I don’t believe in things like karma [anymore] or that you can just suddenly stop loving someone.

I don’t think that you can be in-love with a person all the time but love, yes, I do believe that you can love someone for the rest of your life. And that’s how I feel about you.

And I miss you more than I miss pizza and hamburgers and even more than I could ever miss ice cream and it’s killing me. I feel so empty right now and the hard part is that noone’s here to hold me and tell me that everything’s going to be ok.

And I’m never going to be ok.

I was wrong to think that we could last forever because the reality is there might not even be one for me. Ever.

I love you to no end. But we shouldn’t be like this.

Must we always be so quiet and bottled up?

And am I always going to feel like this?

So close but yet again, so far away.

FUCK THIS.

A. Age: 20

B. Bed size: Single

C. Chore you hate: Sweeping and dish washing 

D. Dogs: 1. Named Pepper. He’s a doll. No, he’s actually a Princess Shih Tzu 😀

This is the evil culprit responsible.

E. Essential start to your day: Checking my fashion blog. http://www.LBSfashion.tumblr.com *plug plug*

F. Favorite color: Black/ neon colors [total contrast, I know]

G. Gold or silver: GOLD

FUCK YEAH

H. Height: 5’11

I. Instruments: Guitar, drums, piano 🙂

J. Job title: Self employed lol

K. Kids: Never

L. Live: or not to live? is that the question?

M. Mom’s name: Cathy

N. Nicknames: Issa, Toots, Chua

O. Overnight hospital stays: Countless.

P. Pet peeve(s): YOU

Q. Quote from a movie: “ambot”

R. Right or left handed: LEFT!

S. Siblings: Casey, Miguel, Kiona, Paolo, Neilsen

T. Time you wake up: 9 am

U. Underwear: None

V. Vegetables you dislike: Stringed beans. 

W. What makes you run late: My mom. 

X. X-rays you’ve had: My mouth, chest

Y. Yummy food you make: PASTAA

Z. Zoo- favorite animal: PENGUINS!!!!

I’ve learned how to wear a crop top…

I’ve joined a make up contest…

And I’ve whipped my hair back and forth…

And I’ve never been this happy in my whole life before.

what’ve you been doing lately?

I hope you’re all as happy as I am now. :]

xx,

Issa Perez

I’m actually happy. Maybe I just needed to fix myself before I expected everyone to fix tthemselves to make me happy. Yes, I’m selfish like that I guess.

:>

So much stuff has been going on in my life since I’ve lasted posted.

The Run for Youth is over and was without a doubt a success, Papa is now located in the states and I have never been so unsure about my relationship in my whole life.

I am achieving things that I could only dream of achieving before and actually getting to this place means so much to me to even fathom to let go of.

Do you ever feel that in order to reach something bigger, you need to let go of more important things even if the things you need to let go of are the things that motivated you to start in the first place?

I’m only human, I get hurt- I’m not as strong as you might think I am.

I’m tired, frustrated- built up just to be broken down.

I hate who I am right now and I want this to end.

Lately i’ve been hella busy with school.

What’s worse about the whole thing is i’m most interested in what i’m busy with [which are hardly related to school despite being school activities] than nursing itself.

I’m getting really tired of living everyday merely trying to get by. I don’t know why I constantly torture myself with nursing.

I would rather drop dead.

it’s been a year na! So happy. But tired 🙂

haha.

this is lame.