Not much to be thankful for today, if I’m being completely honest…

I’m just grateful that today is finally over.

1. Dysmenorrhea
2. Heartbreaks
3. Metabolism slowing down as you age
4. Death

Horse is the seventh in the 12-year cycle of Chinese zodiac sign. The Years of the Horse include 1918, 1930, 1942, 1954, 1966, 1978, 1990, 2002, 2014, 2026…

The Five Elements of Horse is Fire (Huo), which symbolizes enthusiasm and energy. (so I’m water + fire. PERFECT!) The animal gives people an impression of independence and integrity. Its spirit is recognized to be the Chinese people’s ethos – making unremitting efforts to improve themselves with passion and diligence.

Earthly Branch of Birth Year: Wu
Wu Xing (The Five Elements): Huo (Fire)
Yin Yang: Yang

Lucky Signs for People born in Horse Year:

Lucky Numbers: 2, 3, 7
Lucky Colors: brown, yellow, purple
Lucky Flowers: calla lily, jasmine, marigold (except, I hate flowers)
Lucky Directions: northeast, southwest and northwest

Element: Water 

Quality: Fixed

Color: Scarlet, Red, Rust (surprised it’s not black)

Day: Tuesday (Tuesdays have always been my favorite days. Next to that are Mondays.)

Ruler: Pluto (small, non-existent- like the planet, anyways)

Greatest Overall Compatibility: Cancer, Pisces (or no one)

Best for Marriage and Partnerships: Taurus (or no one)

Lucky Numbers: 9, 18, 27, 36, 45, 54, 63, 72, 81, 90 (1)

Date range: October 23 – November 21

SCORPIO TRAITS

Strengths: Resourceful, brave, passionate, stubborn, a true friend

Weaknesses: Distrusting, jealous, secretive, violent

Scorpio likes: Truth, facts, being right, longtime friends, teasing, a grand passion

Scorpio dislikes: Dishonesty, revealing secrets, passive people

Scorpio-born are passionate and assertive people. They are determined and decisive (pffft), and will research until they find out the truth (research, pry, snoop). Scorpio is a great leader, always aware of the situation and also features prominently in resourcefulness.

Scorpio is a Water sign and lives to experience and express emotions. Although emotions are very important for Scorpio, they manifest them differently than other water signs. In any case, you can be sure that the Scorpio will keep your secrets, whatever they may be.

Pluto is the planet of transformation and regeneration, and also the ruler of this zodiac sign. Scorpios are known by their calm and cool behavior, and by their mysterious appearance. People often say that Scorpio-born are fierce, probably because they understand very well the rules of the universe. Some Scorpio-born can look older than they actually are. They are excellent leaders because they are very dedicated to what they do. Scorpios hate dishonesty and they can be very jealous and suspicious, so they need to learn how to adapt more easily to different human behaviors. Scorpios are brave and therefore they have a lot of friends.

SCORPIO HOROSCOPE: TODAY

Tuesday 10/18/2016

The conflict of younger with older women seems to go straight through your house of relationships. If you get stuck in a middle of such a problem, this is a good time to find your true place, value your time and get out of it before it swallows you whole.

Venus has its last chance to make a change in your first house today, and you should really get away from people, relationships and things that steal your energy and don’t make you happy.

SCORPIO LOVE AND SEX

Scorpio is the most sensual sign of the zodiac. Scorpios are extremely passionate and intimacy is very important to them. They want intelligent and honest partners. Once Scorpios fall in love, they are very dedicated and faithful. However, they enter into a relationship very carefully, because sometimes they need a lot of time to build trust and respect for partners.

SCORPIO FRIENDS AND FAMILY

Honesty and fairness are the two qualities that make Scorpio a great friend. People born under the Scorpio sign are very dedicated and loyal, when it comes to working. They are quick-witted and intelligent, so they would feel better to be in the company of witty and fun loving people. They are full of surprises and will give you everything you need, but if you let them down once – there’s no return. Scorpios are very emotional, when they are in pain, it is simply impossible to make them feel better. They are very dedicated and they take good care of their family.

SCORPIO CAREER AND MONEY

Scorpios are fantastic in management, solving and creating. When a Scorpio sets a goal, there is no giving up. Scorpios are great in solving tasks that require a scientific and thorough approach. Their ability to focus with determination makes them very capable managers. They never mix business with friendship.

Jobs such as a scientist, physician, researcher, sailor, detective, cop, business manager and psychologist are appropriate for this powerful zodiac sign. Scorpio respects other people, so expects to be respected in return.

Scorpios are disciplined enough to stick to the budget, but they are also not afraid of hard work to bring themselves in a better financial position. However, they are not inclined to spend much. Money means security and a sense of control for them, which means that they are good at saving money and make decisions carefully before investing in something.

HOW TO ATTRACT THE SCORPIO WOMAN

The Scorpio personality is both complex and fascinating.

Scorpio women are secretive, sexy, magnetic, but they also appear aloof and calm. The Scorpio woman has a great capacity for kindness and a desire to do good in the world.

If you want to seduce her, you have to be patient and willing to let her take the reins of the relationship. Be a good listener and pay full attention when she is speaking.

Dating with a Scorpio woman can be really entertaining, but do not let her wild side fool you into thinking that she will be an easy conquest. Don’t expect a sexual encounter with the Scorpio woman on the first date.

Earning her love requires a lot of time and patience, but once she falls in love, she will give everything to the relationship (fucking Scorpio). The woman born under the Scorpio zodiac sign can be very possessive but also completely devoted partners. Be honest and avoid getting into arguments with her, because she is not the type to forgive and forget easily.

