if i had a dime for everytime i told myself that i’d be alright, i could afford to pay a shirnk for this kind of shit. lmao.
ok, that was stupid. but i am.
anyways, i was gonna blog but i don’t like the size of my font so maybe laterzzz..
it’s just that i’m soo bored. there’s really nothing to do. it’s miserbale. pitiful. tragedic. lmao. i need some sort of alternative aside from eating. HAHA. i swear, it’s soo sad. lmao. recess, lunch and dismissal and sometimes after that. and i still eat dinner .
hey, don’t get me wrong, i’m not the kind of girl that cares about this kind of stuff, if i truly did, i’d consider being anorexic.
ooh. food. lucky mee. lmao.
omgah, see!!!
haha. but i’d rather be eating like hell than be studying for out p.t’s just like everyone else is. i’m lucky in some ways. yes, i am. lol.
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our friendship’s a waste. but i’d rather see you go drown the drain than see your name up in lights knowing we can never be friends again. </3
if you want to witness being personally attacked on my own blogsite, read the chatterbox. it’s freaking awesome. this dude actually thinks i care about the fact that he thinks that i’m a boyfriend stealer. lmao. like i care. like i ever did. lmao. i know the truth and things’re fine with me and whoever’s involved. those other people, are trying to steal back the spotlight. lmao. sorry, it’s all mine.
it’s better you think i’m an attention seeker. lmao.
so anyways, next time you wanna ruin me, personalize it, baby. MAKE ME A TESTI. lmao. let’s see if you actually have the guts to tell me who you are. harhar.
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anyways, i finally watched sukob yesterday! 🙂 and i bought myself new school shoes today. lmao. i call this personal redemption. haha. or maybe not :p
and i also went high on bazaar products. i hate the fact that granny didn’t bring enough money to buy me the cute earings i wanted. but the bazaar will always be there and their goods.
and once again, i’m candy girl. haha. and it’s F-U-N. but yeah, i’m out.
soo tired.
just before i thought my luck could change, you come along and remind me that, “it’s not over yet” 😦
i just need to break down one last time
hello today, you’re breaking me. just one last time and i’m gone. i’m forgetting and i’m just going to be as passive as possible and not care. maybe. i’m praying for that.
today was the last day of periodicals. oh joy. i found out that i failed my chemistry test by 9 points. whoop-dee-doo. big suprise there. but honestly, when i found out that i failed. i wasn’t depressed nor did i feel pathetic nor dumb. instead, a rush of rebelion ran through my body. like, failing was my way of proving to myself that i couldn’t do everything. that i’m not perfect.and it humbles me. lol. plus, i’m pretty sure that i’m going to fail to cle too. but do i care? no. no, i don’t. but really, i think i really do. thank you, pat.i’ve realised that i’m just like every other girl. or every girl you know, that is. that i really am breaking down inside but i’m just to proud to admit that i feel insecure, neglected and just not good enough. and i guess,it’s my pride. i don’t want to see myself as someone who’s dying on the inside cuz she can’t handle a little drama. but dodging feelings like that isn’t doing me any good. it hurts and this is the first time ever taht i’m saying this but, i need help. i need to get away. i need to cry and feel sorry for myself because this act,isn’t taking me anywhere. it’s making me feel like someone i’m not.but the truth is, i don’t know who i am anymore. i don’t know who i planned to be from the start or what i want to change into. the world is just one messed up place to even think or try to figure that out right now. this is what i like to call a crisis.
i missed chabel’s play to go to arianna’s birthday party. i’m confused. just like old times. ❤ i liked that. then arden came with judd and matt. cebu is too small. lmao. but anyways, that’s what happened. i missed the interschool play to stay and hang with andrea. well, i don’t regret that. i honestly know that if i came, i’d be too preoccupied to even concentrate. girls like her get everything. but, the question is, do i want everything? i don’t deserve it. i’m not putting anyone down here but myself. lmao. just to set the record straight. but yeah, that girl is one lucky bitch for more reasons than one. lmao.
but you know me, i tend to build up this positive force feild around myself. “that’s okay, issa. don’t rush.you’ll find someone. she just found her guy/ s before you did. no big.” one day, i know i’ll end up killing myself from all this misery. i’m not happy go lucky nor am i optimistic. [but the thought of me writing this makes me feel like i don’t seem like the kind of person to feel these things] so what am i really? again, help!
and omg, i just don’t wanna talk about it anymore.
honestly, i think this blog is basically because i feel bad that my parent’s watched sukob without me.even when my papa promised that we’d watch it together. but i’ve been here soo many times before and i think it’s about time i learned that, i wear my heart on my sleeve way to often and i’m always let down and broken. so why do i still take the chance? i unno. proli cuz i’m a retard and i like to believe that i could just get over it like that.
i don’t know who i am anymore. i do not know.
help.
i’m getting interviewed in a little bit. miss interview social worker person is here talking to mommy right now. i have to lie an make mysel seem like a good person and make my parents sound like saints and pray that she buys it.
i love teacher jojo but i hate social studies. same goes for teacher marj. i love you and your baby. just not chemistry :p
i’m getting interviewed in a little bit. miss interview social worker person is here talking to mommy right now. i have to lie an make mysel seem like a good person and make my parents sound like saints and pray that she buys it.
i love teacher jojo but i hate social studies. same goes for teacher marj. i love you and your baby. just not chemistry :p
wait, omg, why am i 14 in the consent thinggy? ohhh.. would i even pass as one? /:)
no, don’t answer that!
