for the sake of kevin and also for the sake of blogging myself tonight.. i will tell me story.

well, for some reason i’ve been feeling ve-hairy off track today. i unno, aside from all the superficial reasons.. man, it sounds so weird talking about it. makes me feel like i need a shrink or that i’m emotionally challenged. maybe i am. so, just shuttup and let the retard talk. lol. mee

so let me rant:

you know what? i really have no idea why everyone’s making a big ol fuss about everything. wasn’t this whole thing supposedly between just me and my dad and my mom and papa if i must add. but really, now my aunt’s are part of it and my grand parents. wtf. so the drama. and honestly, when they do that.. they just don’t know how hard it is. like the impact and everything. considering alvin is one thing. considering my parents is another but considering everyone?! that’s just something to hard to take. [eyes are starting to get watery] i honestly hate every bit of it. i thought i was old enough to make my own decisions. but here they come trying to tell me what they think is right. what they think rhe right decision is. i mean, they never stopped to ask me what I wanted. except my parent’s of course. it’s just so iritating. they think that … rr. i don’t know what they’re thinking.i just know that they’re complicating everything.

i really don’t want to hurt anyone. but that’s just a stupid thing to say cuz i know that either way.. i will eventually end up hurting someone. but i’m scared of the people i might end up hurting.

it’s not about the petition or the adoption anymore. i want both. but i want the adoption more. it’s not so much of the title anymore.. it’s skin deep.it’s acceptance. or.. it’s like one of the things i’m good at… running away. lol.

i keep asking myself if i owe granny that i’d let her have things her way this time. but, she never wanted me in the first place. so, that’s a no.

i keep getting stuck with second chances and the fear of regretting. this life… is just more than i can handle. i hope someone dies before i do.

bounce

for the sake of kevin and also for the sake of blogging myself tonight.. i will tell me story.

well, for some reason i’ve been feeling ve-hairy off track today. i unno, aside from all the superficial reasons.. man, it sounds so weird talking about it. makes me feel like i need a shrink or that i’m emotionally challenged. maybe i am. so, just shuttup and let the retard talk. lol. mee

so let me rant:

you know what? i really have no idea why everyone’s making a big ol fuss about everything. wasn’t this whole thing supposedly between just me and my dad and my mom and papa if i must add. but really, now my aunt’s are part of it and my grand parents. wtf. so the drama. and honestly, when they do that.. they just don’t know how hard it is. like the impact and everything. considering alvin is one thing. considering my parents is another but considering everyone?! that’s just something to hard to take. [eyes are starting to get watery] i honestly hate every bit of it. i thought i was old enough to make my own decisions. but here they come trying to tell me what they think is right. what they think rhe right decision is. i mean, they never stopped to ask me what I wanted. except my parent’s of course. it’s just so iritating. they think that … rr. i don’t know what they’re thinking.i just know that they’re complicating everything.

i really don’t want to hurt anyone. but that’s just a stupid thing to say cuz i know that either way.. i will eventually end up hurting someone. but i’m scared of the people i might end up hurting.

it’s not about the petition or the adoption anymore. i want both. but i want the adoption more. it’s not so much of the title anymore.. it’s skin deep.it’s acceptance. or.. it’s like one of the things i’m good at… running away. lol.

i keep asking myself if i owe granny that i’d let her have things her way this time. but, she never wanted me in the first place. so, that’s a no.

i keep getting stuck with second chances and the fear of regretting. this life… is just more than i can handle. i hope someone dies before i do.

bounce

at an internet cafe… doing nothing.

bought shoes for prom. mom’s getting a facial. then off for a mani-ped. just cuz she’s getting married tomorrow. lol

i helped her look for a top and shoes. my mission is complete. lol

woke up at around 12 today. haha.

heard the news that everythin’s fucked up cuza me. haha. not my fault.

.happy “you know what i’m gonna say but i really don’t want to say it so use your imagination instead and pretend you read it” day.

i would explain the pessimism but i would rather spare the space. it wasn’t that bad actually. the good side of a co-ed school, i guess. and yeah, i got flowers and chocolate. thank you, children. i shall brag about it to my grand children one day. :p lotsa shit had been going on at school too. josh’s was the absolute sweetest and plus points, to my best friend! 😀 kathya and josh. uh-huh. uh-huh.

