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hey you, i’m on talking to you on the phone right now. i can’t say it out loud cuz my grandparents are here but…

i love you.

i haven’t written anything extremely sweet for you in a while and it’s cuz i never really had the time but now i do and i wanna spend the very few free minutes that i have making something really sweet for you. don’t think that i don’t write about you anymore. you should see your notebook. all our little fights, every single knot in my stomache, everything is in there. i can’t wait til yoiu finally get it. and then we can show it to our kids in the future ;]

haha. for some reason, marriage talk doesn’t bother you, noh?

well, i got to spend time with you for like, less than 30 minutes today. and honestly, when you left, i felt tears filling up my eyes cuz you already know this. you already know that i miss you terribly and the time we get to spend together just feels like it isn’t enough. when you leave, it feels like i’m all alone again like, anyone can just hurt me. i feel vulnerable again and i just hate that feeling. i hate school now because it just means that i can’t be with you as much as i want to anymore. I try to tell myself that i shouldn’t make a big deal out of it. i try to tell myself that i shouldn’t think of you too much because in the end i might wake up just to find out that it was just me the whole time. it was just me thinking about you, missing you, wanting you, needing you. but no matter how much i tell myself that, it still turns out the same way. i still find myself constantly thinking about you. i find myself dying to reply during class hours, i find myself writting little i miss you notes on my notebooks and hand and i find myself rushing to get home so i can finally talk to you. i miss you. [my eyes are watering up right now]

yes honey, i’m whipped.

but then i guess life requires you to look on the bright side.
at least i got to see you today.
at least i got to kiss you today.
at least i got to talk to you,
at least i heard you say that you love me
and at least i know that you love me the way that i love you.

bik, i miss you. i miss you soo much. i miss spending days at a time with you. i miss running away with you and being in our own little world together. it’s only been a few days since school’s started but yeah, i simply just can’t live without you anymore.

SO COME VISIT ME AT SCHOOL AND BRING ME FOOD. haha. jk.

but seriously. when i was at church, i did feel like crying. i mean, i was happy because i got to be with you but yeah, if i could have things my way, if i could, i’d keep you the whole day and we’d just runaway together. and we’d do whatever we’d want to cuz bitch, we’re cool like that. HAHA.

bitaw oie. i’m just not used to it. but honestly? i don’t ever wanna get used to not seeing you. i mean, i do wanna miss you but i don’t want this feeling to be constant. i don’t want you to slip away from me. i don’t want to not be there for you or with you.

ask me what i want…

i want you. i want you forever. i want you to look me in the eye one day and tell me that you love me and that you miss me and that i’ll be the only girl you’ll ever want to be with -ever.i want you to tell me that noone can ever take my place and that you can’t live without me. and i want you to mean it. i want you to make me weak. i want to lay in your arms. i want you soo much. <33

if i could have any guy in the world, if i could be with the hottest, the richest, the most powerful guy in the world – i would. i’d pick you in an instant. why? you might think that you aren’t all these things but you are. well, you make me feel like i am.

i don’t wanna be a princess if you won’t be my prince.


So tired of broken hearts and losing at this game

Before I start this dance

I take a chance in telling you

I want more than just romance

You are my destiny, I can’t let go baby can’t you see

Cupid please take your aim at me


Chorus:


Cherish the thought

Of always having you here by my side (oh baby I)

Cherish the joy

You keep bringing it into my life (I’m always singing it)

Cherish your strength

You got the power to make me feel good (and baby I)

Perish the thought

Of ever leaving, I never would


I was never satisfied with casual encounters

I can’t hide my need for two hearts that bleed with burning love

That’s the way it’s got to be

Romeo and Juliet, they never felt this way I bet

So don’t underestimate my point of view


Who? You! Can’t get away I won’t let you

Who? You! I could never forget to

Cherish is the word I use to remind me of your love


Give me faith give me joy, my boy
I will always cherish you

 cherish; madonna


The sky is falling
And it’s early in the morning
But it’s ok somehow
I spilt my coffee, it went
All over your clothes
I gotta wear mine now