Republic of the Philippines}
City of Cebu…………………………………….}
AFFIDAVIT OF CONSENT
I, Jean
Louise I. Chua, 14 years old, resident of Sun Valley, Cebu City, after having
been duly sworn to in accordance with law, do hereby depose and say under oath
that:
1.
I am a
subject of adoption by my natural mother Catherine Inocencio and her husband
Leandro B. Perez to be filed before the Regional Trial
Court of
Cebu City;
2.
I hereby
give my full consent to this adoption which I believe will be for my best
interest and welfare to give me a brighter future with better education under
parental authority of my mother Catherine Inocencio and her husband Leandro B.
Perez;
3.
I fully
know Spouses Catherine Inocencio and Leandro B. Perez for quite a long time
already. My mother and Leandro showered
me with such kind of love and affection for the past years. Leandro himself treated me like his own child. My father Alvin P. Chua did not visit me
anymore since my childhood. Neither did father
Alvin give me financial, psychological and emotional support;
4.
I find
myself comfortable under the parental authority of my mother and her husband
Leandro B. Perez as I have been with them for more than 8 years already;
5.
In
witness whereof, I hereby set my hand on ______________, 2005 in Cebu City,
with full knowledge of my rights under the law and with assistance of a counsel.
Jean Louise I. Chua
Affiant-Adoptee
Subscribed and sworn
to before me on ___________, 2005 in Cebu
City.
Doc.
No.__; Page No.___
Book
No.___; Ss. 2005
omg, i’m crying on the inside. sorry to those who aren’t as into this as i am but – i’m the happiest freak in the whole world right now. i have p.t.’s tom. oh sigh. but it’s all good, i think.
p.s. me and bea pages are cousins and soulmates. ❤
Republic of the Philippines}
City of Cebu…………………………………….}
AFFIDAVIT OF CONSENT
I, Jean
Louise I. Chua, 14 years old, resident of Sun Valley, Cebu City, after having
been duly sworn to in accordance with law, do hereby depose and say under oath
that:
1.
I am a
subject of adoption by my natural mother Catherine Inocencio and her husband
Leandro B. Perez to be filed before the Regional Trial
Court of
Cebu City;
2.
I hereby
give my full consent to this adoption which I believe will be for my best
interest and welfare to give me a brighter future with better education under
parental authority of my mother Catherine Inocencio and her husband Leandro B.
Perez;
3.
I fully
know Spouses Catherine Inocencio and Leandro B. Perez for quite a long time
already. My mother and Leandro showered
me with such kind of love and affection for the past years. Leandro himself treated me like his own child. My father Alvin P. Chua did not visit me
anymore since my childhood. Neither did father
Alvin give me financial, psychological and emotional support;
4.
I find
myself comfortable under the parental authority of my mother and her husband
Leandro B. Perez as I have been with them for more than 8 years already;
5.
In
witness whereof, I hereby set my hand on ______________, 2005 in Cebu City,
with full knowledge of my rights under the law and with assistance of a counsel.
Jean Louise I. Chua
Affiant-Adoptee
Subscribed and sworn
to before me on ___________, 2005 in Cebu
City.
Doc.
No.__; Page No.___
Book
No.___; Ss. 2005
omg, i’m crying on the inside. sorry to those who aren’t as into this as i am but – i’m the happiest freak in the whole world right now. i have p.t.’s tom. oh sigh. but it’s all good, i think.
p.s. me and bea pages are cousins and soulmates. ❤
Republic of the Philippines}
City of Cebu…………………………………….}
AFFIDAVIT OF CONSENT
I, Jean
Louise I. Chua, 14 years old, resident of Sun Valley, Cebu City, after having
been duly sworn to in accordance with law, do hereby depose and say under oath
that:
1.
I am a
subject of adoption by my natural mother Catherine Inocencio and her husband
Leandro B. Perez to be filed before the Regional Trial
Court of
Cebu City;
2.
I hereby
give my full consent to this adoption which I believe will be for my best
interest and welfare to give me a brighter future with better education under
parental authority of my mother Catherine Inocencio and her husband Leandro B.
Perez;
3.
I fully
know Spouses Catherine Inocencio and Leandro B. Perez for quite a long time
already. My mother and Leandro showered
me with such kind of love and affection for the past years. Leandro himself treated me like his own child. My father Alvin P. Chua did not visit me
anymore since my childhood. Neither did father
Alvin give me financial, psychological and emotional support;
4.
I find
myself comfortable under the parental authority of my mother and her husband
Leandro B. Perez as I have been with them for more than 8 years already;
5.
In
witness whereof, I hereby set my hand on ______________, 2005 in Cebu City,
with full knowledge of my rights under the law and with assistance of a counsel.
Jean Louise I. Chua
Affiant-Adoptee
Subscribed and sworn
to before me on ___________, 2005 in Cebu
City.
Doc.
No.__; Page No.___
Book
No.___; Ss. 2005
omg, i’m crying on the inside. sorry to those who aren’t as into this as i am but – i’m the happiest freak in the whole world right now. i have p.t.’s tom. oh sigh. but it’s all good, i think.
p.s. me and bea pages are cousins and soulmates. ❤
