some people fall in love. some spend their whole lives looking for it. some find it, get tired and soon fall out of love. there are those who have found it. missed it and are getting over it. while there are others, who have been looking for love, have found it and now are dying to pretend that it never existed. which officially makes me the biggest liar in the world [or that i know of]

isn’t it that when you love someone you shouldn’t care what others have to say because what matters most is what you’re heart has to say? I mean, no offense. but, shouldn’t it just be you and him and no one else? i need help.

it’s just that. i’ve been keeping too many secrets that i know i should’ve been keeping but i guess, i thought it was better if i did. i mean, i’m happy. that’s the point right? maybe god wanted things to be like this. he wanted to keep me missunderstood, confused and everything so that He can take all the pain away like always.

whatever. we’ll find out. but for now.. i have to tell someone. she has the right to know.

you know what i’ve noticed? nowadays, there’s something wrong with everybody! now, i had a neede go through my body. my precious body! ughm.

pray it’s not what everybody thinks it is.

gotta bounce,

god created me to love somebody else. so if you have a problem with that, stick it to the big guy in the clouds. ruin his plans. not mine.

i don’t necessarily hate life; mabe just the people.

god created me to love somebody else. so if you have a problem with that, stick it to the big guy in the clouds. ruin his plans. not mine.

i don’t necessarily hate life; mabe just the people.

god created me to love somebody else. so if you have a problem with that, stick it to the big guy in the clouds. ruin his plans. not mine.

i don’t necessarily hate life; mabe just the people.

now, don’t come up to me as that this isn’t love or loyalty because you guys are my life and i would go to the ends of te earth for you. i would cut class for you, bitches. let’s just thank god i didn’t have to cut today. [thankyouthankyouthank]

today is stc’s iintrams and i am like… soooo excited!! hehe. i bought their intrams shirt and everything. i;m ridding with arden today and i’m going to meet up with the guys at school at around 9. weeeeeeeeh. stc fever.

i swear. if going back wouldn’t be so hard, i would’ve.

my week at school has been revolving over the fact that today is the day i get to spend with all my matez and no one can tell me what to do or what to wear kay.. di na gud ko student ngadto. that means, i can get away with bringin my phone. haha. priviledge.

hesaidhewantstotalkanditoldhimiwouldlisten.itbetterbegoodbecauseimighthavesomethingtosay.

i gotta bounce. the shower calls.

sometimes we win and sometimes we loose and i am not a stranger to loosing anymore. it’s not the best feeling in the world but what can a girl do? God has his time for me.

volley isn’t my life. mdm. agbon claims that i’m a dancer. [i think she’s hellah right ab0ut that] but i’ve learned to appreciate volleyball and my players. i haven’t been the best team captain bt God knows i try. anyways, we did an awesome job. it’s better than our first game. i know we catn win someday. God will shine on us. he already has.. he just has to brighten it up a little. ;p

it was awesome. my whole day was. the past 2 days have 🙂

ilove my new bible!!! Ü

bounce.

issa

tomorrow is the district meet. i hate coach orvin. he’s soo mean. like, nothing’s ever good enough for him. even when i try my best and when i do something good, i never get any slack. i hate him and how he smells like fish and how he looks in his green shirt. how he has a burnt face. how messy his hair is and how i never understand a single f’in word he says! it’s pure hatred. if we loose, don’t blame us.. blamne yourself mother F!

So many things have been happeneing and i find myself sitting in my room saying,”is it Saturday already?!”

MY LEZBOE. i love the rain. we love it.

don’t talk to me.. cuz i won’t talk back.

and i just don’t know what to do. hahaiz. i worked soo hard for it. 57 slides and all. all those pictures. all the information. all the facts. the effort. the money. for what?! for nothing. you just can’t imagine how hard i worked for that.

and i wanna cry. because there’s just nothing that i can do about it. pour my heart over a big fat zero and a looow score on my report card.

lie to me. and lie like you mean it. i love you.. that’s the biggest

:/: and i’ll never let go, never let go.. until you want me to. lotz will come and lotz will go and if you’ll choose to go, i guess your true feelings will finally show. :/:

d0n’t keep it a secret. no longer keep it in. cuz i want to know if this is love or just another fling.

/: soon our lives will change and soon will your mind. but grasp the moment in your hands until the end of time /:

we could have each other and you could be somewhere else asides my dreams.

doesn’t that sound a tad bit like l o v e?

::.. h0w can y0u be soo perfect in my dreams but be everything that breaks my heart in reality? ..::

i’d like to think that my life is perfect right now and everything has fallen into place but it hasn’t and that breaks me into pieces.

all the hard work was a waste.. why did God make it that way? i hate it. thingz are soo hard and complicated and no one can help me but myself.

letz get this over with and just.. take me away