when i asked you if you thought i was worth it, i kinda meant, if i was worth the jump. but i guess we’re all just a little too scared. it’s crazy. you don’t love me afterall. so neither do i. </3

and that’s it. i’m done with boys.

field trip:

ok, i know i was being such a brat about the whole situation but somehow, teacher jojo made me shuttup 🙂 he put me beside Yosiyuki Takahashi aka King which wasn’t hell for me. i love teacher jo. lol.

and the trip was boring. and when we got there there really wasnt anything to do really so i guess i was right about the trip all along. lol. but enzo made me laugh my balls off. if i had any, o fcourse. so that was kinda worth it and i took good pictures of that day pud so,  yeah. i’m sorry for throwing my PMS’s at you people. haha

today:

i went to alta vista with chab and nikki cuz we thought they had a match but then turns out doubles competitions are still tomorrow. so, i won’t be able to watch that. sayang.

paolo left today. 😦

i missed thomas’s party. i’m sorry. so sorry.

but i played tennis with tita marvi and lost. lol.

i’m kinda, lost for words.

❤

god, i wonder where that boy is and if he still remembers that i’m alive or that i’m living on my last few breaths just to hear him finally say that he doesn’t love me.

so yeah, updates tomorrow. pray for me

god, i wonder where that boy is and if he still remembers that i’m alive or that i’m living on my last few breaths just to hear him finally say that he doesn’t love me.

so yeah, updates tomorrow. pray for me

i see that xanga’s changed the whole box thinggy for the blog entries.. not bad. tsk. not bad at all. lmao

            Ok, so
I’m blogging through MS word right now. God, kill me now. Lmao. [c/o paolo
abellana] J

             It’s been
a week since we’ve moved and a week since I’ve last blogged and I have soo much
to tell the world that I won’t be able to share to the world due to my short
memory span. I’m sorry already. Lmao. But seriously, this place isn’t as bad as
it seems. I mean, not yet. I still have my sanity after all. Wink. well, at
least my room’s waaay bigger than my old one. I have the computer in here and
the big tv. Sadly, I don’t have cable but I’ll live with that. We have two
other tv’s that can give me that. lmao. Christian, our graphic artist who is
also our technician is here like 24/7 which screams “advantage”. Photoshop and
all those other fancy shit I love. Lmao. And yeah, poochy, my love is here.
FYI: for y’all who didn’t know, poochy is my baby. Lmao. No, she’s my 7 year
old virgin doggy that I love and I’m soo happy to be reunited with. Lmao.
Cutesy.

             So,
that’s the house. I miss Park vista though. I mean, God, who wouldn’t? L

             So,
anyways, it’s a Friday night and I was supposed to be at our old house aka the
Inocencio’s new residence [Boo-hoo] right now but then, Lander sorta bribed me
into reconsidering and spending the night here instead. See, the only reason
why I wanted to spend the night there was so that I could use the internet like
crazy since I’ve been deprived of it for a week. But yeah, that man and his
money have a way with me. Lmao.

            I spent
the whole day here at dullsville and then the night partying with paolo
abellana and friends. It was his despidida. God, I hate that word. EVERYONE’S
leaving for crying out loud. Before me and papa left, I got a message from nina
reyes inviting me to HER despidida. Life is truly unfair. Lmao.

             The party
was at red moon [not sunset daze OR moon café. Stupid] somewhere near UC. J it was fun. Took tons of pictures,
issaplease.multiply.com and ate, of course. How could I live without eating? 😛
and yeah, I saw Job Shan and his girlfriend there too. But I didn’t say
anything to him. Besides, I don’t have anything good to say to him anyways. He
probably thinks I’m a boyfriend stealing slut because of what martin’s said or
whatever I don’t care and I, simply could care less for him. Lmao. I love this
life ❤

             And then
papa came and met the guys. He was pretty cool about it. Which is exactly why I
love that man. At least they trust me. and I wouldn’t abuse that. J

             After
bribing me not to go to apas tonight, he brought me to star mart and we bought
junk food and went home and watched kung fu hustle and some other shit on the
tv. It didn’t really matter what we were watching though, I was with him. I
loved it. J I love my papa. haha  

             So yeah,
that was tonight.

