40 little secrets

40 little Secrets

Be honest no matter what.

[ONE] Who were your latest 3 inbox texts from?

– James, James, James
.

[TWO] Where was your default pic taken?

– At the back of Nina’s car on Sinulog sa Sto. Nino.

.

[THREE] What’s your middle name?

– Inocencio

.

[FOUR] Your current relationship status?

– In a Relationship ?

.

[FIVE] Does your crush like you back?

– well, if joe jonas ever met me, i bet he would. lol

.

[SIX] What is your current mood?

– oblivious

.

[SEVEN] What’s your mom’s name?

– Cathy

.

[EIGHT] What color shirt are you

wearing?

– White mostly

.

[NINE] Would you kiss the last person
you kissed?

over and over again

.

[TEN] If you could go back in time and
change something, would you?

– yess, a lot of things.

.

[ELEVEN] Have a crazy side?

– the craziest ;]

.

[TWELVE] Ever had a near death
experience?

– yes.

.

[THIRTEEN] What is something you do a
lot?

cry.

.

[FOURTEEN] Angry at anyone?

– myself

.

[FIFTEEN] Do you wanna see somebody
right Now? who?

– yeah but then it’s no one in particular.
i just wanna be around people right now.

.

[SIXTEEN] Do you like drama?

– no. i’m anti-drama

.

[SEVENTEEN] When was the last time you
cried?

– this afternoon, in james car. i sobbed.
i bet he didn’t notice.

.

[EIGHTEEN] Who would you do anything
for?

– james and my papa and miguel, my brother.

.

[NINETEEN] Who is your hero?

– Jesus
and my mom

.

[TWENTY] What is the one thing you
notice first with the opposite/same sex?

– wallet ;] haha jp

.

[TWENTY-TWO] What’s your biggest
secret?

– my biggest secret is that:
i would be lost without you…

.

[TWENTY-THREE] Where is your ex?

– non existent

[TWENTY-FOUR] Would you ever take him/
her back?

– if he begged

.

[TWENTY-FIVE] Do you still watch kiddy
movies or tv shows?

– ALL THE TIME

.

[TWENTY-SIX] What are you eating or
drinking at the moment?

– nothing.

.

[TWENTY-SEVEN] Do you speak any other
languages?

– yes, yes, i do.

.

[TWENTY-EIGHT] Whats your favorite
smell?

– james. god he smells so good.
.

[TWENTY-NINE] Describe your life.

– fucked up


.

[THIRTY] Have you ever kissed in the
rain?

– yes. plenty of times.
and it rocks!

.

[THIRTY-ONE] Do you like the rain?

– very much.

[THIRTY-TWO] What are you thinking
about right now?

– what to wear to hope’s party.

[THIRTY-THREE] What should you be
doing right now?

– nothing.

.

[THIRTY-FOUR] What is your favorite
memory?

– church camp.

.

[THIRTY-FIVE] What are you listening
to?

– my sister coughing

.

[THIRTY-SIX] Who was the last person
you told that you love?

– james. and he didn’t say i love you back :[

.

[THIRTY-EIGHT] Do you act differently
around the person you like?

– yes.
honestly?
yes.

.

[THIRTY-NINE] What is your natural
hair color?

– the color my hair is now. ;]

[FORTY] Who was the last person to
make you smile?

– the people who sent my NSO papers

40 little secrets

40 little Secrets

Be honest no matter what.

[ONE] Who were your latest 3 inbox texts from?

– James, James, James
.

[TWO] Where was your default pic taken?

– At the back of Nina’s car on Sinulog sa Sto. Nino.

.

[THREE] What’s your middle name?

– Inocencio

.

[FOUR] Your current relationship status?

– In a Relationship ?

.

[FIVE] Does your crush like you back?

– well, if joe jonas ever met me, i bet he would. lol

.

[SIX] What is your current mood?

– oblivious

.

[SEVEN] What’s your mom’s name?

– Cathy

.

[EIGHT] What color shirt are you

wearing?

– White mostly

.

[NINE] Would you kiss the last person
you kissed?

over and over again

.

[TEN] If you could go back in time and
change something, would you?

– yess, a lot of things.

.

[ELEVEN] Have a crazy side?

– the craziest ;]

.

[TWELVE] Ever had a near death
experience?

– yes.

.

