don’t stop me from doing this and i know you’ll get hurt with what i have to say but, you’re not the — only who feels this way.

honestly, i let you go because i know — i hope — i wish — i pray that things would fall into place. but if you could stay — if i could keep you, i swear to God, i would. if everyone respected us like they should’ve, i wouldn’t let go. but, i guess,  things aren’t supposed to end up the way we dreamed it would – how we prayed it would.

i won’t deny it, this time i want the world to know.. you meant something to me. and i don’t care who see’s it or who reads this. ** you won already, let me do my bussiness.. let me tell the world i care for him that i can’t see him like this ** turn around.

i can’t tell you all the things i want to tell you because, i know you won’t undestand, if not… i know that you would think i’m someone else — someone completely twisted. but, honestly, maybe i am. i never wanted it to be hard for us. i never wanted to pretend that i wasn’t happy when you were around.i admit, there were times when i didn’t want to see you but.. i have my reasons and only god knows and should know them.

hahaiz. i don’t know what to say in order for you to understand that, hurting you is just something i have to do. it’s not something that i dreamt of doing.. of course not. i can’t do this anymore.

– and when all the pieces fall into place, when everything is all right.. i’ll find you. i don’t know how and where but i will. and when i find you, i won’t say anything… i’ll just stand there, look into your eyes and say, ” i might have fallen for the *wrongest* one. but, you’ll make everything in my life all right again.”

i know you’ll judge me; i know you’ll discriminate and i won’t stop you. but all i ever wanted was for you to cut the bullshit. this is the last time i’m listenning to anyone.

|| are you happy now? ||

l e t g o, hunneh. i knew it couldn’t last. there are just some things that you can’t keep doing no matter how happy you are, no matter how much you pretend, no matter how much you could’ve loved him. you just have to let go. and when you think about it.. it only hurts a little. a little more. a little deeper. a little more each day.

i know i have to do this. i know i can live the pain cuz if this is what it takes to make everything finally fall into place, then i’ll give him up over and over again just like i just did.

god, i don’t want him to get over me because i don’t wanna get over him. i know he was ugly or a slob and a jackass ass.. but he was mine. and i knew it. not completely… but i loved how it was.

and i don’t know what i’ll do when i see him again. i wish.. ugh. i won’t wish.

HOLLAH IF YA FEELING IT

|| It pAys to rock hArd !! ||

FiGjaM = a person who has a high opinion of him or herself.

jet!! cool party bai! i think teacher kim was drunk. marshmallows and em.. hot. peepz hooking up, getting cuddly, getting wasted… having the time of their lives. sitting at the side watching em and thinking.. i shouldn’t be feeling thiz way. looking around saying to myself.. he shouldn’t have done that. hearing stories of how their plans were ruined and so on and so forth.

i love get togethers… yes, i do! 🙂

my seise is bleeding again!! >:p

singing my heart out was fun and although i did mess up one or a gazillion times, i’ll get over it.. they won’t rem. it;s my first time… i can live on excuses!! 😛

anyways, ima spend the night layout whoring again and like then, ima emote.

he didn’t have to come and do what he did. that was soo wrong. and now, i can’t stop … doubting.

i think i wanna fall for someone else.**

|| It pAys to rock hArd !! ||

FiGjaM = a person who has a high opinion of him or herself.

jet!! cool party bai! i think teacher kim was drunk. marshmallows and em.. hot. peepz hooking up, getting cuddly, getting wasted… having the time of their lives. sitting at the side watching em and thinking.. i shouldn’t be feeling thiz way. looking around saying to myself.. he shouldn’t have done that. hearing stories of how their plans were ruined and so on and so forth.

i love get togethers… yes, i do! 🙂

my seise is bleeding again!! >:p

singing my heart out was fun and although i did mess up one or a gazillion times, i’ll get over it.. they won’t rem. it;s my first time… i can live on excuses!! 😛

anyways, ima spend the night layout whoring again and like then, ima emote.

he didn’t have to come and do what he did. that was soo wrong. and now, i can’t stop … doubting.

i think i wanna fall for someone else.**

honestly, i haven’t been in the mood to update this thinggy. i feel like, i’ve been going n or months withut updating it just to find out that it’s only been a week. ughm. who invented time was brilliant.

this week has been absolutely exhausting. ** examinations week ** whatelse?!

hahaiz. talk to you ina bit.