             School
this week.

             Haha. We
basically didn’t have any. I mean, yeah, we did but for just 2 days. Lmao. We
had the lingo ng wika shit. I was the representative of the lakambini thing.
And I lost. I’m proud to say I did though. It wasn’t really a big deal to me
anyways, I got in sa oratorical contest anyways. I got second to this teacher’s
pet from the first year. But her speech was good. So, blame lolo. HAHA

             Thursday
was good for me too. I mean, after loosing of course and getting punched in the
nose by Joshua, of course. Lmao. Me and francis [my uncle] walked to his house
to make our ISP which was fun cuz I got to reunite with him. I missed him. I
don’t feel him in class anymore maybe because we’re all in our own personal
hell there. Lmao. I swear, I don’t belong there- I DON’T! But it’s ok, I have a
life outside that school. Ha!

             So yeah,then Francis Lumaban and James came over and we hung out for a good 30 minutes
or something like it. Haha. That was fun because…J

             Ok, I’m
done story telling. I better get props which I’m pretty sure that I won’t be
getting anyways. Lmao.

 ·         
I
swear to God, I’ll be good. Just keep me <3*

·         
It’s
crazy how I think I need you soo much. And I like it. Ü

            Ok, so
I’m blogging through MS word right now. God, kill me now. Lmao. [c/o paolo
abellana] J

             It’s been
a week since we’ve moved and a week since I’ve last blogged and I have soo much
to tell the world that I won’t be able to share to the world due to my short
memory span. I’m sorry already. Lmao. But seriously, this place isn’t as bad as
it seems. I mean, not yet. I still have my sanity after all. Wink. well, at
least my room’s waaay bigger than my old one. I have the computer in here and
the big tv. Sadly, I don’t have cable but I’ll live with that. We have two
other tv’s that can give me that. lmao. Christian, our graphic artist who is
also our technician is here like 24/7 which screams “advantage”. Photoshop and
all those other fancy shit I love. Lmao. And yeah, poochy, my love is here.
FYI: for y’all who didn’t know, poochy is my baby. Lmao. No, she’s my 7 year
old virgin doggy that I love and I’m soo happy to be reunited with. Lmao.
Cutesy.

             So,
that’s the house. I miss Park vista though. I mean, God, who wouldn’t? L

             So,
anyways, it’s a Friday night and I was supposed to be at our old house aka the
Inocencio’s new residence [Boo-hoo] right now but then, Lander sorta bribed me
into reconsidering and spending the night here instead. See, the only reason
why I wanted to spend the night there was so that I could use the internet like
crazy since I’ve been deprived of it for a week. But yeah, that man and his
money have a way with me. Lmao.

            I spent
the whole day here at dullsville and then the night partying with paolo
abellana and friends. It was his despidida. God, I hate that word. EVERYONE’S
leaving for crying out loud. Before me and papa left, I got a message from nina
reyes inviting me to HER despidida. Life is truly unfair. Lmao.

             The party
was at red moon [not sunset daze OR moon café. Stupid] somewhere near UC. J it was fun. Took tons of pictures,
issaplease.multiply.com and ate, of course. How could I live without eating? 😛
and yeah, I saw Job Shan and his girlfriend there too. But I didn’t say
anything to him. Besides, I don’t have anything good to say to him anyways. He
probably thinks I’m a boyfriend stealing slut because of what martin’s said or
whatever I don’t care and I, simply could care less for him. Lmao. I love this
life ❤

             And then
papa came and met the guys. He was pretty cool about it. Which is exactly why I
love that man. At least they trust me. and I wouldn’t abuse that. J

             After
bribing me not to go to apas tonight, he brought me to star mart and we bought
junk food and went home and watched kung fu hustle and some other shit on the
tv. It didn’t really matter what we were watching though, I was with him. I
loved it. J I love my papa. haha  

             So yeah,
that was tonight.

             School
this week.

