I DON’T HAVE A GOOD REASON TO GET MAD BUT FUCK, I’M MAD ANYWAYS AND I DON’T CARE IF I DON’T HAVE THE RIGHT TO GET MAD OR NOT.
PISTIIIIIII JUD OIE. OMG, OMG, OMG. I’M HAVING A REALLY BAD HEADACHE TO TOP IT ALL OFF. BLOOD IS RUSHING UP TO MY BRAIN FOR CRYING OUT LOUD. FUCK OIE.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, TONG. SORRY I COULDN’T GO BUT AT LEAST MY BOYFRIEND WENT WITHOUT ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so here’s a little piece of everything that i am.
here’s my little bible.
i bring it with me almost everywhere i go and i write in it all the time. like, ALL the time. i can’t help it. james and everyone else i know probably thinks i’m sucha loser cuz i can’t live without writting but boo you. at least i’m human and i’m alive.
so here, enjoy! š
so here’s a little piece of everything that i am.
here’s my little bible.
i bring it with me almost everywhere i go and i write in it all the time. like, ALL the time. i can’t help it. james and everyone else i know probably thinks i’m sucha loser cuz i can’t live without writting but boo you. at least i’m human and i’m alive.
so here, enjoy! š
it’s soo typical to write a reaction paper starting with the words, based on the movie and blah2 but i’m soo completely out of words and i am in no position to write a real blog. the movie was scary.
so here’s to lousy reviews…
Jean Louise I. Chua IV- Platinum
La La La Amistad
From the
movie Amistad, Iāve learned that freedom is something that we shouldnāt take
lightly because while most of us are taking full advantage of such a great
blessing, there are still tons of people, whom like the Mendae people, are
still fighting for their freedom. It may not be exactly like their situation
but I can still think of many instances where everyday people have to fight for
what we think is right and for our own freedom.
Sometimes
life requires us to take big jumps and to take risks. Sometimes these might not
be according to what we would want if we could have things our way but then
sometimes life doesnāt exactly give us a lot of choices either. Just like in
the movie, the Mendae people were forced to kill the people on the La Amistad
because they wanted what was rightfully theirs ā their freedom. And you canāt
blame a person for fighting for something like that.
I admire
people who fight for what they believe in and also those people who fight what
they know is theirs. It takes a lot of guts to do that especially when it feels
like youāve lost everything. Kudos.
let’s give your eyes something better to look at. you know, other than my face. HAHAHA. jk
well, today i got saved which just makes me feel 100 times luckier than i already am. because james [the best boyfriend in the world] rescued me from this little bitch named rv.
pogi points:
ganda points:
proof that i can bend backwards: i hung out with james and his classmates [which is something i never imagined.] because i know that if i wasn’t up to it, i’d have to force myself to be nice and talk and shit but then, no, i didn’t have to. it was ayt. i like who i am when i’m with him. i swear, i’m like a saint, i’d turn lesbian on my self even. LOL.
you know what? i look at this picture and i remember that night i showed this to you on ym. i remember saving it to show to you and hoping to god that when i showed it to you, you’d mean what you said to me. [i love you too, girlfriend. or it was cute. either] idk, i was soo odd that time. i knew that at first it was just a joke to you and that’s how it was for me but in the middle of everything, i still have trouble deciphering whether if it was real or if it was really just a game.
but i got my answers and i am soo happy that for once, i got what i wanted and this time, it actually feels like something i deserve.
me and james’re really good. we’ve been really good lately. i’ve been coming up with really good alibi’s for the rests, too. they’ve never suspected anything. and god, let’s just keep it that way, k? thanks.
i get to talk to him on the phone almost everyday [when we’re both NOT busy] and i see him at least thrice a week and that’s pretty good considering the fact that the only time we spend is in the car when he picks me up to drop me home which is like, 30 minutes away from his place. i have a hot driver. ya’ll just jealous. lol.
and yeah, things’re just really good. and i really do mean it when i say that i’m falling more inlove with him everyday. [thankyou,god.really.]
school’s been ayt. toshio is the funniest fag in the whole world! i got caught with a cosmopolitan magazine and i had to entertain some guests over the past 2 days, too.