WILL YOU BE MY F’IN VALEN-TINE?

Precious. i know they’ll have children someday. uhm.. what did i just say?

then dylan and joan smooched outside the second year copper class. woah. and shaldon gave tamae a cake, wore a shirt with a quote on it and gave her roses and chocolates [my fucking idea!]

aside from the valentines bug, we all had practice for this friday. i unno, i didn’t enjoy it much. something just changed and i can’t seem to put my finger on it… i wouldn’t want to. i got pissed today pa gyud. that definitely made my day better. fcuk teacher liezl. pig pig pig. roar.

kathya prosposed. she gave me a ring. it was the absolute cutest. blue lights. hate chew. 😛

but yeah. choc’s in the fridge. flower’s in the vase. everyone acting gitty.

happy valentines.

i hear wedding bells. well… i hear the judge knocking on wood 🙂

guess what?! cathy and lander [FYI: my parent’s] are getting married!!Ü butterflies. but it’s still gonna be at capitol. i know they want a

real wedding but i guess they’ll still have to save up for it. lander’s leaving for the states on august.. well, that’s what i heard.

the date’s on february 17. weeeeh. i don’t get to wear a gown yet but i’ll definitely be there for support.

happy wedding people!

it’s sunday… again. it was raining last sunday too. last sunday we were at bantayan. remember much? lol.i wonder why they call it SUNday when it usually rains on sundays. lol. well, not really. stupid me. 😛

yesterday was soo fun. me and kathya went to ayala to buy stuff for prom. i had her check out the shoes i wanted and she aslo helped me pick out earings for the prom. one day i’ll go unlazy and actually show the pitures of the things that i plan to buy, bought or picture of my friends and shit. but in the mean time, while i haven’t igured out a less complicated way to do that, you’ll just have to live with sentences of me ranting. lol 😛 then we watched a movie, fun with dick and jane. god! it was soo funny. then josh and jet smsed kat and told her that they wanted us to check something out sa burger joint so, right after the movie we ran there and .. then burger joint people tore it down! what’s the meaning. we ran into josh near pizza hut then he told us that it went something like,“grieve with us?” lol. cool saying for valentines. i think i’ll wear black on tuesday. but i’ll rant later. so, yeah. we did that. good luck with your dress, kath. 😛

it’s sunday… again. it was raining last sunday too. last sunday we were at bantayan. remember much? lol.i wonder why they call it SUNday when it usually rains on sundays. lol. well, not really. stupid me. 😛

yesterday was soo fun. me and kathya went to ayala to buy stuff for prom. i had her check out the shoes i wanted and she aslo helped me pick out earings for the prom. one day i’ll go unlazy and actually show the pitures of the things that i plan to buy, bought or picture of my friends and shit. but in the mean time, while i haven’t igured out a less complicated way to do that, you’ll just have to live with sentences of me ranting. lol 😛 then we watched a movie, fun with dick and jane. god! it was soo funny. then josh and jet smsed kat and told her that they wanted us to check something out sa burger joint so, right after the movie we ran there and .. then burger joint people tore it down! what’s the meaning. we ran into josh near pizza hut then he told us that it went something like,“grieve with us?” lol. cool saying for valentines. i think i’ll wear black on tuesday. but i’ll rant later. so, yeah. we did that. good luck with your dress, kath. 😛

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hey, so, i haven’t been updated in such a long time. yeah, i actually made a blog before i lefted but then, it didn’t work out. lol

so, how were the past 3 weeks? i’ll tell you

– won best debater twice. our debate team won, twice.

– i dance with freshmen! woah. like i actually hold hands [woah] with Al Cassey but he’s aiight. well off kinda guy and he has soft hands too. [weeh] details:

like i have 3 costumes changes. i dance puppy love then the guys do red red rose and the i flirt with cassey to close to you.

freshies are reading this so read and enjoy.

– i went to bantayan and it was awesome! except it was raining. 😦

– i had my dress made and it’s almost done. 🙂

– alvin’s greencard got accepted. problems. problems. problems.

– uno academics for the whole week next week. JOY!

– pink power ranger

im thorugh. im bored. im nag in a bit 

hai nako. still no comments:(

been home making projects,