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So, it’s after Christmas and things’re pretty much
back to normal. Tito Louie was here for a day to visit but now he’s on his way to manila. papa’s out with him. i  got more gifts. hehe. what can i say.. i’m a gift hog. lol

yesterday i spent my afternoon at ayala with friends. the usual loves of my life. lol.

i bought francis a thankyouforbringingmetoyourprom gift and i would’ve gotten myself a top if i found one but after xmas days don’t seem very shoppy. lol.

christmas was very robotic and scripted. the usual, sun valley dinner, xmas mass at the chapel with the girls, maria luisa, noche buena, pictures, gift openning and home [wherever home was] to open gifts. lol.

last year, you could tell my relatives wanted me to “girl up” but this year they went pretty lax on me. i must be turning into the little grown up girl they wanted. which is why they got me big jackets and big bags. HAHA. pamilya.

this christmas wasn’t very special to me. lol. i don’t know. new year gas to be rockin.

whatever. my lolo’s 58 now. yey.

The loves of my Life ❤

CHABEL – the camel
ISSA – the iguanna
niña – the piña

stranded

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So, it’s after Christmas and things’re pretty much
back to normal. Tito Louie was here for a day to visit but now he’s on his way to manila. papa’s out with him. i  got more gifts. hehe. what can i say.. i’m a gift hog. lol

yesterday i spent my afternoon at ayala with friends. the usual loves of my life. lol.

i bought francis a thankyouforbringingmetoyourprom gift and i would’ve gotten myself a top if i found one but after xmas days don’t seem very shoppy. lol.

christmas was very robotic and scripted. the usual, sun valley dinner, xmas mass at the chapel with the girls, maria luisa, noche buena, pictures, gift openning and home [wherever home was] to open gifts. lol.

last year, you could tell my relatives wanted me to “girl up” but this year they went pretty lax on me. i must be turning into the little grown up girl they wanted. which is why they got me big jackets and big bags. HAHA. pamilya.

this christmas wasn’t very special to me. lol. i don’t know. new year gas to be rockin.

whatever. my lolo’s 58 now. yey.

The loves of my Life ❤

CHABEL – the camel
ISSA – the iguanna
niña – the piña

let’s settle this once and for all

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ok. i’ve been acting like a complete bitch who doesn’t want to talk to anyone. i’ve been dodging text messages and not answering my calls just because well, i’m just not in the mood too. i can do that, right? lol.

honestly, i cannot deny the happiness he brings me. because, yeah he does make me happy and everyone knows it.

but sometimes, it gets too serious and i can’t help but wish that it would all just… stop

it’s not that i don’t like him anymore but you know, it just seems a little too serious for my type. constantly texting, talking on the phone, talking about stuff for real. and i don’t do talk, i just let it happen and not care. and sometimes, i unno, i just don’t want it. like, it’s too much pressure.

honestly, i can’t help but think that we’re as cut out for each other as i think we should be. i’m tired of texting of talking on the phone lang and i have a feeling that it won’t be as fun in real actual life.

i don’t know. it’s xmas eve and i shouldn’t be feeling this way but despite the given time and date i can’t help but wish it all to end.

i’m soo evil right now

but i don’t think i can do this anymore.

i don’t i can do it.

i don’t wanna hurt anybody.

he’s the last guy i want to hurt. but honestly, i don’t think i can make him happy. i think all i’ll do is hurt him and hurt him. because quite frankly, i’m not the girl he thinks i am. sure, he gives me all these weird feelings but, i just have too many things going on in my life right now that i don’t know what i want or who i want or if i want to do this. i wish i could wish it all away. but i think i have to end it before i do something completely stupid. and i know for sure that i will. or already have. because that’s what i do. i do stupid things.

i’m sorry

mother meets promenade king

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yes, yesterday, mother and the whole shebang [papa, lolo, lola, tita tina and tito mike] met francis and boy, was that fun. lol

papa was actually dumbstruck for the first time in the 10 wonderful years that he’s been in my life. lol. he wasn’t able to talk to him and said that he was saving his questions for prom night. but you could tell by the way he was fiddling with things that yes, i got my papa’s heart beating crazy at the thought that i’m getting all grown up now. sob.

