why i didn’t mind staying home one friday night :)
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Just to put your mind at ease, you don’t owe me anything.
You paid me well in memories.
And I sit here staring at your name, wondering if I should talk to you or not. Part of me wants to hold on to what used to be, but the rest of me knows that I really shouldn’t.
You paid me well in memories.
And I sit here staring at your name, wondering if I should talk to you or not. Part of me wants to hold on to what used to be, but the rest of me knows that I really shouldn’t.
And i beleive in chasing memories and holding on to what you think is true. And I believe in climbing rainbows to see what’s on the other side.
[Skye McGibney]
it’s been days since i’ve seen you hours since i’ve talked to you minutes since i last heard your name but yet it has been onlya matter of seconds since i’ve thought of you.
today i realized that i want to be with someone who i can go all out with. someone who i can laugh my head off and run around and be downright ridiculous with. Not somebody who’ll tie me down and tell me to sit quietly and listen. that’s not the type of girl i am. *i act like a kid but i don’t think like one
*i am crazy, *silly and *outrageous and i want you to take me this way. * I DO NOT LIKE FOLLOWING INSTRUCTIONS. *i am hard headed and *spoiled. *I am thrift [chink, hellloooo], *i would like to go to parks and feed ducks there, *i like surprises and *being hugged. *i liked being babied and *i’m not the sweetest,*prettiest girl among the flock but * i’ll make it worth your while. *i like it when people take chances on me because *i like taking chances on people and *falling in love and *sometimes, i like flings but hardly ever. *i would some day like to go to a cemetery and * have a candlelight dinner there. * if you sang for me, i’d be happy, * if you dressed up as a girl and * let me put make up on you- i’d love you forever. and * if you kept my secrets then i’d love you even more.
* i’m a sinner. I sin a lot. * i’m a liar, i lie and tell myself i don’t have feelings for you when in fact, i do. * i am a bad speller but i know how to spell your name in 7 letters – amazing. :]
well you don’t call me baby anymore and you haven’t said you missed me in a while either. You don’t send me kisses and you never call. things’ve changed and i’m not quite sure why. i would like to say that i don’t care because usually i don’t but i’m finding that hard to do because a little piece of me really does and a bigger part wants to know why. if you have somewhere else to be, then leave and i won’t ask why, i won’t even stop you cause if i’m not going to be with you, i might as well be with someone else. and that’s just how it is and that’s how it will always be.
it’s not something i brag about but today 2 guys asked for my number. if i had to choose them over you, i’d choose you in a heartbeat. THIS is how deluded i am now.
someone save me. i need to be saved, i’m not as strong as i thought.
i wish you’d see things the way i see it.
my life in pictures [past two weekends]
being high.. on life.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KIM!!!
even if i didn’t see you that night š¦
edit: MORE PICTURES FROM THAT NIGHT
to dexie, with love
Issa Perez power slut girl diay ko ha
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kiNSa inGon iSS?? HAHA!
ambot ninyo. hahaha.
iss.. dugay naman na nwala oie.. 1st sem pa jd nah… it was supposed to be a joke rman gud… coz my first empression nimuh kai the “it” of the class… like ur maldita bah… but i took it all back najud knowing u now… [i hope ur not mad at me].. (T-T)…
sorry babe, i’m pretty pissed now. ok ra unta kung hilas, oa, arte but god slut naman lang sa tanan butang! and to think we went through the whole first semester not knowing. kinsa sad uroy ka noh na mu tawag namo ana kada agi namo unsa were you hoping lingiun ka namo sa imung pagka patagad?! swertia nimo ah. and everyone but us knew. hilas ra kai ka dah pag huna2x sa kinsa ka usa ka mag pina may ngara.
Iss sorry na.. wa man ko nagpinamay… i know i shouldn’t have pulled that joke… please forgive me lng jud
you are so lucky i didn’t find about this when this was all happening.
no.. i put an end to it already naman dugay na… coz i realized that my 1st impression was not that accurate…. joke rajud toh nga pagkasay iss… wat can i do man.. i feel really bad about myself jud… naghilak jud ko diri…
[please forgive me]
haLaaa! =(
oh mama
i never got to tell you that i went to james’ place last night. yeah, i was at his sisters’ baby’s dedication cuz i’m a god mother. aren’t i awesome? i’m a ninang. š
i want a baby soo bad 
anyways, so i was there and it was awkward in ways because i was suddenly demoted from “girl friend” to his “cousins classmate from MMIS”.