And im always, always,always late
And my hair’s a mess,
Even when it’s straight


But so what,

I’m better off everyday

When i’m standing in the pouring rain, I dont mind

I think of you and everythings alright

I used to think i had it good

But now i know that i misunderstood

With you I’d say, i’m better off in every way

My friends keep callin’
They say, they say im stallin’
And they wanna meet you now
I tell them hell no, i say
We’re tryin’ to lay low
Don’t wanna lose what i’ve found


Things are finally, finally lookin’ up

Oh my feet are on the ground

Even though im stuck


Things are finally, finally lookin’ up

Oh my feet are on the ground

Even though im stuck

Even though im stuck

-better off; ashlee simpson



Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
Closer to where I’ve started
Chasing after you

I’m falling even more in love with you

Letting go of all I’ve held onto

I’m standing here until you make me move

I’m hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all I’m lacking

Completely incomplete

I’ll take your invitation

IF You take all of me

There’s nothing else to lose

Nothing ELSE to find

There’s nothing in the world

That could change my mind

There is nothing else…

There is nothing else…

There is nothing else

-hanging by a moment; lifehouse


Lately I’m alright

And lately I’m not scared

I’ve figured out

That what you do to me feels like

I’m floating on air

I don’t need to know right now

All I know is I believe

In the very thing that got us here

And now I can’t leave


Say anything, but say what you mean

’cause I’m caught in suspension


Now,

I’m wanting this for sure

And I’ll beg for nothing more

I’ll plan all day and drive all night

You’ll love what’s in store

I can’t seem to stop this now

Even if it’s not so clear

And I’ll take what I can get

If you want me here (If you want me here)


Say anything, but say what you mean.

When you whisper you want this

Your eyes tell the same

We are gaining speed

I can barely breathe

’cause I’m caught in suspension


It’s enough for me to get excited

It’s enough for me to feel…woooooah ooooh oh oh oh

We are gaining speed (suspension)

I can barely breathe (Oh, please say what you mean)

I’m caught in suspension (suspension)

I’m caught in suspension

Say (say) anything (suspension)

But say what you mean (Oh, please say what you mean)

I’m caught in suspension (suspension)

I’m caught in suspension

-suspension; mae

It`s the way that you touch me

You let me know that you love me

it`s the way that you kiss me

You let me know that you miss me

And nobody`s gonna take me from

You got, you got,you got me
Going crazy I`m caught up
I don`t know what to do
You got,you got, you got me
(And all you gotta do is) call me
I`ll be there in a hurry

You make me feel special

I`m on top of the world when I`m next to you (you)

I just wanna cares you

Ilove all the things that you do

I`m right here I ain`t going no where cause

I know it`s hard for you to see

That boy your the only one for me

-you got me; b5

Wouldnt it be nice if we were older
Then we wouldnt have to wait so long
And wouldnt it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong

You know its gonna make it that much better
When we can say goodnight and stay together

Wouldnt it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through

Happy times together weve been spending
I wish that every kiss was neverending
Wouldnt it be nice

Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true
Baby then there wouldnt be a single thing we couldnt do
We could be married
And then wed be happy

Wouldnt it be nice

You know it seems the more we talk about it
It only makes it worse to live without it
But lets talk about it
Wouldnt it be nice

– wouldn’t it be nice; beach boys


My love for you will never end
Youll always be a part of me
As long as time keeps
On passing by
Youll always be my baby boy.
Everytime I look at you,
I cant believe
Ive found a love so true (and)
I took my time to put
My trust in you
I must admit it was so hard to do
And every minute that i
Spend with you
You make me believe i
Have nothing to loose and
Deep down I always knew
That you would be mine