             Haha. We
basically didn’t have any. I mean, yeah, we did but for just 2 days. Lmao. We
had the lingo ng wika shit. I was the representative of the lakambini thing.
And I lost. I’m proud to say I did though. It wasn’t really a big deal to me
anyways, I got in sa oratorical contest anyways. I got second to this teacher’s
pet from the first year. But her speech was good. So, blame lolo. HAHA

             Thursday
was good for me too. I mean, after loosing of course and getting punched in the
nose by Joshua, of course. Lmao. Me and francis [my uncle] walked to his house
to make our ISP which was fun cuz I got to reunite with him. I missed him. I
don’t feel him in class anymore maybe because we’re all in our own personal
hell there. Lmao. I swear, I don’t belong there- I DON’T! But it’s ok, I have a
life outside that school. Ha!

             So yeah,then Francis Lumaban and James came over and we hung out for a good 30 minutes
or something like it. Haha. That was fun because…J

             Ok, I’m
done story telling. I better get props which I’m pretty sure that I won’t be
getting anyways. Lmao.

 ·         
I
swear to God, I’ll be good. Just keep me <3*

·         
It’s
crazy how I think I need you soo much. And I like it. Ü

            Ok, so
I’m blogging through MS word right now. God, kill me now. Lmao. [c/o paolo
abellana] J

             It’s been
a week since we’ve moved and a week since I’ve last blogged and I have soo much
to tell the world that I won’t be able to share to the world due to my short
memory span. I’m sorry already. Lmao. But seriously, this place isn’t as bad as
it seems. I mean, not yet. I still have my sanity after all. Wink. well, at
least my room’s waaay bigger than my old one. I have the computer in here and
the big tv. Sadly, I don’t have cable but I’ll live with that. We have two
other tv’s that can give me that. lmao. Christian, our graphic artist who is
also our technician is here like 24/7 which screams “advantage”. Photoshop and
all those other fancy shit I love. Lmao. And yeah, poochy, my love is here.
FYI: for y’all who didn’t know, poochy is my baby. Lmao. No, she’s my 7 year
old virgin doggy that I love and I’m soo happy to be reunited with. Lmao.
Cutesy.

             So,
that’s the house. I miss Park vista though. I mean, God, who wouldn’t? L

             So,
anyways, it’s a Friday night and I was supposed to be at our old house aka the
Inocencio’s new residence [Boo-hoo] right now but then, Lander sorta bribed me
into reconsidering and spending the night here instead. See, the only reason
why I wanted to spend the night there was so that I could use the internet like
crazy since I’ve been deprived of it for a week. But yeah, that man and his
money have a way with me. Lmao.

            I spent
the whole day here at dullsville and then the night partying with paolo
abellana and friends. It was his despidida. God, I hate that word. EVERYONE’S
leaving for crying out loud. Before me and papa left, I got a message from nina
reyes inviting me to HER despidida. Life is truly unfair. Lmao.

             The party
was at red moon [not sunset daze OR moon café. Stupid] somewhere near UC. J it was fun. Took tons of pictures,
issaplease.multiply.com and ate, of course. How could I live without eating? 😛
and yeah, I saw Job Shan and his girlfriend there too. But I didn’t say
anything to him. Besides, I don’t have anything good to say to him anyways. He
probably thinks I’m a boyfriend stealing slut because of what martin’s said or
whatever I don’t care and I, simply could care less for him. Lmao. I love this
life ❤

             And then
papa came and met the guys. He was pretty cool about it. Which is exactly why I
love that man. At least they trust me. and I wouldn’t abuse that. J

             After
bribing me not to go to apas tonight, he brought me to star mart and we bought
junk food and went home and watched kung fu hustle and some other shit on the
tv. It didn’t really matter what we were watching though, I was with him. I
loved it. J I love my papa. haha  

             So yeah,
that was tonight.

             School
this week.

             Haha. We
basically didn’t have any. I mean, yeah, we did but for just 2 days. Lmao. We
had the lingo ng wika shit. I was the representative of the lakambini thing.
And I lost. I’m proud to say I did though. It wasn’t really a big deal to me
anyways, I got in sa oratorical contest anyways. I got second to this teacher’s
pet from the first year. But her speech was good. So, blame lolo. HAHA

             Thursday
was good for me too. I mean, after loosing of course and getting punched in the
nose by Joshua, of course. Lmao. Me and francis [my uncle] walked to his house
to make our ISP which was fun cuz I got to reunite with him. I missed him. I
don’t feel him in class anymore maybe because we’re all in our own personal
hell there. Lmao. I swear, I don’t belong there- I DON’T! But it’s ok, I have a
life outside that school. Ha!

