This Long Road

I always appreciate the long talks I share with Paolo. Well, not all of them are long especially when we have good music playing in the background because I always phase out. But nevertheless, most of the conversations I have with him are good ones.

Earlier in the car we happened to talk about relationships and how hard they can be. I shared how I always figured that if it’s a relationship you’re supposed to be in then it wouldn’t be so complicated. If it’s a relationship that you’re “meant” to be in then it wouldn’t involve so much drama.

But then again, who am I to talk right?

And then I realized how lucky I am right now to have all the things that I have right now. Actually, I realize it all the time but you know, it was just one of those days when you find yourself sitting in the car and you think that there is nothing else you could want because you have it all.

I also realized that it took a long time to get here- to actually be this happy. It took a lot of loosing and finding myself. A million tears and laughs. Lessons learned and battles fought. But it seems like it all paid off. Or it’s too soon to tell..

Life has been good to me and I shouldn’t complain. People may look at their lives and wonder why life is unfair but life’s like that. And it gets crappy and it gets better. But we always sow what we reap. We always do.

 

I’ll Try My Best

 

I like the way you hold me.

You make me feel like nothing can ever hurt me.

 

I like the way you look at me.

You always make me feel like I’m the only girl in the world.

 

I like when we argue.

Our imperfections make us perfect.

 

I like the way you kiss me.

Because for once, it feels real.

 

I like who I am when I’m with you.

I don’t need to pretend.

 

I like being with you.

Because I can see myself with you and it doesn’t feel like a waste of time.

I like the way I smile with you.

It comes so easily.

You’re my first thought in the morning and last at night. It’s so funny how I let you do this to me.

Hands Down

Most of the time, I really don’t know what I want.

Most of the time, I don’t remember what I said or what I did.

Half of the time, I don’t know what the hell I’m doing or what I’m talking about or how I ended up talking about it to begin with.

But despite all the haziness in my chaotic world,

A few things are pretty much clear…

I know that I want you.

I know that I want to be with you.

I wake up in the mornings and I remember you. I remember your scent, how you look, how it feels to be beside you and how you make me feel.

I know that it doesn’t matter who I am or what I do, I know you’d still take me.

I know that these feelings are real.

And I know that in the midst of all this craziness, you make my life a lot more crazy. And I’m in love with the thought of it. ❤