very serious

issa: i’m taking the survey VERY
seriously. HAHA

1. “Gusto kita kya lang mahal ko pa
xa…”
– just tell me straight. i’m not good
enough to be with you.

2. “mahal ko kayong dalawa”
– yeah, and you also love your dick.
what’s your point?

3. “sorry. ndi n kita mahal eh.”
– yeah, you’re just saying that now cuz
you’re tired of me. but just you wait,
cowboy.

4. “ikw me kasalanan kung bat tau
ngkaganito..”
– yeah, and I’m also the reason why the
sky is blue and why dogs bark too, aren’t i?

5. “ikw mahal ko. ndi ko mahal gf/bf
ko.”
– really?1 so explain to me again why
you’re with HER and not with me?!

6. “i think i’m falling for u..”
– fall lang dira.

7. “bkt ngaun k lang dumating s buhay
ko?”
– ikaw? nganu karun raman sad ka naabot?

8. “kelangan ko ng space..”
– then if that’s what you want then
you’ll get it!

9. “sorry pero tapos n tau.”
– karun pa ka? ka late gud nimo.

10. “Kaibigan ko xa. ayokong mag-away
kami ng dahil sayo..”
– pag pinatyanay nalang diay mo? HAHAHA.
no, seriously, don’t. i’ll do you a
favor, i’m OUT.

11. “Ano b talaga gus2 mong palabasin?”
– mahirap to, ah. lol
na mahal kita, GAGO!

12. “bukas na lang tayo mg-usap. pg-
iisipan ko muna.”
– no, what ever it is you’re thinking
right now, i wanna hear it RIGHT NOW.

13. “sana maging masaya k s kanya..”
– yeah cuz he makes me happier than
you’ll be able to make me.

14. “bat ndi pwedeng maging tau?”
– because it takes 2 people who like
each other to be in a rel. and sorry
but.. we just don’t qualify

15. “nagseselos ako…”
– awh. now you know how it feels like.

16. “mahal mo p b ako?”
– what do YOU think?

17. “sorry na oh…pls..
– i want jewelry.

18. “mahal n kita…”
– na?nganu, gahapon diay? wa?!

19. “Mahihintay m b ako?”
– you’re not worth MY time.

20. “Pano kya kung tau pa?”
– then i’d be in a relationship not
worth being in.

21. “Patunayan mong mahal mo ko…
– isn’t what i’ve been doing ENOUGH?!

22. “Gimmick tau”
– id prefer, you wanna hang out sometime
but.. ok.

23. “Pwedeng makuha # mo?”
– why?

24.”In love ako sayo…”
– thank you?

25. “Pwede ktang twagan mamaya?”
– depends. if i’m into you, i’ll be free
tonight. if i’m not, i plan to be sick
tonight.

26. “Aalis GF/BF ko sa Saturday…
pwede ka ba?”
– sorry, i’m better than that.

27. “kamusta araw mo?”
– regualar. what significance does it
have in YOUR life?

28. “sorry kung Hindi ako nktxt sau..
la n Kong credits eh..
– sure, whatever.

29. “Buti nlng nkilala kita…”
– yeah, i tend to have such a grat
effect in people’s lives. HAHAH.

30. “ano cel# mo?”
– ask someone else.

just another one of those monthly episodes

ever since i finished reading “diary of a crush” i’ve been having weird episodes where i’m manning everyone and acting over the top and all princessy. why? i don’t know. PMS, i guess. or maybe because i just thought that i could and yeah, i did. haha. i even got the courage to e-mail my aunt and dad tons of links and pictures of things i want from the states. i also noted in that email that i HAD to get that and that i loved them. haha. i told my dad i loved him. how odd and desperate of me.

i swear to god i almost died today. tennis is murder. we stand in a line of 17 people [at the most] and wait to smack a couple of balls [you’re lucky if you get a 3rd round] and then you get back in line again. how is that supposed to help me improve anything? and then i think we’re running out of things to talk about with the girls at tennis or i’m just having really bad PMS now and i’m withdrawing myself from anything living and breathing. and then since i never get contented from simply waiting in line i stay at san case til past 12 to pla with dane [tennis mate] and when i get home, i eat and go straight to work. and occasionally fall asleep in my moms chair.

i need rest. i need a life. i need money. and NO, i don’t need a boyfriend. haha. somehow, i never fail to bring that up.

speaking of. i really wanna talk about this because i’m dying to spill my heart out. yes, i told you guys, it IS one of those days.

so yesterday i was at chab’s and chab ran off with ken and nina and seno were having alone time which i did not want to be caught in the middle of which made me feeling very “unfabulous” ish. i was yet again, in one of those paseo moments were it seemed like one of those things you hear your parents or councilors or people of tv talking about or those situations you’ve read about in books. i’ve hardly grown up. i have a lot of learning to do.