OMG, RAT!!
fuck.plus i had a rotary interact meeting and review classes at the same time today.
just got home from boxing at waterfront. vip and everything. it was freaking awesome!!! hahaha.
plus the most interesting part of it all was running into james’ car for less than a minute cuz he decided to drop by because he was feeling like a kiss slut and insisted on getting a smooch before he went out with his friends.
i still have some major seducing to do tomorrow and you’ll suffer for sure because YOU CAN’T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT!!!! ;P
seriously. i don’t know what i’d do without you. ā¤
soo gay yet, oh so true ā¤
forever? forever.
so today there was a little drama [mellow drama?] at school. rv is a pig and i’m going to swear to try my best to avoid that guy. he’s too much trouble.
school’s school. nothing new.
so today there was a little drama [mellow drama?] at school. rv is a pig and i’m going to swear to try my best to avoid that guy. he’s too much trouble.
school’s school. nothing new.
Chorus:
One thing is clear,
I wear a halo,
I wear a halo when you look at me,
But standing from here, you wouldn’t say so
you wouldn’t say so, if you were me
And I, I just wanna love you,
Oh oh I, I just wanna love you
Verse 2
I always said that I would make mistakes,
I’m only human, and thatās my saving grace,
I fall as hard as I try
So don’t be blinded
See me as I really am, I have flaws and sometimes I even sin,
so pull me from that pedestal,
I don’t belong there.
Why you think that you know me
But In your eyes
I am something above you
Itās only in your mind
Only in your mind
I wear a
I wear a
I wear a Halo
so i know i’m going to manila by the end of the month cuz i jus know that they just can’t say no to me cuz i’m too freaking awesome and i put on a great show and cuz well.. why wouldn’t they say know? they don’t have any good reasons to say no.
but yeah, in the process of it all, there were tears [fake or unfake, there were tears] and silence. i cause drama in the family. it’s hard. lol.
well, papa blurted out that he feels like i’m more open to my dad about james [hot topic, as usual] than i am with him cuz he happened to come across a conversation on ours on YM where he assumed that i was telling him stuff about james that i wouldn’t tell him.http://http://www.xanga.com/Aa_bEbE_pHaT_aA/599479445/you-currently-appear-offline-to-daaady-chua.html he is fucking gay, i swear to god. i mean, i tell him MORE stuff. i mean, i already did tell him everything he needed to know. and to think, i trusted him sooo much but what did he do? he went and told mommy everything. just goes to show his level of secrecy. but yeah, can you blame him? i mean, my mother is pretty anal and probably set up that whole coffee thing cuz she knows for sure that i wouldn’t tell her squat.
then he said that it was a slap in his face for me to be talking to a useless dad such as mine.
i am not taking sides and i am not sidding on anyone. it’s too much drama. i’ve learned that shutting up once in a while does do someone [in this case, me] some good.
but as long as i come up with 10 k within the month, i’m good. i have my ways. haha. bagiou, here i come!
on the fairytale side:
james has been doing some very fucked up shit to me lately and i am hating him soo much for it. kasi, ang kulit kulit mo kasi, eh. sabi ngang huwag! HAHAHAHA. pisti ka. FIX THIS!!
suko suko pa kuno. haha. no, seriously.
paybaaaack!!
wait ka lang.
http://http://www.cosmomagazine.com.ph/love/?article_id=150
http://http://www.cosmomagazine.com.ph/love/index.php?article_id=145
because cosmo is sexaaaay. hahahah
geez-us. this should be private
i just got home from the ultimate party ever. i was out by 7 in the morning and home at 7 in the morning. aren’t i awesome? š haha.
good day, not so good night.
i’m a screw up, i know.
i used to really hate sweet loveyd ovey quotes because i really could never relate and that just sucked like hell. but yeah, now… it just feels really good to you know.. finally relate 
well, not ALL. i’m still a lil emo deep down inside :p
it`s amazing the things you realize when you lose someone:
you get mad at yourself for not saying the things you could’ve a million times, you take for granted the days spent doing nothing when you could have been with them. anyone can be taken, at any time in our lives, but we always wait until they’re gone to say the things we never had the courage to before.