19 days til my BIRTHDAY!!

sorry, we ain’t celebrating!

i know it’z a saturday… and your point iz??

i have curly hair!!! dah! dah! dah! naa na gyud akong long, ovedue prize for having good gradez!! 😀

yeah. 5 hours sitting in a chair doing nothing was well.. somewhat worthit.

in the afternoon, i begged and pleaded my mom if i could go to usp to watch the bball game. and well, princesses always get their way. and i got mine. father even did the courtesy of dropping me off and watched me cross the street by myself. props to me for crossing the road by myself.

they won! it was awesome. i had a great time. hehe.

but i hadta bounce cuz it was franco’s birthday party.

it wasn’t that much fun but i survived. socialitez. the upper class. rich bastardz!

i never expected those words to come out of my mouth just like that.. but when they did. i couldn’t stop saying them. over and over again.

maybe i under estimated school…

ok. i haven’t really updated this thing ina while. usually i’ve been pilling thiz thing up with mushy crap that dun do anyone here any good. so, ima lay low now.

so, here’s what i did the whole week. i’m sure you’ll find it interesting. LMAO.

hehe. well, i was absent on monday. i spent the whole day lying in bed.. sleeping. i was doing a pretty good job at it though, i don’t know why i woke up. ughm.

tuesday:

well, i didn’t want to go to school. but i did. i wasn’t really sick but i could pretend to be. to hell with academics. only god will judge me! [hehe] so, i went to school. faked that i was really sick. called my parents and they picked me up. seriously, i wasn’t really faking it. 1/4 of me was. well, that part really didn’t want to waste in my time in montesorri. smacked in the middle of the mountain with no means of civilization whatsoever. [i try to sound smart, people] i thought i was gonna get my pim na gyud!!! shit. who knew it would take 4 fucing hours. whoopz. don’t say the F word.. tiz is my hair people!! ;p

that afternoon i went to the dr. ypil. he was cool. old, but cool. my papa kept saying that he had a big thumb. apparently, he claims that dr. shoved his thumb up his ass when he told the doctor that his tummy had been aching. nice story pa. i loved it.. not! 

wednesday:

i didn’t feel like going to school either but then, how often to you have pe? so,yeah. for the sake of pe! i didn’t enjot it though. school is getting so overrated.

thursday:

wel, wa namai pe. [evil grin] but then, periodicals are coming up and if i was absent AGAIN that would mean that i would fall behind on soo much. But, who cares?! i didn’t!!

it was soo cool though, cuz t. T was absent so, Mr. S took over her class. seriously, i have a problem with remembering thingz cuz naka LOUD akong phone and my mom called in the middle of his “sense of propriety” speech or something like that. everybody starred. it was scarry but tptally awesome cuz he didn’t notice or anything. DINOSAURS. i knew they were good for something. ;p

so, my mom called. granny was on her way. coool. home nasad!!
but an fuking injection went through my skin.. again. i hate it!! but chance.

i didn’t have dengue. but i was like, on the border line of apencitiz. whatever. i missed school. it was soo fulfilling. watching troy made me hungry!

friday:

well, i proud to say that i spent the whole day at school!! i almost went home.. but, i didn’t. [gives self pat on back]

we basically did nothing in the morning cuz it was the science and math month culminating activity. isn’t that like the coolest thing?! lmao.

francis, josh, aj and gervise won the powerpoint making contest and they all got medals for it!! ughm. it had he thinking “what could’ve happened” if i passed ours on time. fuck. tripz.

anywho.. what’s done is done. our group won the egg dropping contest anyways which makes me feel pretty darn good about myself. hehe.

at the end of the day when i was soaking wet, i found myself saying.. “iz it friday already?”

oh yeah! sab and em taught me this cool new game. the best part about it is being able to hit people… and get away with it.!! ;p

sometimes when i dont mean to think all the thoughts in my head, i think of you. i imagine you hold my hand and touch me the way you always do. and it seems like, in an instant, there i am, holding your hand and your there with your arm around my waist. it all seems unreal but, i wouldn;t want things any other way.

maybe i under estimated school…

ok. i haven’t really updated this thing ina while. usually i’ve been pilling thiz thing up with mushy crap that dun do anyone here any good. so, ima lay low now.

so, here’s what i did the whole week. i’m sure you’ll find it interesting. LMAO.

hehe. well, i was absent on monday. i spent the whole day lying in bed.. sleeping. i was doing a pretty good job at it though, i don’t know why i woke up. ughm.

tuesday:

well, i didn’t want to go to school. but i did. i wasn’t really sick but i could pretend to be. to hell with academics. only god will judge me! [hehe] so, i went to school. faked that i was really sick. called my parents and they picked me up. seriously, i wasn’t really faking it. 1/4 of me was. well, that part really didn’t want to waste in my time in montesorri. smacked in the middle of the mountain with no means of civilization whatsoever. [i try to sound smart, people] i thought i was gonna get my pim na gyud!!! shit. who knew it would take 4 fucing hours. whoopz. don’t say the F word.. tiz is my hair people!! ;p

that afternoon i went to the dr. ypil. he was cool. old, but cool. my papa kept saying that he had a big thumb. apparently, he claims that dr. shoved his thumb up his ass when he told the doctor that his tummy had been aching. nice story pa. i loved it.. not! 

wednesday:

i didn’t feel like going to school either but then, how often to you have pe? so,yeah. for the sake of pe! i didn’t enjot it though. school is getting so overrated.

