angie was supposed to come. but she decided to break my heart. it’s ok, i love you too much to hold grudges anyways. you have a way with me, darling love. haha.

i might wake up later to rant. i love this life.<3

i haven’t made an update in such a loong time and yes, it’s making me feel bad. not because i can’t keep certain people updated but because, i think i’ve been shutting myself out from my emotions waay too much lately. but i figured, hey, if it keeps me sane for a little while, i’ll keep doing that. well, at least until i faint from an anxiety attack like last year. i dare to push the limits with myself. i want to see how far i can go without having a nervous breakdown this year. i can’t wait too long.

well, i’ll update more. i swear

when i asked you if you thought i was worth it, i kinda meant, if i was worth the jump. but i guess we’re all just a little too scared. it’s crazy. you don’t love me afterall. so neither do i. </3

and that’s it. i’m done with boys.

field trip:

ok, i know i was being such a brat about the whole situation but somehow, teacher jojo made me shuttup 🙂 he put me beside Yosiyuki Takahashi aka King which wasn’t hell for me. i love teacher jo. lol.

and the trip was boring. and when we got there there really wasnt anything to do really so i guess i was right about the trip all along. lol. but enzo made me laugh my balls off. if i had any, o fcourse. so that was kinda worth it and i took good pictures of that day pud so,  yeah. i’m sorry for throwing my PMS’s at you people. haha

today:

i went to alta vista with chab and nikki cuz we thought they had a match but then turns out doubles competitions are still tomorrow. so, i won’t be able to watch that. sayang.

paolo left today. 😦

i missed thomas’s party. i’m sorry. so sorry.

but i played tennis with tita marvi and lost. lol.

i’m kinda, lost for words.

❤

god, i wonder where that boy is and if he still remembers that i’m alive or that i’m living on my last few breaths just to hear him finally say that he doesn’t love me.

so yeah, updates tomorrow. pray for me

god, i wonder where that boy is and if he still remembers that i’m alive or that i’m living on my last few breaths just to hear him finally say that he doesn’t love me.

so yeah, updates tomorrow. pray for me

i see that xanga’s changed the whole box thinggy for the blog entries.. not bad. tsk. not bad at all. lmao

            Ok, so
I’m blogging through MS word right now. God, kill me now. Lmao. [c/o paolo
abellana] J

             It’s been
a week since we’ve moved and a week since I’ve last blogged and I have soo much
to tell the world that I won’t be able to share to the world due to my short
memory span. I’m sorry already. Lmao. But seriously, this place isn’t as bad as
it seems. I mean, not yet. I still have my sanity after all. Wink. well, at
least my room’s waaay bigger than my old one. I have the computer in here and
the big tv. Sadly, I don’t have cable but I’ll live with that. We have two
other tv’s that can give me that. lmao. Christian, our graphic artist who is
also our technician is here like 24/7 which screams “advantage”. Photoshop and
all those other fancy shit I love. Lmao. And yeah, poochy, my love is here.
FYI: for y’all who didn’t know, poochy is my baby. Lmao. No, she’s my 7 year
old virgin doggy that I love and I’m soo happy to be reunited with. Lmao.
Cutesy.

             So,
that’s the house. I miss Park vista though. I mean, God, who wouldn’t? L

             So,
anyways, it’s a Friday night and I was supposed to be at our old house aka the
Inocencio’s new residence [Boo-hoo] right now but then, Lander sorta bribed me
into reconsidering and spending the night here instead. See, the only reason
why I wanted to spend the night there was so that I could use the internet like
crazy since I’ve been deprived of it for a week. But yeah, that man and his
money have a way with me. Lmao.

            I spent
the whole day here at dullsville and then the night partying with paolo
abellana and friends. It was his despidida. God, I hate that word. EVERYONE’S
leaving for crying out loud. Before me and papa left, I got a message from nina
reyes inviting me to HER despidida. Life is truly unfair. Lmao.

             The party
was at red moon [not sunset daze OR moon café. Stupid] somewhere near UC. J it was fun. Took tons of pictures,
issaplease.multiply.com and ate, of course. How could I live without eating? 😛
and yeah, I saw Job Shan and his girlfriend there too. But I didn’t say
anything to him. Besides, I don’t have anything good to say to him anyways. He
probably thinks I’m a boyfriend stealing slut because of what martin’s said or
whatever I don’t care and I, simply could care less for him. Lmao. I love this
life ❤

             And then
papa came and met the guys. He was pretty cool about it. Which is exactly why I
love that man. At least they trust me. and I wouldn’t abuse that. J

             After
bribing me not to go to apas tonight, he brought me to star mart and we bought
junk food and went home and watched kung fu hustle and some other shit on the
tv. It didn’t really matter what we were watching though, I was with him. I
loved it. J I love my papa. haha  

             So yeah,
that was tonight.

             School
this week.