I missed 11:11 by just a minute last night;
I guess that’s fate’s way of telling me
you’re not worth wishing for anymore.
Like a warm summer night,
or kisses on the forehead..
you`re all kinds of smiles to me
Everything`s perfect when we kiss
i’m just a summer girl
i wear flip flops
when i let my hair down
thats when the party starts
who needs a boyfriend
i got my girl friends
when we get together
the summer never ends
You know he’s something special
when no matter what kind of mood you’re
in, he can always manage to make you smile.
Before I met you, I never knew what
it was like to be able to look at someone
and smile for no reason.
you wrapped your arms around me,
pressing your body against mine,
& in that moment of perfection
i knew we were meant to be..
& i never wanted you to let me go
ve met a guy; who`s not scared to laugh at me
& call me a loser when i do something dumb.
a guy that`ll run up behind me & cover my
eyes & ask me to guess who he is, even
though it`s pretty obvious. a guy who hides
behind a corner & jumps out to scare me,
so he’d have a reason to hold me. a guy that
leaves me numberous voicemails, just cause.
a guy that`d call to wake me up in the morning,
cause he wants to be the first voice i hear each
day. a guy that would never let go of my hand.
a guy that would look me in the eyes & tell me he
loves me. & mean it. yeah, that guy. i think i found
the guy i`m supposed to give my whole heart to.
He`s the boy that will grab your hand
& pull you into the middle of the road to dance.
No people. No cars. No music.
He just wanted an excuse to hold you close
you`re not the kind of guy that would
ignore me when you`re with your friends,
but hold me tighter & kiss me a little
harder, just to make them jealous.
Live your life so the preacher
doesnt have to lie at your funeral
Last summer, well, I made mistakes.
This summer, well, I’ll make more.
It’s so hard to be strong when you love the one thing that makes you weak.
One summer and one boy..
and suddenly, things werent the same.. ā¤
She talks about you
like you put the stars in the sky.
find the one you can be yourself in front of.
you can smile, you can cry, you can scream,
you can kiss, you can hug, you can fight &
make up by the end of the night and would
still be absolutely crazy about each otherx3.
and one day we will die, and our ashes will fly
from the airplane over the sea. but for now
we are young. let us lay in the sun and count
every beautiful thing we see.
we fight over things that don’t matter,
and we say things that we only end up wishing we could take back.
but you’ll always be the only one i want to be in love with at the end of each day.
It’s thoughts like this that catch my troubled head. When you’re away I’m missing you to death.
there’s nothing more dangerous, than a bad boy with charm.
Sometimes when you’re dealing with extraordinary people, you need to take a risk.
Second chances are about holding on to that other person’s hand no matter how hard they beg to let go.
She was always second best, so she never thought she’d be the first he picked. She never thought he wanted her so bad
I remember the times being just friends with you.
& I remember the time when I could look at you
& not want to kiss you.
I’m not perfect. I’ll annoy you, I’ll piss
you off, say stupid things, then take it all back. But put all that
aside, and realize that you’ll never find a girl who cares more about
you than me.
i want someone who wont care
that i hate wearing shoes
that im incapable of sitting still,
that i cant grasp the concept of cleaning
and i refuse to be ladylike.
someone who realizes
that half the decisions i make
are usally ones that i regret
and i have the right to overreact at any given moment.
i want someone who knows im completely insane
but wouldnt want me any other way
She’s a mess of gorgeous chaos,
and you can see it in her eyes.
“You know that place
between sleep and awake, the place where you can still remember
dreaming? That’s where I’ll always love you, that’s where I’ll be
waiting.”
-Peter Pan
But if I wanted silence, then I would whisper.
If I wanted loneliness, then I’d choose to go.
If I liked rejection, then I’d audition,
and if I didn’t love you, you would know.
Climb out on the rooftop and stare at the city lights below us. This world belongs to us tonight.
i want to be that girl he’s scared to lose. the one that he
can’t walk away from knowing shes mad at him. the one
who he can’t fall asleep without her voice being the last
one he hears. the one he wouldn’t know what to do without.
my paradise isnt on a beach…its in his arms
i need you like a bad habit ā¤
The trouble with life is that there is no backround music.
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