<<–* i d0nt kn0w why i’m feeling like this when i kn0w that i shouldn’t care. i d0nt kn0w if i feel hurt or if i’m insulted. it’s not my life, so i shouldn’t worry. but, you said something to me, something that i couldn’t refuse to believe. you said something that enlighted me but, i think it did more than that.. i think it blinded me. | |
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yeah… i never really did like the falling hearts and the colors. i have to admit. i’ve been online but i never updated this thing. i knew exactly what to say though, but i still didn’t do. i don’t want the world to know that i’m happy cuz i’m pretty sure that they’ll ruin it for me.
school has been tiring. absences. talks. fights. shit.
getting operation soon.
tty. ilove you
yeah… i never really did like the falling hearts and the colors. i have to admit. i’ve been online but i never updated this thing. i knew exactly what to say though, but i still didn’t do. i don’t want the world to know that i’m happy cuz i’m pretty sure that they’ll ruin it for me.
school has been tiring. absences. talks. fights. shit.
getting operation soon.
tty. ilove you
hey, im at banilad town center right now. and for some freaking reason.. im always here… sad. i’m
like, a by stander nah. sad. 
hey, it’s really boring so i decided to change my skin. it;s hot.. right? i
know. i had a stressful day and i don’t think that i’d like to rem. what happened or what i just read.
kapoy ra kaau oie. the world isn’t ready for that kind of stress. lord, you know i need you. don’t make
me suffer any longer. 
you see, they can’t seem to picture you wit him. he’s such a person known for being a gangster, chimney, supah
drinker, and other bad stuff. even ask the teachers around. also, most of those i know who are just like him hardly
know what love means. they may fall in love but that doesn’t completely change everything in them. and if i wer’e
to react, let’s say sooner it’s going to be the both of you, of course there’s a tendency na ma influenced ka…
i know they only want whats best for me so… what’s the big deal??
hahaiz. don’t hate, discriminate.
life’s a bitch. slap it
the shorts bai! i forgot about the shorts!! hahaha
if and when we loose, ok ra nah! we have the short short shortest pair of goddamn shorts since… since, shorts! š
— i can feel the pressure from the blood that’s rushing out of my veins. i can feel the intenseness and let’s just say… if i think about it too much.. i might just go insane.– nothing i do will take my mind off what’s going to happen. people will want to talk which will make me start to think. if i don’t stop thinking about it… i’m going to have a nervous nervous breakdown. i can’t defend the team by saying, “we deserve to win.” i can’t defend them by saying, “we’re the best team.” so probably, the best thing i can say is that “we deserve to play a fair game.” the team has been training for a month.. i bet others have been training for years. but within tha month, we;ve trained our asses off up to the point where we couldn’t feel them anymore. lmao. and like, i know we ain’t the best. we ain’t championship material or anything but… Lord, give us something to brag about. hehe. tomorrow’s the game. i wish we didn’t have to play against usjr.i really do. but i understand. god works in mysterious ways. i know, right?! basta, GUYS [God]… this is for you. kick ass, tom. aiight?! dili usik ang pangasaba ug ang practices. you can do it. i know we can. lovesyouall. mwah!
— i can feel the pressure from the blood that’s rushing out of my veins. i can feel the intenseness and let’s just say… if i think about it too much.. i might just go insane.– nothing i do will take my mind off what’s going to happen. people will want to talk which will make me start to think. if i don’t stop thinking about it… i’m going to have a nervous nervous breakdown. i can’t defend the team by saying, “we deserve to win.” i can’t defend them by saying, “we’re the best team.” so probably, the best thing i can say is that “we deserve to play a fair game.” the team has been training for a month.. i bet others have been training for years. but within tha month, we;ve trained our asses off up to the point where we couldn’t feel them anymore. lmao. and like, i know we ain’t the best. we ain’t championship material or anything but… Lord, give us something to brag about. hehe. tomorrow’s the game. i wish we didn’t have to play against usjr.i really do. but i understand. god works in mysterious ways. i know, right?! basta, GUYS [God]… this is for you. kick ass, tom. aiight?! dili usik ang pangasaba ug ang practices. you can do it. i know we can. lovesyouall. mwah!
yea. so it’s 6:28 in the morning and i’m all dressed up. it’s nothing new… it’s a saturday. sports is my life… so i’m living it. [that sounds so… cliche. bitch] lmao. anyways, as usual, i have volleyball practice but instead of going extra early… today’s “slow mo” day for me. [hehe. that just means i’m going ta be late.]
haha. anyways, i’m not ina hurry today or anything man sad. practice will be practice… hopefully there will be imporvements. [big one’s if i pray hard enough]. people won’t be all up in my grill. fuckyou,******. eatshit, bai!
sorry. [stressreliever] anyways, my week has been… tiring. bitches, here and there. trying to make the most out of the time that i have. trying to come up with more excuses to play volley. hey, i don’t love it.. it’s just that… it’s the only thing i can do that keeps my head outta things.
my grades have been up and down. i got freaking locked out my math class yesterday… fuckyou,bell!! lmao.
people, well they talk. they make me the center of their world. but, i’m not complaining… just keep him out of it.
parents… what about? they try. but it’s late. so, whatever.
anyways, i have to leave ina bit so… ima snap out of my bitchynez and bounce.
hollah. š
A K R H O > B L O O D Z > SECOND HAND SMOKE <> R A I Nonmyparade > T R U E F R I E N D Z [do they still exist?] > B E E R [need some]<– random shit.
yes, i know… life can be a bitch. deal.
–> whoever said “honesty is the best policy” was seriously disturbed<–
yes, i want to be completely, utterly honest. and that i am trying to do… but you see, it’s not just me… what about them??
fuckit. they don’t understand. they never will. parentz… what’s a girl to do?
–> next blog please…
i feel so cheated. and i don’t wanna talk about it. uhm, maybe i will.. but not right now. whoever said honesty is th ebest policy was seriously disturbed.
fuckit.
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