you know that peer pressure talk? well, i’m already finding ways to tell my daighter about it. if i ever have one, that is. and i’m going to make it as detailed as possible cuz i came to a realization yesterday that even though i no one likes me the way a guy likes nina or chab, i’m not going to go AWOL and throw myself on the first single guy out there. instead, i’m going to wait and focus on other things. i don’t wanna be in a desperate relationship… ever. i just want to be in love. simple as that no matter how long i have to wait and no matter how much it hurts. i NEVER wanna sell myself short and that’s just it. it’s either i’m in love or i’m focusiing on tennis. cuz that’s obviously the only thing i can ever talk about these days. yes, i’m commited.

i’m still very uneasy right now. i’m gathering my thoughts and trying to fiure out what i really want and i’m also trying to figure out why the hell do i keep pushing people i care about away from me and also, i’m trying to find a way to solve world hunger and a cure for HIV. just because when i’m free, i plan to be very promiscuous and get HIV or an STD. haha. I’M SOOOO KIDDING.

so ,i’m done.i want kevin to read this like, NOW. for some reason, whenever i blog, i always consider kevin. could it be some secret love i have for him hidden deep within myself that he’ll never know of? hahaha. or maybe it’s cuz i know that he’s the ONLY person who reads this shit.

princess issa
xxxxxx

sick

i feel really sick right now. there’s food right in front of me but i feel like i’m going to puke it out anyways. i took a 2 hour nap and for some reason i keep thinking that something’s going to happen at 8 or that i should be in front of the tv by that time. hahaha. no idea.

i feel like i’m drunk but i haven’t even been drinking!

sick sick sick

THIS is how you make my heart stop beating

daaady Chua: hi sush
issadog_102890: hey sush
issadog_102890: haha
issadog_102890: hey dad
issadog_102890: what’s up?
daaady Chua: sush, i got my greencard na
daaady Chua: the actual greencard na gyud
issadog_102890: really? wow!
issadog_102890: so, when’re you coming home?
daaady Chua: i’ve been wanting sometime this year
daaady Chua: just saving up some money
issadog_102890: so, will yoiu be coming home with leah and the kids too??
issadog_102890: or just you/
daaady Chua: with everyone
daaady Chua: but when business grows at a stable level, ill be coming back and forth more often especially with doing business there
issadog_102890: really?
issadog_102890: mas nindot diay
daaady Chua: hopefully like 5 times a year or more.
daaady Chua: so we get to spend time more often na sush
issadog_102890: hehe
issadog_102890: that sounds really nice
issadog_102890: i can’t wait
daaady Chua: me too 

**awkward silnce**

i feel like i had to say that i was excited and that i couldn’t wait to see him not cuz i was but cuz i didn’t wanna tell him the truth that i’m feeling nothing but scared. 11 long years is hard to make up for and right now, i just don’t know what i’m going to do anymore. like, when he comes, what’ll we do? what’ll we talk about. it’s just very terrifying and how will papa act? i feel like i’m complicating my family’s life right now. i don’t wanna be in this situation. i don’t want my papa to feel inferior or like i’ll replace him because i can’t but i do wanna spend time with my dad. i’m just…. OMG. i’m soo lost right now.

heart break 101 [LOL]

here i am again. sob. i don’t know. haha.

ok, so francis is at it again.

dear God,
    if you can hear me, now’s the perfect time to make my life easier. PLEASE make that boy disappear! I just don’t need to hear from him right now.

AMEN


yeah, it’s Francis AGAIN. haha. i don’t know but everytime i hear from him on friendster or whatever, i just get really pissed off. basically because he just doesn’t get it. i don’t want to hear from him because, i’m done saying whatever it is i needed to say to him and i’m pretty sure he is so WHY is he still trying to contact me. it’s not a matter of me being assuming or jumping to the conclusion of him wanting another shot with me. it’s just that, i just don’t appreciate it right now cuz if i remember correctly, and i think i do, i made it very clear to him that i had no business with him and he shouldn’t either.

so, why now? is this like, a test or something? cuz you, among everyone else know what i want and he just isn’t it. and even if i don’t get what i want.. he still woudln’t be an option. haha. he is soo far from the reality that i want and the reality that i need.

and i’m gone.

yo, brothah

should i be SORRY?

there’s nothing good to talk about when it comes to work. Juvy, the secretary has been asking me to fix her email and i can’t. so, sorry, kid. HAHA.

suprisingly, the phone HAS been ringing lately. lol. I got a bunch of calls today but mostly from my mom and this lady person, Eunica from Dumaguete following up her banner orders for this Mayor who’s running for office – again. I think. lol. Yey us. We have cool customers. haha.