The woman born under the Scorpio star sign is curious, so in order to keep her happy, you will need to find new ways to satisfy her curiosity. If you can allow her to retain her pride, she will respect you for it and will fall in love with you quickly.

I’m impossible.

I have run myself dry

loving people and asking them to love me

To see the good in me

when I know that everything is so ugly

It is always hard watching the thing you want and felt like you finally deserved slip away from your fingers simply because you fail as a human being.

Today was supposed to be my creative day and now it’s just a day.

Today I am grateful for:

1.  Productivity that will hopefully result to beautiful things.

2. Wounds that heal.

3. People who start out as friends, who become you family, and who are willing to go the extra mile especially when you are in need. I didn’t happen to me, but I am thankful that I saw that beauty and that humanness again. Humanity exists, I don’t think it ever went away, we just keep looking at the wrong things.

4. Family mart in Escario because they have Katsudon.

5. My bed because I finally get to lay in it.

Today was a looong day, I hope tomorrow gets better. Tomorrow is my creative day- my head is bursting with ideas.

Blood type AB personality and behavior!

Confident man

Many people of blood type O are conscientious (I try), have goals to aim (too many), and keep making an effort to accomplish them. They have strong mentality to do so and therefore confident for themselves. (Your sentence structure is giving me trust issues)

They sometimes lack planning (no. I have problems carrying out my plans. #adhd), but strong enough to go for their goals by adapting to circumstances.

However they are confident and don’t mind making efforts, they sometimes look down to people who look lazy or weak. (in short, I tend to hate everyone)

Have an ambitious spirit

As I said earlier, blood type O personality can keep making an effort, and therefore they often have ambitious spirit.

They are not satisfied with present situation (unswaaaa?), or leaving things unfinished.
They are also serious about games or winning and losing, and work desperately to get a good “result”. (i don’t like to lose. not just in games)
Therefore they get tremendously depressed for losing or not getting expected result.

We can’t avoid failures in our life. If they can learn new points of view or directionality (my auto correct says this is not a real word but Google does. Hmm..), blood type O people can become more attractive.
They can find new goals and can enjoy making for them (labad akong ulo, dzai).

Do all they can do for others

Blood type O people are cheerful and devoted, value relationship with people (sometimes).

They can talk honestly to everybody and have wide relation among friends, seniors and juniors.(true). Sociableness is one of their charms.
Also they have a deep insight and don’t mind for a bit of disadvantages if they can make others happy (ah. So familiar. So it’s in my blood.).

They don’t mind doing miscellaneous affairs such as taking care of juniors, so many people love and gather around them. (should explain my baby fever)

Romantic and idealistic

Blood type O people are innocent and seeking for ideals and dreams.

They can be said as idealistic, chasing after their ideals (logical, dili? how about practical, wala? aw).
They are emotional (DING! DING! DING! DING! YOU JUST SAID THE MAGIC WORD!!!!), and often feel sympathy for people and things, and sometimes they go headlong with just their emotions.
They are kind to others, and also to animals and plants, so many of them live beautiful life with their pets or growing plants as hobby (my dogs and cactus will tell you that this is correct).

If you ask them for a date, plan something classical. They are romantic that they feel touched by such plans. (I prefer adventures, Broadway shows/ plays, movie dates and cuddling) 

Have strength to enjoy even adversity

Blood type O people have characteristic of feeling passionate for adversity and obstacles.
In matters of love, they love to chase rather than being chased after (bulls eye!).
If you want to get attention of them, don’t be always aggressive but sometimes be hesitant. (be cautious, not scared. Confident, not arrogant. Respectful but don’t worship the ground I walk on… Also, wrong grammar nasad ka, dzai)

They have strength to appeal themselves until being succeeded in love. Some of them would feel impeded by your hesitation, while some would lose idea of what to do.

They are idealistic and yet realistic, so they are likely to draw back once they decide to do so. (I can this commitment issues)

Because blood type O people are devoted and possessive type, those who have a strong wish of being loved can be a best partner with blood type O person.

Sometimes value to be conscientious and prudent

Blood type O people have a character of being prudent (or over thinkers). It seems opposite from being idealistic, but being both is what their personality is (contradictory, ironic, weird- that’s what I am) .

They enjoy simplicity rather than luxury, and they are good at taking care of others and often love those who bring out their motherly instinct (ah.). They don’t like detailed and complicated matters, so romance with them would be very simple. (is it?)

Summary of blood type O personality

Confident man
Have an ambitious spirit
Do all they can do for others
Romantic and idealistic
Have strength to enjoy even adversity
Sometimes value to be conscientious and prudent

http://en.spiritualism-japan.com/blood-type-o-personality/

Now carry on….

It’s the first time I’ve been home while it’s raining since I moved into my new place. I’m not used to hearing the rain from my room, that, plus the silence, i feel is eating me.

I’m busy but I often get lost in my own thoughts, wishing I could just cuddle and sleep all day; eat Ruffles with Nutella, watch a good documentary and fall asleep under a thick sheet.

I’ve got articles to write, blogs to post and clients to deal with and all I can think of right now is how much I want the day to end so I can hug Jonas and tell him that I’m sorry for being sad today. And yesterday. And the day/s before that. That I’m sorry for all the days that I never got to tell him that I’m lucky to have him and how I wish that our lives would just fast forward. That he inspires me and he’s a pretty awesome person and that I am grateful despite all my illogical crying. Because I am a very illogical person.

But yeah, this is my life now. So much empty space in a house of 3 people, a king sized bed I sleep alone in, closet space enough enough for 5 and yet there’s still not enough space for the life I would have wanted to live.

I’ll be ok by 4 pm. That’s all the time I’m giving myself to mope.