I’ve been jumping from the tops of buildings
My bones have shattered
My pride is shattered
And in the midst of this self inflicted pain
I can see my beautiful rescue
I’m falling more in love with every single word I withhold
I’m falling more in love with every single word you say
I’m falling head over heals for you
At the top of my lungs I’m singing you a song
“Don’t you leave me alone”
My bones were shattered
My pride lay shattered
Well I’ll trample my pride
Until the whole world dance with me
Again well I’m crying out,
“wash my hands, these bloody hands, oh open my mouth and I’ll sing”
I’ve been dancing on the tops of buildings,
with you.
Talking to myself
Sitting at a red light
Both hands on the wheel
How am I supposed to feel?
So much running through my mind
First you wanna be free
Now you say you need me
Giving mixed signals and signs
It’s so hard to let you in
Thinking you might slam the brakes again
This is more than I can take
You tell me that you love me first
Then throw your heart into reverse
I gotta get away
I can’t keep coming back to you
Every time you’re in the mood
To whisper something sweet in my ear
It’s so hard to move on
Cause every time I think you’re gone
You show up in my rearview mirror
Is this just a detour?
Cause I gotta be sure
That you really mean what you say
It’s so hard to let you in
Thinking you might slam the brakes again
i know i made it soo corny and casual to some people people [heck, most] but waking up on my own, not rushing and having nothing to do on the bus, during lunch or in between class time definitely had it’s effects on me. and i know that i’m the one to blame here but yeah, i still don’t know.
i thought i’d keep myself preoccupied with POKEMON: Frigo Returns but then, i don’t know, i kinda lost the urge to play after i beat Brendon. ok, that sounded soo dorky. INEEDHELP. so anyways, i decided to listen to some music and bang, i just had to listen to all these songs that made me think and yeah. that sucked for me.
i don’t know. i guess today i just realized that i haven’t changed much. I haven’t changed from the time i told myself that i wasn’t going to fall inlove again and i haven’t changed since i told myself that i was just going to have fun. God knows my objectives have changed but i don’t know.. i can’t help but think that i’ve failed myself, stepped on other people and hurt myself and someone else too.
God, i miss him but i know that i can’t do this anymore. i know for sure that i’m letting go because at first, i wanted to see if he’s follow, if he’d hold on and now, i’m letting go because i know that i can’t take the pressure and i can’t take all hype. maybe i’m just not cut out for this and maybe i’m just a tad bit out-dated for this whole boy girl thing. and no, i’m not liberated maybe he’s just not the one i’ve been waiting for.
i mean, i only get one first boyfriend, right? and let’s face it, i already screwed up the first kisses and shit so, i might as well make this good. i do not even know what i’m talking about anymore.
geez, i’m getting deaf in my right ear. i hate this.
so, issa’s been emo today. doesn’t that just suck?
now i remember why i don’t like having flings. but i know why i live for them. i am just a sad little confused person. the gods can mock me, i’ll let them. god, i feel like absolute crap.
but aside from that, i’m kinda excited for what’s in store. francis’s prom is coming up and i just hope that would turn out well. i know this sounds lame but i’ve been practicing on how i eat. believe it or not, i am extremely consious on the way i eat in front of guys because one, i don’t know where the spoon and fork go [lefty, people!] and two, i’m a klutz. yeah, now you know why i won’t eat with just any guy. haha.
i do hope that goes well for everyone. i hope i’m a good date and i hope francis’ll be a good date too. i’m still shy around him, in a “holding back” kind of way. you can shoot me now!
so here are the little scribble on my notebook:
i want you to take me.
i’m reliving every moment i’ve spent with you. <|3
i’m that girl with messy hair, bad acnes and chipped nails. But that’s who i am
and i’m not changing. so you’ll have to love me despite that.
no.
you’ll have to love me because of that.
hello stranger, are you flying in from the city or did you fly in from the town?
oh, so you’ve come to steal her heart away but babe, you’ll never get her with that frown.
what is up with me and flying??
let the sun set on my summer <33
god, why didn’t you make me gorgeous? Tess mumbled to erself as she slouched back into her seat. It was prom day and she was feeling less than beautiful, a little shaky and really sick. -PROMENADES AND FUNERALS <33 [im making a story. HAHA]
all i need is magic
rescue meyou can have me.
don’t you want to make these rumors a reality??
there will always be that one boy who will be one girls reason
why she hates their gender.
“tanaw tanaw man ka? IBOG KA? tulion tika run!”
-teacher emelin
the key is:
to never let anyone hurt you. right?
i fall don’t on my knees. <33
GOD, I NEED YOU FO’ REAL
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