[THIRTEEN] What is something you do a
lot?

cry.

.

[FOURTEEN] Angry at anyone?

– myself

.

[FIFTEEN] Do you wanna see somebody
right Now? who?

– yeah but then it’s no one in particular.
i just wanna be around people right now.

.

[SIXTEEN] Do you like drama?

– no. i’m anti-drama

.

[SEVENTEEN] When was the last time you
cried?

– this afternoon, in james car. i sobbed.
i bet he didn’t notice.

.

[EIGHTEEN] Who would you do anything
for?

– james and my papa and miguel, my brother.

.

[NINETEEN] Who is your hero?

– Jesus
and my mom

.

[TWENTY] What is the one thing you
notice first with the opposite/same sex?

– wallet ;] haha jp

.

[TWENTY-TWO] What’s your biggest
secret?

– my biggest secret is that:
i would be lost without you…

.

[TWENTY-THREE] Where is your ex?

– non existent

[TWENTY-FOUR] Would you ever take him/
her back?

– if he begged

.

[TWENTY-FIVE] Do you still watch kiddy
movies or tv shows?

– ALL THE TIME

.

[TWENTY-SIX] What are you eating or
drinking at the moment?

– nothing.

.

[TWENTY-SEVEN] Do you speak any other
languages?

– yes, yes, i do.

.

[TWENTY-EIGHT] Whats your favorite
smell?

– james. god he smells so good.
.

[TWENTY-NINE] Describe your life.

– fucked up


.

[THIRTY] Have you ever kissed in the
rain?

– yes. plenty of times.
and it rocks!

.

[THIRTY-ONE] Do you like the rain?

– very much.

[THIRTY-TWO] What are you thinking
about right now?

– what to wear to hope’s party.

[THIRTY-THREE] What should you be
doing right now?

– nothing.

.

[THIRTY-FOUR] What is your favorite
memory?

– church camp.

.

[THIRTY-FIVE] What are you listening
to?

– my sister coughing

.

[THIRTY-SIX] Who was the last person
you told that you love?

– james. and he didn’t say i love you back :[

.

[THIRTY-EIGHT] Do you act differently
around the person you like?

– yes.
honestly?
yes.

.

[THIRTY-NINE] What is your natural
hair color?

– the color my hair is now. ;]

[FORTY] Who was the last person to
make you smile?

– the people who sent my NSO papers

Not your average friday

unfortunately, i don’t have anything good to pair up with my title but i thought i’d make my life seem a little bit eventful. lol.

it’s a friday and apparently, my 3 hour break from my first semester turned into a 5 hour break on wednesdays and fridays. but i’ve managed to keep myself busy on such breaks [obviously] by going to the mall or having lunch with my friends. i guess the upside to not having time with james is being able to hang out and make up for lost time with my friends.

but honestly, i’d rather spend all my time with him again. 😦

me and james have planned to cook on saturday [tomorrow] and i’m really excited about that. we haven’t hung out much at all since sem break and sometimes, he doesn’t even wanna hang out during long breaks which sucks but then again, he’s tired and i guess i wouldn’t wanna add up to all the pressure he’s going through so i just try my best to stay out of his goddamn bussiness, yk?

aside from all the time we rarelly get to spend togther, things’ll just get worse and worse once he starts duty.

i guess i just have to keep telling myself that if other people did it, why can’t i.

aside from the jamestales, i had a really stressful morning today. my paper for filipino wasn’t good enough. apparently, i don’t punctuate well and to top it all off, there was this fat bitch in the library who kept laughing while i was trying to write notes for majors.

but aside from everything else, i’ve been better. me and james turned 1 year and 7 months yesterday but it wasn’t a big deal. i think the longer you are in a relationship, the less things seem important.. for james.

i think i’ve blogged enough.

oh and the year is about to end, i’m ready to blog my heart out like tradition. 😉

chao.

Stocked!!

hello there,

I miss you. do you think of me where you are? or do i simply float by like i tend to?

i miss you and you know that but i must not mean anything to you and you probably don’t miss my snooze fests but i am anyways.

i love you and stop being so stupid.

don’t leave me.

i know you’re about to. but please stay.