             Haha. We
basically didn’t have any. I mean, yeah, we did but for just 2 days. Lmao. We
had the lingo ng wika shit. I was the representative of the lakambini thing.
And I lost. I’m proud to say I did though. It wasn’t really a big deal to me
anyways, I got in sa oratorical contest anyways. I got second to this teacher’s
pet from the first year. But her speech was good. So, blame lolo. HAHA

             Thursday
was good for me too. I mean, after loosing of course and getting punched in the
nose by Joshua, of course. Lmao. Me and francis [my uncle] walked to his house
to make our ISP which was fun cuz I got to reunite with him. I missed him. I
don’t feel him in class anymore maybe because we’re all in our own personal
hell there. Lmao. I swear, I don’t belong there- I DON’T! But it’s ok, I have a
life outside that school. Ha!

             So yeah,then Francis Lumaban and James came over and we hung out for a good 30 minutes
or something like it. Haha. That was fun because…J

             Ok, I’m
done story telling. I better get props which I’m pretty sure that I won’t be
getting anyways. Lmao.

 ·         
I
swear to God, I’ll be good. Just keep me <3*

·         
It’s
crazy how I think I need you soo much. And I like it. Ü

            Ok, so
I’m blogging through MS word right now. God, kill me now. Lmao. [c/o paolo
abellana] J

             It’s been
a week since we’ve moved and a week since I’ve last blogged and I have soo much
to tell the world that I won’t be able to share to the world due to my short
memory span. I’m sorry already. Lmao. But seriously, this place isn’t as bad as
it seems. I mean, not yet. I still have my sanity after all. Wink. well, at
least my room’s waaay bigger than my old one. I have the computer in here and
the big tv. Sadly, I don’t have cable but I’ll live with that. We have two
other tv’s that can give me that. lmao. Christian, our graphic artist who is
also our technician is here like 24/7 which screams “advantage”. Photoshop and
all those other fancy shit I love. Lmao. And yeah, poochy, my love is here.
FYI: for y’all who didn’t know, poochy is my baby. Lmao. No, she’s my 7 year
old virgin doggy that I love and I’m soo happy to be reunited with. Lmao.
Cutesy.

             So,
that’s the house. I miss Park vista though. I mean, God, who wouldn’t? L

             So,
anyways, it’s a Friday night and I was supposed to be at our old house aka the
Inocencio’s new residence [Boo-hoo] right now but then, Lander sorta bribed me
into reconsidering and spending the night here instead. See, the only reason
why I wanted to spend the night there was so that I could use the internet like
crazy since I’ve been deprived of it for a week. But yeah, that man and his
money have a way with me. Lmao.

            I spent
the whole day here at dullsville and then the night partying with paolo
abellana and friends. It was his despidida. God, I hate that word. EVERYONE’S
leaving for crying out loud. Before me and papa left, I got a message from nina
reyes inviting me to HER despidida. Life is truly unfair. Lmao.

             The party
was at red moon [not sunset daze OR moon café. Stupid] somewhere near UC. J it was fun. Took tons of pictures,
issaplease.multiply.com and ate, of course. How could I live without eating? 😛
and yeah, I saw Job Shan and his girlfriend there too. But I didn’t say
anything to him. Besides, I don’t have anything good to say to him anyways. He
probably thinks I’m a boyfriend stealing slut because of what martin’s said or
whatever I don’t care and I, simply could care less for him. Lmao. I love this
life ❤

             And then
papa came and met the guys. He was pretty cool about it. Which is exactly why I
love that man. At least they trust me. and I wouldn’t abuse that. J

             After
bribing me not to go to apas tonight, he brought me to star mart and we bought
junk food and went home and watched kung fu hustle and some other shit on the
tv. It didn’t really matter what we were watching though, I was with him. I
loved it. J I love my papa. haha  

             So yeah,
that was tonight.

             School
this week.

             Haha. We
basically didn’t have any. I mean, yeah, we did but for just 2 days. Lmao. We
had the lingo ng wika shit. I was the representative of the lakambini thing.
And I lost. I’m proud to say I did though. It wasn’t really a big deal to me
anyways, I got in sa oratorical contest anyways. I got second to this teacher’s
pet from the first year. But her speech was good. So, blame lolo. HAHA

             Thursday
was good for me too. I mean, after loosing of course and getting punched in the
nose by Joshua, of course. Lmao. Me and francis [my uncle] walked to his house
to make our ISP which was fun cuz I got to reunite with him. I missed him. I
don’t feel him in class anymore maybe because we’re all in our own personal
hell there. Lmao. I swear, I don’t belong there- I DON’T! But it’s ok, I have a
life outside that school. Ha!

             So yeah,then Francis Lumaban and James came over and we hung out for a good 30 minutes
or something like it. Haha. That was fun because…J

             Ok, I’m
done story telling. I better get props which I’m pretty sure that I won’t be
getting anyways. Lmao.

 ·         
I
swear to God, I’ll be good. Just keep me <3*

·         
It’s
crazy how I think I need you soo much. And I like it. Ü