             So yeah,then Francis Lumaban and James came over and we hung out for a good 30 minutes
or something like it. Haha. That was fun because…J

             Ok, I’m
done story telling. I better get props which I’m pretty sure that I won’t be
getting anyways. Lmao.

 ·         
I
swear to God, I’ll be good. Just keep me <3*

·         
It’s
crazy how I think I need you soo much. And I like it. Ü

there are three things that suck about this scenario right now:

1 i’m typing on my lap since there’s no table

2 this isn’t my computer

but worse

3 this the last time i’ll be able to blog in this tiny room right beofre the stairs and still say that i’m home 😦

yes, lovers. yes, today is moving day and i’m not hyped. i mean, don’t get me wrong, i know we havta move cuz sacrifice for the family and all but i wish we could’ve moved somewhere more civilized. or somewhere where i could actually go out without being followed around by my helper from the fear of me actually buying drugs or whatevr ka buang buang they think i’ll do. i live a crazy life. lmao

anyways, i’m only hyped about moving cuz i’ll be neighbors with people my age for once. lol. angie. haha. and plus, i heard our principal lives in sun valley so, my plan is to seduce him in the middle of the night and convince him to either burn the school down or let me get out of highschool a yer early. lmao. i hate mmch. 😐

we went to the house yesterday. i fell asleep. lmao. i was kinda disappointed cuz i didn’t hear from him. but i guess that’s how guys are. they like this game of “i like you i like you not’s” which is exactly why i pretend not to fall or jump or stumble; whatver you people call it. i’m an alien to this. i like it that way, thankyouverymuch. sorry to anyone who reads this and thinks i’m not being real or whatever but i can’t take the drama. lmao

school’s been hell for me, as usual. we didn’t have academics the whole week so we got away with murder or just bringing phones, ipods and going to school i n pants. lmao. that’s like the only thing i like about that place. getting away with murder. lmao. we only had practices for stupid family day feild demonstration and lingo ng wika practices. and i’m proud to say that we screwed our lingo ng wika dance but it was still cute. lmao.

i’ve lost my voice and my soul from choir practices. i love choir mainly for the reason that i can talk and not talk to anyone. why? because i hate school. i hate the fact that there’s no one to talk to and i don’t have a life there. 😦 god, i am a loser. lmao. but no, seriously, i need to graduate a year early or swutch schools. my happiness depends on it. lmao.

chabel has to go to family day. if she doesn’t, iknow for sure that i will hate that day and everything else about it. why? because mmch does not compliment my lifestyle in any way whatsoever. i have a life outside those 4 walls the reek “hell” and i do not choose to live this way very long. i’m wildin out after graduation, i swear on my dead fishes grave. lmao.

anyways, i have fucking practice today. i havta be at family park by 8 and it’s 6:35. nah, i’ll take my time. lmao. papa promised he’d get me new pants for family day because i refuse to wear the same pants i wore last year. haha. yes, i still remember what i wore last year. i remember a lot of things. and that should scare you. haha. i’m jp.

*why shouldn’t we be with the one’s we really love? now tell me who have you been dreaming of? 🙂 let see what love can dooo. <3″ – paris fucking hilton. lmao

haha. i’m just wasting time, really. i like sitting in this chair while the sun’s rising and i’m not even tryng to care. this is my life. i don’t wanna let it go 😦

sun valley is messy and dusty and when it rains, the fucking frogs sing til kingdumb comes. lmao. and i ca’t make love outside cuz everyone there talks. lmao. jp. like i would ever ever ever do that. lmao. but yeah, you get my point. 😐

but i won’t tell the rents that i’m unhappy with their decision cuz i know that this is for everyone. lmao. maybe things’ll be better there. i unno. lmao.

|+| tell me that i’m worth it |+| i love you too. </3 yes,i know it’s a broken heart, dimwitt. lmao

issa prezz

today is the mark of what will turn into a terrible mess like all the one’s before. why? because this is my life. and i am permanently banded by the neverworlds from complete happiness. and hearts will be broken and i will resent myself forever. just like i already am.

but yeah. ok. we’ll see.