Let’s Dance

lately school’s been a drag [but then again, that must be nothing new to any of the few who still read my blog, right?] lol.

anyways, school starts at 10:30 tomorrow so i thought i’d take the time to just relax and blog since i haven’t done it in a while. 😦

but i’m kind of having a mental block right now. it sucks. this could’ve been my chaaaance 😥

but honestly, i’m so bugged about james right now. he’s being different, he’s acting differently, treating me differently and yk, i can’t help but think that maybe he doesn’t love me anymore.

maybe i’m just such a bad person. a bad girlfriend. maybe it’s my fault cuz i can’t seem to make him happy anymore.

i mean, we hardly spend time together and the little times that we do, he either, he’s busy, he made plans, he doesn’t wanna hang out with me or we’re fighting which makes him NOT wanna hang out with me more.

sometimes i feel like he really wants me out of his life now. like the distance is making him happy and maybe he wants it permanently.

i’m not supposed to be blogging about this but i can’t help it. i just need to talk about this right now.

i ALWAYS plan stuff for him to wanna want me. down to the smallest notes and doodles that i make for him. i’ve been planning his badging gift, xmas gift AND new years gift and despite how hard i try, i don’t get anything in return.

i just want to be loved the way he used to love me because i know that there was a time when he did. but i just haven’t felt it in a long time.

i love him, no doubt. but sometimes i feel like i’m not getting anything out of this relationship anymore.

 

nursing is suicide

my body organs are malfunctioning, my eye bags are black as hell, i have no time for my boyfriend (and vice versa) and uggh, this is college. Nursing to be specific.

lately i’ve been thinking about proceding. maybe i could be a cosmetic surgeon or an internist but then again, i don’t think i’m mentally capable of doing so.

i can’t imagine myself doing anything anymore. everyday i remind myself that this isn’t high school. if i don’t do good, i’ll mess up my entire future. i’m not willing to do that.

i have tons of shit to do and it’s a sunday. i need a vacation. 😦

i’ll blog soon. [if i have anything else to blog about other than school and people i hate at school]

i’m becoming more and more of a bitch.

just wanted you to know 😛

hollah

issa p

scratched and bruised.

just woke up after 15 hours of sleep- the most awesome sleep i’ve EVER had.

yeah, i just came back from the beach and i must say, it was AWESOME!!! 🙂

me and james stayed up all night and watched the sun rise and talked about shit. and when it was time to sleep, i just ended up kissing him the whole time. it was something i’m never going to forget and something i’d definitely do again.

i’m bruised and scratched all over now though and i don’t even have THAT many pictures. i guess that’s the down side of NOT HAVING A CAMERA. haha. but gaaah whatever.

i wanna narrate everything that happened but i’m just too lazy to.

i just had so much fun…!!

 

i’m going to a stop light party tonight.

green if youre single
yellow/ orange if “it’s complicated” and
red if you’re aken.

i’m probably going in yellow. i d k about james..

we’ll find out.

the big V

virginity

yeah, you heard me right. i’m talking about it. i don’t know why but i feel like i’m at a stage in my life where it’s just right to talk about it – i feel like it’s time. NOT TO LOOSE IT but to OPEN UP ABOUT IT.

i’m almost turning 18 and i’m one the eldest in my circle of friends and despite the age issue, i’m one of the few left among us who is still a virgin. and if i did decide to do it in the near future, i would still be one of the few who has done it with only one guy.

i don’t know why this is so suprising to me right now but what’s the big deal with sex anyways?

i can honestly say that i’ve gone as far as i need to go in my relationship [or should i say past :(] but i’ve always tried to “keep the confetti in my closet” and i have to be honest, it’s hard. waaaaaay hard. and i hate being in this situation where i shouldn’t do “it” but a big part of me wants to. i hate the fact that i could possibly be open to the idea of actually having sex now. it just shouldn’t be this way. my mind should be made up and it should be saying NO to this.

but then when you’re thrown out there, sometimes i feel like “what the hell..” and then everything just seems different.

i wanna stay clean for as long as i can but why does it feel like mission impossible to me?

everyone’s asking if there’s a right time and place to do it but everyone’s going against all the answers they know by heart and it sucks because my friends should know better.

i should know better to know that sex outside of marriage shouldn’t even be an option!

i guess it’s just a matter of choice now. if i do it, it should be something i can look back and not feel stupid about. it should be meaningful. it HAS to be love and nothing less.

are YOU a virgin?
and if not, how was your first time?