-baby boy; big brovaz


you’re crazy but i love you :]

i LOVE you
i LOVE you SOO much
and
i don’t know what i’d do without you

i MISS you
i MISS you SOO fucking much
and everyday just feels longer when i’m not with you
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hey you, i’m on talking to you on the phone right now. i can’t say it out loud cuz my grandparents are here but…

i love you.

i haven’t written anything extremely sweet for you in a while and it’s cuz i never really had the time but now i do and i wanna spend the very few free minutes that i have making something really sweet for you. don’t think that i don’t write about you anymore. you should see your notebook. all our little fights, every single knot in my stomache, everything is in there. i can’t wait til yoiu finally get it. and then we can show it to our kids in the future ;]

haha. for some reason, marriage talk doesn’t bother you, noh?

well, i got to spend time with you for like, less than 30 minutes today. and honestly, when you left, i felt tears filling up my eyes cuz you already know this. you already know that i miss you terribly and the time we get to spend together just feels like it isn’t enough. when you leave, it feels like i’m all alone again like, anyone can just hurt me. i feel vulnerable again and i just hate that feeling. i hate school now because it just means that i can’t be with you as much as i want to anymore. I try to tell myself that i shouldn’t make a big deal out of it. i try to tell myself that i shouldn’t think of you too much because in the end i might wake up just to find out that it was just me the whole time. it was just me thinking about you, missing you, wanting you, needing you. but no matter how much i tell myself that, it still turns out the same way. i still find myself constantly thinking about you. i find myself dying to reply during class hours, i find myself writting little i miss you notes on my notebooks and hand and i find myself rushing to get home so i can finally talk to you. i miss you. [my eyes are watering up right now]

yes honey, i’m whipped.

but then i guess life requires you to look on the bright side.
at least i got to see you today.
at least i got to kiss you today.
at least i got to talk to you,
at least i heard you say that you love me
and at least i know that you love me the way that i love you.

bik, i miss you. i miss you soo much. i miss spending days at a time with you. i miss running away with you and being in our own little world together. it’s only been a few days since school’s started but yeah, i simply just can’t live without you anymore.

SO COME VISIT ME AT SCHOOL AND BRING ME FOOD. haha. jk.

but seriously. when i was at church, i did feel like crying. i mean, i was happy because i got to be with you but yeah, if i could have things my way, if i could, i’d keep you the whole day and we’d just runaway together. and we’d do whatever we’d want to cuz bitch, we’re cool like that. HAHA.

bitaw oie. i’m just not used to it. but honestly? i don’t ever wanna get used to not seeing you. i mean, i do wanna miss you but i don’t want this feeling to be constant. i don’t want you to slip away from me. i don’t want to not be there for you or with you.

ask me what i want…

i want you. i want you forever. i want you to look me in the eye one day and tell me that you love me and that you miss me and that i’ll be the only girl you’ll ever want to be with -ever.i want you to tell me that noone can ever take my place and that you can’t live without me. and i want you to mean it. i want you to make me weak. i want to lay in your arms. i want you soo much. <33

if i could have any guy in the world, if i could be with the hottest, the richest, the most powerful guy in the world – i would. i’d pick you in an instant. why? you might think that you aren’t all these things but you are. well, you make me feel like i am.

i don’t wanna be a princess if you won’t be my prince.


So tired of broken hearts and losing at this game

Before I start this dance

I take a chance in telling you

I want more than just romance

You are my destiny, I can’t let go baby can’t you see

Cupid please take your aim at me


Chorus:


Cherish the thought

Of always having you here by my side (oh baby I)

Cherish the joy

You keep bringing it into my life (I’m always singing it)

Cherish your strength

You got the power to make me feel good (and baby I)

Perish the thought

Of ever leaving, I never would


I was never satisfied with casual encounters

I can’t hide my need for two hearts that bleed with burning love

That’s the way it’s got to be

Romeo and Juliet, they never felt this way I bet

So don’t underestimate my point of view


Who? You! Can’t get away I won’t let you

Who? You! I could never forget to

Cherish is the word I use to remind me of your love


Give me faith give me joy, my boy
I will always cherish you

 cherish; madonna


The sky is falling
And it’s early in the morning
But it’s ok somehow
I spilt my coffee, it went
All over your clothes
I gotta wear mine now

