i think everyone in my class is finding their place or at least knows half of the class by name. in my case however, i only know them by code name. the following examples are:

idk, it’s just been assignment after another. and it’s so crazy cuz some of the books that we’re required to buy aren’t even available at our book store so you can imagine the stuff i have to go through just to get the books or to get the selections of our homework that are in the books that i have yet to buy.

i wish i was in high school. it was so much easier back then.

i was looking at pictures on my multiply a while ago [issaplease.multiply.com] and i came across a picture of me in high school with my knee high socks and idk, i know that i don’t miss it but i can’t help but reminise. [sp?]

i’ve been studying the whole day and yesterday. and then tomorrow i have to wake up and do it all over again.

i think i just don’t see the beauty of all the hard work is cuz i don’t have passion for it. i think it’s true when they say that everything is just better when you love what you’re doing. but i don’t love what i’m doing. that’s the problem. but i am just being numb about the whole thing. deal with what they give you and just strive for it.

it’s all about the money at this point. forget being happy, forget everything that is supposed to matter. it doesn’t matter anymore because this was never my choice. oh well. another big *siiigh*

i got grounded yesterday for going home at around 12 riding a cab. but i didn’t actually ride a cab. i rode with james. but my parent don’t know that.

i had dinner with my friends and drank a bacardi with james. i got hit and thank god i did because it made whatever my mom said sound funny.

i stopped by james’s house to have a good talk with him. last night was perfect. so fuck whatever my mom said. i don’t know.

whether she likes it or not, i had fun. that’s all that matters now.

xoxo,
girl on the verge of insanity.

today was the first day of COLLEGE for me as a NURSING student and let me just tell you, i rock. HAHAHAH. jp. nah, it was ayt NO it was TIRING. i don’t think i’ve ever been soo tired from climbing flights of stairs. well, WHO WOULDN’T BE, THERE WERE 6 OF THEM?! AND I HAD TO CLIMB THEM OVER 6 TIMES! hahay.

it was crazy. when i got there, the whole place was swamped with freshmen. like, you could tell that they were freshmen cuz everyone was in casual wear while the higher levels were in their uniforms. i was so scared cuz nina wasnt there yet nor was james but i found some people to hang out with while they weren’t there yet. a bunch of theresians so it was ayt. at like 8 we had mass with all the other courses and then orientation. orientation was hellah boring and we were starving and i conclude that i rock because i cut my first class. except it wasn’t really a big deal but it was funny cuz we just walked out of the gymnasium in front of everyone. HAHA.

and then i spend most of my lunc break waiting to get my picture taken for my ID which i DIDN’T GET! ugh. i hate it soo much. i have t line up and do it again TOMORROW.  pisti. haha. while i was lining up, the BSN orientation was going on and by the time i got tired of waiting for my id, the orientation finished. so i basically climbed those 6 flights of stairs for nothing. raar.

after that we had our classes and then yeah, Christian Living and blah2. i’m class treasurer and that’s a good thing for me cuz now i get to keep the money. YEAH BOIII. hahah.

we’re 49 in class.

and college is sucking out all the energy in me.

good night.