thursday:

wel, wa namai pe. [evil grin] but then, periodicals are coming up and if i was absent AGAIN that would mean that i would fall behind on soo much. But, who cares?! i didn’t!!

it was soo cool though, cuz t. T was absent so, Mr. S took over her class. seriously, i have a problem with remembering thingz cuz naka LOUD akong phone and my mom called in the middle of his “sense of propriety” speech or something like that. everybody starred. it was scarry but tptally awesome cuz he didn’t notice or anything. DINOSAURS. i knew they were good for something. ;p

so, my mom called. granny was on her way. coool. home nasad!!
but an fuking injection went through my skin.. again. i hate it!! but chance.

i didn’t have dengue. but i was like, on the border line of apencitiz. whatever. i missed school. it was soo fulfilling. watching troy made me hungry!

friday:

well, i proud to say that i spent the whole day at school!! i almost went home.. but, i didn’t. [gives self pat on back]

we basically did nothing in the morning cuz it was the science and math month culminating activity. isn’t that like the coolest thing?! lmao.

francis, josh, aj and gervise won the powerpoint making contest and they all got medals for it!! ughm. it had he thinking “what could’ve happened” if i passed ours on time. fuck. tripz.

anywho.. what’s done is done. our group won the egg dropping contest anyways which makes me feel pretty darn good about myself. hehe.

at the end of the day when i was soaking wet, i found myself saying.. “iz it friday already?”

oh yeah! sab and em taught me this cool new game. the best part about it is being able to hit people… and get away with it.!! ;p

sometimes when i dont mean to think all the thoughts in my head, i think of you. i imagine you hold my hand and touch me the way you always do. and it seems like, in an instant, there i am, holding your hand and your there with your arm around my waist. it all seems unreal but, i wouldn;t want things any other way.

maybe i under estimated school…

ok. i haven’t really updated this thing ina while. usually i’ve been pilling thiz thing up with mushy crap that dun do anyone here any good. so, ima lay low now.

so, here’s what i did the whole week. i’m sure you’ll find it interesting. LMAO.

hehe. well, i was absent on monday. i spent the whole day lying in bed.. sleeping. i was doing a pretty good job at it though, i don’t know why i woke up. ughm.

tuesday:

well, i didn’t want to go to school. but i did. i wasn’t really sick but i could pretend to be. to hell with academics. only god will judge me! [hehe] so, i went to school. faked that i was really sick. called my parents and they picked me up. seriously, i wasn’t really faking it. 1/4 of me was. well, that part really didn’t want to waste in my time in montesorri. smacked in the middle of the mountain with no means of civilization whatsoever. [i try to sound smart, people] i thought i was gonna get my pim na gyud!!! shit. who knew it would take 4 fucing hours. whoopz. don’t say the F word.. tiz is my hair people!! ;p

that afternoon i went to the dr. ypil. he was cool. old, but cool. my papa kept saying that he had a big thumb. apparently, he claims that dr. shoved his thumb up his ass when he told the doctor that his tummy had been aching. nice story pa. i loved it.. not! 

wednesday:

i didn’t feel like going to school either but then, how often to you have pe? so,yeah. for the sake of pe! i didn’t enjot it though. school is getting so overrated.

thursday:

wel, wa namai pe. [evil grin] but then, periodicals are coming up and if i was absent AGAIN that would mean that i would fall behind on soo much. But, who cares?! i didn’t!!

it was soo cool though, cuz t. T was absent so, Mr. S took over her class. seriously, i have a problem with remembering thingz cuz naka LOUD akong phone and my mom called in the middle of his “sense of propriety” speech or something like that. everybody starred. it was scarry but tptally awesome cuz he didn’t notice or anything. DINOSAURS. i knew they were good for something. ;p

so, my mom called. granny was on her way. coool. home nasad!!
but an fuking injection went through my skin.. again. i hate it!! but chance.

i didn’t have dengue. but i was like, on the border line of apencitiz. whatever. i missed school. it was soo fulfilling. watching troy made me hungry!

friday:

well, i proud to say that i spent the whole day at school!! i almost went home.. but, i didn’t. [gives self pat on back]

we basically did nothing in the morning cuz it was the science and math month culminating activity. isn’t that like the coolest thing?! lmao.

francis, josh, aj and gervise won the powerpoint making contest and they all got medals for it!! ughm. it had he thinking “what could’ve happened” if i passed ours on time. fuck. tripz.

anywho.. what’s done is done. our group won the egg dropping contest anyways which makes me feel pretty darn good about myself. hehe.

at the end of the day when i was soaking wet, i found myself saying.. “iz it friday already?”

oh yeah! sab and em taught me this cool new game. the best part about it is being able to hit people… and get away with it.!! ;p

sometimes when i dont mean to think all the thoughts in my head, i think of you. i imagine you hold my hand and touch me the way you always do. and it seems like, in an instant, there i am, holding your hand and your there with your arm around my waist. it all seems unreal but, i wouldn;t want things any other way.