And im always, always,always late
And my hair’s a mess,
Even when it’s straight


But so what,

I’m better off everyday

When i’m standing in the pouring rain, I dont mind

I think of you and everythings alright

I used to think i had it good

But now i know that i misunderstood

With you I’d say, i’m better off in every way

My friends keep callin’
They say, they say im stallin’
And they wanna meet you now
I tell them hell no, i say
We’re tryin’ to lay low
Don’t wanna lose what i’ve found


Things are finally, finally lookin’ up

Oh my feet are on the ground

Even though im stuck


Things are finally, finally lookin’ up

Oh my feet are on the ground

Even though im stuck

Even though im stuck

-better off; ashlee simpson



Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
Closer to where I’ve started
Chasing after you

I’m falling even more in love with you

Letting go of all I’ve held onto

I’m standing here until you make me move

I’m hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all I’m lacking

Completely incomplete

I’ll take your invitation

IF You take all of me

There’s nothing else to lose

Nothing ELSE to find

There’s nothing in the world

That could change my mind

There is nothing else…

There is nothing else…

There is nothing else

-hanging by a moment; lifehouse


Lately I’m alright

And lately I’m not scared

I’ve figured out

That what you do to me feels like

I’m floating on air

I don’t need to know right now

All I know is I believe

In the very thing that got us here

And now I can’t leave


Say anything, but say what you mean

’cause I’m caught in suspension


Now,

I’m wanting this for sure

And I’ll beg for nothing more

I’ll plan all day and drive all night

You’ll love what’s in store

I can’t seem to stop this now

Even if it’s not so clear

And I’ll take what I can get

If you want me here (If you want me here)


Say anything, but say what you mean.

When you whisper you want this

Your eyes tell the same

We are gaining speed

I can barely breathe

’cause I’m caught in suspension


It’s enough for me to get excited

It’s enough for me to feel…woooooah ooooh oh oh oh

We are gaining speed (suspension)

I can barely breathe (Oh, please say what you mean)

I’m caught in suspension (suspension)

I’m caught in suspension

Say (say) anything (suspension)

But say what you mean (Oh, please say what you mean)

I’m caught in suspension (suspension)

I’m caught in suspension

-suspension; mae

It`s the way that you touch me

You let me know that you love me

it`s the way that you kiss me

You let me know that you miss me

And nobody`s gonna take me from

You got, you got,you got me
Going crazy I`m caught up
I don`t know what to do
You got,you got, you got me
(And all you gotta do is) call me
I`ll be there in a hurry

You make me feel special

I`m on top of the world when I`m next to you (you)

I just wanna cares you

Ilove all the things that you do

I`m right here I ain`t going no where cause

I know it`s hard for you to see

That boy your the only one for me

-you got me; b5

Wouldnt it be nice if we were older
Then we wouldnt have to wait so long
And wouldnt it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong

You know its gonna make it that much better
When we can say goodnight and stay together

Wouldnt it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through

Happy times together weve been spending
I wish that every kiss was neverending
Wouldnt it be nice

Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true
Baby then there wouldnt be a single thing we couldnt do
We could be married
And then wed be happy

Wouldnt it be nice

You know it seems the more we talk about it
It only makes it worse to live without it
But lets talk about it
Wouldnt it be nice

– wouldn’t it be nice; beach boys


My love for you will never end
Youll always be a part of me
As long as time keeps
On passing by
Youll always be my baby boy.
Everytime I look at you,
I cant believe
Ive found a love so true (and)
I took my time to put
My trust in you
I must admit it was so hard to do
And every minute that i
Spend with you
You make me believe i
Have nothing to loose and
Deep down I always knew
That you would be mine

