whore. And in the end, when they are married with a family and the whole she-bang they realize that they don’t wanna live that kind of life anymore and just mess up everyone else’s lives. But then again, that’s their story are really not any of my business.

In the end, I’d still say I am pro divorce and I support anyone who wants to get a divorce it’s just that… I wish that people would learn to be smarter because that way they would save a lot of people the hurt and frustration.

You’ll Like Some and You’ll Want To Kill The Rest…

Funny thing with life is that you will hate majority of the people you know when they’re alive and only manage to say nice things about them when they die. There is only one word for people like that… hypocrites.

Which is why, in relation  to this
[well actually it is not in relation to anything], I have come up with a few guidelines for my funeral:

+ Every time someone attempts to tell a story to any of my relatives it can only start with the words, “I remember this one time…” and end with “…and then she ended up vomiting.”

+ During my wake, graduation pictures and/ or 1×1 pictures will be prohibited

+ I want Fire Burning by Sean Kingston as my funeral march

+ I demand to be buried in a bikini or anything that will flaunt my body

+ Also, if I have never gotten a full frontal wax prior to my death, I would like to be given one before being embalmed.

+ Only drinks with alcohol may be served to my guests.

+ Usually people who die are placed in coffins lying down. However, I would like to be placed sitting down, legs spread while open with one hand covering my mouth and the other one covering my “flower”. LOL

+ I also want airbrushed make up… for once in my life, at least.

+ And lastly, [believe me this could go on forEVER but I’m getting tired] I do not wish to be buried and have a bunch of icky worms feast on me instead, I would like to cremated and placed in tiny bottles. Once my ashes are placed equally, I want to be disseminated among my loved ones for them to carry with them ALL THE TIME.

 
Pretty much like this.


What are your post-death requests??


Have a happy All Souls’ day, everyone!

P.s. Just in case I die tonight [God forbid]… I am soo totally kidding!

the ends and not the means

in a few hours i will be 20 years old and my old wish is to be able to feed the psychiatric patients in VSMMC. there are about 150 patients and on the 28th of october my only wish is to be able to show my parents what great an impact these people have on me… if only VSMMC would let me.

i mean, understand how it is to have a specific process and all that shit but COME ON. just for a feeding ya’ll have to make it sooo damn hard for me? i really really hate it. but the means will justify the ends this time. i worked hard for something im passionate about even if i had to drag myself out of bed for it.

my phone is also broken. so fml MORE.

i haven’t turned 20 yet and already, it sucks,.

Forgive Me If I Forget…

I came into this relationship with issues, baggage if one might call it, but you did too. We started this thing not knowing what would become of us or if we would even make it. We hardly even knew what we really meant to each other except for the fact that we were living for a moment and that moment was us.

I’m happy that we’ve made it this far even though sometimes, to our shame, we’ve looked back. But maybe sometimes it’s not such a bad thing to look back. After all, the past is a good place to visit but never stay in, right? And I’m really happy to say that no matter how many times I’ve doubted this relationship, I’ve never doubted you for a second- it’s always been me whose held us back. I’ve always known that but i guess my pride gets the best of me.

I don’t know whats come over me to write something so cheesy as this but I guess I know that I’ve always owed you an apology. So here it goes…

Sorry for not telling you how amazing you are when you hug me and make me feel like the only girl in the world.

Sorry for getting mad at you when you call me in the middle of the day just to say “hi” or “how’s your day?”. I know some girls would DIE for their boyfriends to give them that time.

Sorry for looking away when I see you stare too long and too hard at me. Your gaze makes me melt and I don’t want you to see how vulnerable you make me.

Sorry for getting irritated over the smallest things.

Sorry for getting more irritated when you try to make me smile from being irritated over the small things.

Sorry for always thinking of the worst. Some bad habits are hard to break.

Sorry for constantly thinking that I’m right. I now know that the only thing I’ve ever been right about my whole life is keeping you.

Sorry for thinking that you are horrible when in fact you’re not. You always try to bring out the best in me even when there’s really nothing good about me.

Sorry for telling you that you don’t support me even when that’s the only thing you’ve ever done. I guess when I don’t believe in myself I need to think that you don’t too. Because I constantly need to think I’m right.

Sorry for making you write my notes and requirements. You have nice hand writing, I can’t help it.

Sorry if I keep stealing your shirts. I cannot function unless I have a piece of you around me.

Sorry if I want more than I can get most of the time like when i eat your food or when i get your money. When i said that when we get married and you need to give me $5,000.00 a month I swear I was kidding. $4,500.00 would be fine, really. :}

I’m sorry if I’m an evil bitch lady to you 99% of the time. If I’ve punched or smacked you on a couple occasions, I won’t do it anymore and I’ve kept true to that. But you make me want to be better unfortunately, there’s nothing good to make better so it’s hard most of the time.

And lastly, I’m sorry if I don’t show you that I love you enough but you have to know, I’ve never felt this way before. I don’t believe in mushy teenage flick quotes anymore because all of that doesn’t seem real to me anymore. You are the only thing that is real and this thing that we have, THIS is real… at least for me anyways.

I love you. I love you million x infinity x alpha x omega PERIOD.

Please don’t forget that, Juan Paolo Climaco ā¤