the talk was interesting and my god.. fast! mom just asked him when and what time i’d be home and where’d we go after prom.

now the woman can’t shuttup about the guy. she’s practically inlove with him. lol. i have no say on the matter.

sos, mama. lol. she says na he’s the kinda guy she wants me to be with, attractive, nice, well rounded and descent. lol. nya feel pud kaayu nimo, franc? HAHA.

apparently, they wanna see him around more.

so anyways, after they talked, he gave me his xmas gift. hand saniter. hehe. sipat. he always had a thing about me writing on my hands. lol. i’m an artist. kill me. haha. bitaw, i loved it. 🙂

soo.. after he left, the grown ups started talking about their high school romances. haha. that was funny. i just wasn’t paying enough attention to write it in details. lol

so now, i’ve gone all lazy on marc. i’m soo sorry but i do this to people. i’m like that. i put people through misery and pretend it’s my job to. im just like that.

i should warn you that i change my mind very quickly witout even thinking. i get restless and pulan-non and when i do, i tend to let go of certain things no matter how much they mean to me.

i’m just like that. and i wnat you to know to know this in case this happens. and i have a feeling that maybe it will. 😐

next blog please..

i swear to god i’ve been nothing but nice

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it’s the 23..i think and i’ve been home all day. well, except for angie’s house where i almost got eaten alive by her tiny dog. lol.

yesterday was the christmas party where i got to wear my pretty black dress that i lurved soo much. lol.

the party was ayt. i thought teacher jojo got me but teacher paski got me. lol. and i even have the nerve to shout, “i knew a teacher got me” in fronna anne and sam which was pretty stupid cuz i thought teacher jo did. lol. but i had a feeling it was a teacher anyways so i was pretty damn close!! lol.

my whole day was spent at ayala and just that. i got to talk to marc the whole night which was fun. slept at around 12 and yeah, that’s that.

today ; tomorrow until maybe next week

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today was the last day of tests. yey for that. lol. we had filipino and english which was synch. i just hope my grades make me feel like it was. lol.

i have a new love. and no, it’s not a boy nor a school supply! it’s a book. yey. i have a new hobby. lol. it’s the diary of a crush. lol. so, in some way, a little bit of something is still involved. but it fancies the hell outta me and i’ve learned some new kick ass words like arse, kiss slut and the word fancy now fancies me and whatelse? argh. i want a vintage dress now. lol.

anyways, christmas break is almost on it’s way! all i have to go through next is our xmas party and then i’m free. i think i’ll be totally bumped out tomorrow because i have pratically been snobbed by my bandmates who might be playing tomorrow. i don’t know. i could care less right now. if i’m not wanted then i won’t beg on my knees to be wanted. but honestly… i kinda wish they’d want me. oh well, i wont need to put up with this for long. i’m almost off the hook.

the only thing that excites me about tomorrow is that i get to wear my pretty new dress that mommy bought me from bayo. i’ve been rambling on about how pretty it is and how pretty i could look in it to vince and marc. you know i know that you love me. lol.

i spent the whole day at ayala and i’ve been out for 3 days yet until now, i haven’t finished xmas shopping yet and i’m broke. who knew boys clothes costed millions. milions that i don’t have 😦 haha.

well anyways, ima go now. i only asked for 5 minutes from people so, scram.

what’s gonna work? teamwork

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what’s NOT going to work? haha. zecrt-oh amig-oh!

lmao.

so aside from the world being cruel to me, things have actually been turning out ok for me. i mean, i did have to stay in the library after the tests due to the lack on friends at school but aside from that, i’m fine.

i figured, i’m ok with everything for real. if i don’t hear from him, aww.. ok rapud. just make sure i don’t hear from him in a very long time.

no more choices for me. santa knows what i want this christmas. make it good, mister. common, i know you want to 😉

i can’t wait to go xmas shopping for my outfit on friday. i want a pretty dress and i’m not taking skirts as an option right now. yes, thank you 🙂

mom’s home. now i’m not in the ranting mood. she just reminded me of how miserble i am at home.

argh, matey!