do i think it’s weird that he doesn’t talk to me? yes. do i think it’s unfair that he can’t even look me in the eye? double yes. but what’s actually more annoying for me is the fact that we can’t/ aren’t friends. because i remember how we use to treat each other before we got together and how we were such good friends and i miss it. i don’t miss him being my boyfriend, i just miss being friends with him. and i don’t understand why were not or why he avoids me or why he acts like i’m some kind of disease that he needs to stay away from. it’s not like i’m ever going to ask for him back like i did before. i just wish he was more mature than this.
i think i’ll try talking to him about this soon but then maybe it’ll just be a waste of time- and knowing him, it will be.
on other matters, i want somebody š¦ period. i wanna be in a relationship again. i wanna belong somebody and i want it to work. i don’t want it to be as complicated as it was the last time and i just wanna be in that moment again. you know where time stands still and you could just spend the rest of your life in that moment and be content no matter how tiny/ lame that moment is? i miss that. or you know that feeling where you would do ANYTHING just to see that person even if it were for a spit second? and a glance would be more than enough.
i always want what i shouldn’t have. i always want what’ll hurt me. i always want and never give or get. i want you to want me.
speaking of things i want: i want to play LEFT4DEAD
josh and kim promised we’d play. RJ doesn’t want any part of this so screw screw screw. i’ll be the girl š
hollah
i will NEVER drink again… or maybe not. it’s undecided.
oh mann oh mann oh mann.
yesterday i went to kim inting’s party. i told my mom i was going to chab’s sister’s despidida after the baby dedication cuz we really were supposed to… until we found out na lunch diay ang party instead of dinner. and i guess i got in trouble cuz i told my mom that i was going home at 12 and at 12 i told her i was going home at 2 so.. hehe. š but i’m not in uber trouble so whatever. i’m ok.
we have a new carrr š š š š but i really want this one…
Alfa Romeo Milano
Highlights: Set to debut at the Frankfurt Auto Show in September, the Milano is expected to boast a 120-horsepower 4-cylinder or 265-hp V6 engine. It sold briefly in North America (and was called the 75 elsewhere) in the late 1980s and early 1990s but disappeared when Alfa left the continent.
Why we care: Experts are speculating that the five-door Milano will form the basis for a new Chrysler sedan. It’ll go on sale in Europe first, then likely come to the U.S. a few years later.
i like it cuz it looks sexy š hehe
so anyways about last night.. i got so wasted. at first we were doing body shots on each other [just us girls though] then i stopped to play poker and suddenly LOST MY MIND WHILE PLAYING POKER. and the madness began there. hahaha. i don’t even remember what i did! basta lingaw kaaaaayo!! hahaha. i came home with salt all over my body. pisti. and that’s it, happy birthday nalang gyud.
hit, hit – miss.
you always leave me thinking twice about you and i’m not completely sure about how i feel about you anymore. oh i want so desperately to fall in love. so in love that i can no longer contain myself and just want to run into your arms like how it is in the movies.
is tihs pms? i shall shower
why i love being alive.. right now.:P
“I’m crazy, and I don’t pretend to be anything else.”
“Well, let it pass, he thought; April is over, April is over. There are all kinds of love in the world, but never the same love twice.”
I went so fucking far to please you. It makes me sick.
This is not going to make me happy. I can see where this is headed. I am going to be broken and left alone, like last time. Like every time. I need to get over me. I need to get over you. I need to get out to get back in. I can’t. I can’t give up. I need to, though. Save myself. But maybe, for now we can pretend. And I can try.
And right now, i don’t understand why you have this power over me.i don’t understand how it’s even possible for me to be scared of the possibilities of me losing you. This was not the plan i had in mind, i was not supposed to fall for you. But i am and today i cried over you. I called your friend and i asked him to help me because the thought of just not talking to you made my insides weak.
i wonder why i let you get this close. i thought i was strong, i thought the next time this wouldn’t happen but it has and i guess im not as strong as i thought i was. i guess i can’t hold my ground as much as i pictured and i guess i like you more than i bargained for. am i wrong? am i crazy?
i am all those things, aren’t i?
liudafuashdlf
bogo issa, bogo.
š¦ š¦ š¦ š¦ š¦ š¦ š¦ š¦
i don’t even understand why i care anymore.
give grace with a face
i just want you to know that the fact that you’re here and you stayed and the fact that you’re being civil and smart makes me really happy. you make me happy and you make everything feels less sucky. i go through my whole day complaining but knowing that you’re here just makes everything feel less like a shit hole. thanks ok?
Such A Long Way Back, From This Place We Arrived.
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