I recently discovered that we make the traffic enfourcers uniforms [you know usually yellow/ oranger vests with a gray shiny belt thingy] and the able services uniform [the grey and yellow uniforms the janitors at ayala wear] and Collonade’s uniforms. lol. i’m such a show off. HAHA. i’m not one to deny what i’m truly guilty of. but yeah, no one reads my xanga anyways so, I’m safe. Besides, a lot of people make uniforms and clothes. I just like a brag and blog at the same time. HAHA.

tennis today was stressful. I left my racket at home and i had to wait for my papa to bring y racket with him at around 10 which was very stressful because 1.] i really wanted to play while waiting for casey and 2.] i really wasn’t sure if my papa was really going to bring my racket. he’s evil like that. “this ought to be a lesson learned, Jean Louise!” and he doesn’t bring it which’lljust make me suffer more. so, just in case he didn’t [and i had a gut that he didn’t] i borrowed Ayana’s racket. and guess what? my papa brought my freakin racket so i ended up bringing 2 pretty rackets with me. HAHA. i wish i didn’t have to return aya’s racket though. it’s pretty. it’s blue and it looks really really brand new. haha. i know i’d break a racket like that.

another reason why tennis was stressful today and not to mention draining was cuz we had these odd new drills. they split us up in two and yeah, it was weird. and i sound very addicted to tennis. haha. i don’t want to though cuz.. i don’t play as well as i sound so, i should shut up. point is, i love tennis. shutting up now :]

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“work”

yeah, the biggest thing i had to do today was upload THAT picture from our company’s electronic mail. it was very hard to do, btw. haha.

i’m tried it’s almost wait, it IS 5:30 so i can basically leave and sleep now. yey. :]

if writing down prayers/ wishes and dreams on paper or wherever really does work then this is to whoever in the world is listening. i want music in my life.i want another piece of spice. i want another one of “those” nights again. i hate to admit it but… i’m afraid that i’m beginning to want you.

get over it.

 

days like these

well, casey started her tennis lessons today [yes world, she wants to follow in her big sister’s foot steps. HAHA.] and i guess she liked it cuz she plans to go back tomorrow and the day after that and the day after. lol. and she doesn’t even have to pay for it with her own money which is unfair considering the fact that she actually has more money than i do. i only have a hundred twenty on me right now. she has seven. i knooow. it’s pathetic. lol.

tennis was ok. shelly’s back. and so is athena, aaron, the small girl and of course, how could we forget.. their mother. HAHA. i don’t know. i’d rather not risk anything talking about it. haha. [kevin: ooh! talk about it, talk about it!] haha.

i guess i don’t have much to say about tennis. i mean, aside from the fact that the people there are crazy and i laugh my lungs out everyday. lol. tennis is fun. i like it. it makes me happy. gives me happy feet. 🙂

i’m currently in the office. chatting and waiting for the phone to ring since that is my only job. lol.

i’m tired and i’m currently missing someone.

issa, you’re soo dumb.

holey moley

so i guess thoughts in writting do work. haha. or maybe i wished just enough last night. haha. but i don’t think i’m going to wish for it again tonight. i don’t want too much of a good thing. plus last night just kinda seems too good to be true so i really don’t wanna get my hopes up too high.

i’m right where i wanna be. i just hope he’s right here next to me ;]
-mark anthony, anyone?

so anyways, i really don’t know if i had a good day or a bad day. i think i had an ok day. pacqiao won. that’s something to be happy about [although, i didn’t get to watch the fight on paperview so i really don’t care] i also got a new phone [grany’s updated to a colored phone so i get her 3310] and i watched ghost whisperer the whole day. i should be happy. 🙂

so, i guess i won’t go ruin the mood by talking about the bethany incident. lol. not pretty. hate chinese people in cebu. haha. sorry, ancestors i just don’t LOVE our blood. lol.

i’m gonna go i have a pink racket to find. casey’s taking up tennis now. swweet

If i don’t hear from you tonight i’m going to wake up simply wishing that i hadn’t

just because i know that nothing in life is permanent or for sure, i just wanna say it before i don’t get the chance to.

i’m putting it in writting [or print, whatever] just so you know i’ve been wishing for it.

i hope i hear from you tonight cuz honestly, you’re what i look forward to in the morning even if i’m never going to let you know that. I just hope to hear from you and know that you were thinking about me and you wanted me to know that. I don’t wanna stop hearing from you as long as it doesn’t hurt. and right now, it doesn’t so just keep on coming, boy. Let’s give this a shot.

i’ve been praying for something but i’m not going to be blinded by you. slightly though, ok. whatever. you could be a keeper.

If i don’t hear from you tonight i’m going to wake up simply wishing that i hadn’t

just because i know that nothing in life is permanent or for sure, i just wanna say it before i don’t get the chance to.

i’m putting it in writting [or print, whatever] just so you know i’ve been wishing for it.

i hope i hear from you tonight cuz honestly, you’re what i look forward to in the morning even if i’m never going to let you know that. I just hope to hear from you and know that you were thinking about me and you wanted me to know that. I don’t wanna stop hearing from you as long as it doesn’t hurt. and right now, it doesn’t so just keep on coming, boy. Let’s give this a shot.

i’ve been praying for something but i’m not going to be blinded by you. slightly though, ok. whatever. you could be a keeper.