anyways, i’m over it. i just wont go to school. simple.

“ring ring” checks phone: francis [shsj] Ü

do i really want this?

no

i think i want something else. and i’m not telling.

i think it’s a completely different thing when you don’t wanna tell your friends about him cuz you’re scared of spoiling it. spoiling your chances of being happy and spoiling your chances of being with him.

i wish he’d want me back. ❤

issa decides to get real.

done fantasizing here, thankyouverymuch.

anyways, my week has been hectic. i’m pilled with projects again. but it figures, once it’s this time of the quarter, this kind of stuff is expected. the only good thing about projects and p.t.’s is that we get to slack off alot and projects are a good source of income for me. making them for other people, that is. people must think i badly need the money cuz i’m soo into selling nowadays but, i don’t know.it’s something i wanna do for a very long time. i have a fetish for making my own money and watching it grow. mr. right, you’re gonna have to deal with that. 🙂 thank you, rich dad, poor dad. LMAO.

anyways, yesterday was fun for me. and my week has been pretty fair. my days are getting brighter despite the rain. ❤
the other day, i almost got drunk from a glass of wine. geez louise. krystle gyud. “is your mom a baker cuz you have great buns” you bitch. haha.

yesterday was fun too.i got my artwork loyalty card and i hung out with mikee [again] and marc.:) and they got to meet my mom! haha. which got my mom asking. geez. “who were they?” “unsa man to? kinsa nila nanguyab nimo?!” haha. fuck. sorry, marc. didn’t tell yoiu about that. Hehe?

i stayed up late yesterday reading old conversations on paper that i saved from my first year of highschool. dramatixx, man. lmao. i miss those times. i miss it badly. </3 i could never have what i had in stc all the way in mmch where little happens. but i’m fine. i have “other” things that keep me sane. like, staying up late at the thought of marc puking his guts out cuz of too many bazooka shots. lmao. i still don’t know what that is. so tell me, what’s your deepest and darkest secret? smug.

so, i guess i’m back to my normal life again. i got to go to the mall yesterday and just hang out with friends. i hung out and watched a movie with mikee, a friend from springdale which,i have to say was really weird for me. i think that was the first time i eer hung out with a guy, the whole day. it was kinda like a date, except the liking each other part.. wow. so, i can’t go out with a guy i like, but i can go out with a guy  i hardly know out of pure randomness. yeah, i’m getting there. one small step for me and one giant leap off to retard land. haha. it could be fun. lmao. i had fun with him. i’d do it again.. except next time with more people. lmao.

i was thrown out of victoria’s secre – i gave the secret away, and they just frown on that – paula poundstone <– I THINK THAT’S JUST HILLARIOUS

anyways, so, the mall was cool. i spent the rest of the night with cry and some other friends cuzit was her birthday. happy birthday, love. thanks for not really inviting me. HAHA. unsa ba oie. 😛 atay nlang. and when it was time to go home, i realized, my parents weren’t home so, it wwasn’t really time to go home yet. but.. i had nowhere to go but home so FUCK that. lmao.

anyways, i’m planning to rant soon. as if this wasn’t enough. geez

brb

i’m getting ready for school but i just wanted to drop by to let ya’ll know that i’m still partially alive. LOL.

since cheerdance is coming up and all, yumi, sam and carlow came over to make the actions. see, we’re independent like that. i heard the freshies are hiring a choreographer because they can afford one. kids, you can’t buy talent, that;s what i’ll tell you. now, sue me.

nothing to talk about. heard news from the girls about someone. i don’t care.

i’m cranky because it’s either i’m mad at the world or the world’s mad at me. the world’s mad at me because i haven’t done anything bad lately. lol. i think.

the way i choose to live my life is my decision. if you think that you can attack me with your stupid slut jokes then, you’re wrong. i’ll be fine without you. you have who you need and well, i’ll find him eventually.

i’m pissed at josh.

why?

because…