I’m actually happy. Maybe I just needed to fix myself before I expected everyone to fix tthemselves to make me happy. Yes, I’m selfish like that I guess.

:>

So much stuff has been going on in my life since I’ve lasted posted.

The Run for Youth is over and was without a doubt a success, Papa is now located in the states and I have never been so unsure about my relationship in my whole life.

I am achieving things that I could only dream of achieving before and actually getting to this place means so much to me to even fathom to let go of.

Do you ever feel that in order to reach something bigger, you need to let go of more important things even if the things you need to let go of are the things that motivated you to start in the first place?

I’m only human, I get hurt- I’m not as strong as you might think I am.

I’m tired, frustrated- built up just to be broken down.

I hate who I am right now and I want this to end.

Lately i’ve been hella busy with school.

What’s worse about the whole thing is i’m most interested in what i’m busy with [which are hardly related to school despite being school activities] than nursing itself.

I’m getting really tired of living everyday merely trying to get by. I don’t know why I constantly torture myself with nursing.

I would rather drop dead.

it’s been a year na! So happy. But tired 🙂

haha.

this is lame.

If it’s happiness you want, it’s happiness you’ll get

But i can only achieve these things with you with me 🙂

This literally makes me want to stop going to school and just do what ever it is I’m doing 🙂 hehe

Do you ever feel like your head is always somewhere else??

I always find myself saying over and over again in my head that my dreams are somewhere far far away.

And it sucks.

I never know what I want.

Now, I have no idea why anyone would even do this to me. I don’t have any enemies but I guess it was all luck.

I always thought I had reached the prime of my “career’ the day someone made a fake account of me. But maybe I’m already at it. LOL. jk.

Seriously though, someone thought it would be funny to change my email address from issplease to isa_isa101. Pssh, yeah right. Like i would ever make an email address like THAT. *eye roll*

But really, whoever did that…not cool. You’ve actually cause me sooo much hassle. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO DO MY SCHOOL WORK NOW, you jerk!

I haven’t been able to be on as much as i would’ve wanted to and i greatly apologize. Lately i’ve been busy with my tumblr account and it’s been good. but my loyalty will always be wit you, Xanga 🙂

My life has pretty much been a blast not to mention me and paolo will be celebrating our anniversary next month.

I’m a very lucky girl ❤