We are not the first ones to disappoint each other 

It’s beyond me, I cannot carry the weight of the heavy world 

Goodnight. I hope that things will turn out right.

MA, mag Madre nako.

Cathy: Ma dawat pa kaha ka boanga ka.

Got myself a little friend, Cotton. he’s asleep most of the day and awake at night which should give me enough reason to stay at home during the evenings.

I am currently reading this:

And trying to find peace with myself and the people who have hurt me (and I’ve also hurt). 

I’m doing ANOTHER reset on my life and this time, I hope to make things right. I need to be honest with myself and make the right decisions for myself. I deserve better than what I’ve been putting myself through and I pray for that to stop. I keep praying lately, sometimes I wonder to who I am praying to but it gives me some peace especially now when I so badly need it.

I must work now. 

I just spent the whole day cleaning my room and I realized that no one should have as much shit as I do. Literally and figuratively.

Thankfully there wasn’t that much that I had to clean out this time around because… well, because of reasons.

I have also decided to buy a hedgehog and name it Cotton and even if I haven’t picked one out yet, I love it already. Shucks, look at me, throwing away my I love you’s so soon. Just like many things I give away too soon. Shoot me.

I just wish my papa would come home so that everything would be ok.

Subconsciously, I am noticing how establishments do no longer invest in wall clocks.

I should get a new phone, I really should.

But I don’t want to.

we are all fools.

blinded.

misconstrued.

infatuated.

Trying to be busy at the office but a random thought came to my head

What if I moved somewhere even for just a few months to work

To just get away from everything, you know?

Doesn’t seem so bad.

sad, mad, tired

still up at wee hours of the evening

thinking of the best and worst

collecting my grievances

i sleep alone tonight

but not really because my thoughts are with me

but i will wake up alone

wondering if anyone can still manage to break me.