-baby boy; big brovaz


you’re crazy but i love you :]

i LOVE you
i LOVE you SOO much
and
i don’t know what i’d do without you

i MISS you
i MISS you SOO fucking much
and everyday just feels longer when i’m not with you
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school is not cool

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i haven’t been able to update ever since that one time in bohol because i’ve been swamped with school stuff. no, just kidding. it’s cuz i basically haven’t had the time to. this is what sucks about school, i hardly get to blog but yeah, look back – i’ve never skipped more than a month… unless i was grounded. and for those avid readers, lagz blogs for me when i can’t so, this place won’t be so lonely.

as for me, i don’t think i’ll ever be lonely again ❤ :]

anyways, school has officially started and my high school life is almost FINALLY over. well, school just started, i have like 10 months to go but still, the thought excites me. lmao.

i’m in 4th year Platinum with Jet, Jed, edgar, dj, toshio, neil, samantha, gervise, renette, rodeena, jessica and some other people i don’t really remember cuz… yeah, i don’t care. Teacher Brazil’s our homeroom teacher and she’s sooo idk, on top of things. she has OCD, i think. she wants to know everything that goes on in the classroom and she’s soo systemized. we even have an exit and entrance door. geezus. this year’ll be veeeeery interesting. pak.

and NO, LAGZ. I’M NOT SIP2 CUZ I GET EXTRA POINTS IF I AM. I’M SIP2 CUZ I CAN GET AWAY WITH BEING SIP2. hahahahahahaha. jk. yeah, maybe i am. but it’s only cuz i sit in the front and cuz it’s still the start of school. just you wait, i’ll be back to the normal issa who doesnt care about anyone [except for lagz] that everyone loves and cares for. hehe. jk. or not. haha.

whateve. i don’t wanna talk about school. nothing interesting. no new students just really annoying oldies. DAWN LOOKS LIKE SUCH A SLUT NOW – OMG! and yeah, that’s it.

our batch doens’t own the third floor anymore though so that kinda sucks but whatever. lol.

playing tennis in a bit. just like what sir james just said. :]

bye bitch

And she is off to school.

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She has been busy with school. And she’s the teachers pet.[cgeg pa sip2 so that she’ll be an honor student]

hahaha LOSER!! why don’t you just be like me. hilom2 lang honor jd lgeh! ahahah

i’ll see her in a bit. she’s playing tennis!!! yay!!

 

ilove, babe!!! mwAaAah–bik ❤

WHATEVER, lagz. i don’t have wetdreams!!!

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right now, i’m at an internet cafe [shivers] in bohol [island mall to be exact] i’m wastng time here at the cafe before i have to get on the boat and wait 2 hours before i get back home at then go to school the next day.

boo hoo.

bohol was perfect. even if i do miss my friends and james alot [and even if i didn’t spend my last saturday partying] i still had a lot of fun. i know why i love the beach now. haha.

this morning i woke up at 4:30 [cuz james woke me up] and i went to the beach in my bikini [under my pj’s] and i just styed there waiting for the sun to rise. issa time. it was really awesome. i got to write down all my wishes for the next school year and i got to reflect and shit like that. this summer has been absoluterly awesome. it just gets better and better every year and i’m just really thankful.

i don’t know how things’re gonna be next summer but i just really hope that i’ll be spending it wit the people who mean so so so much t me. you people know who you are]

btw, i got to touch a tarsier today. be jealous. be very jealous.

well, gotta go. gotta find some clothes, bitch

She’s leaving tomorrow =,(

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But it’s gonna be just fine!! not really cause i’m gonna miss her. but we saw each other just a while ago! pumunta ako sa bahay nila to get my cable for my ipod[nice excuse, huh?]… nyways, her parents allowed me to go so yeah!! at least they allow me to go to their house nah! i just love the thing that happened in i.t park with papa-lander & issa cause they had the “james talk” and yeah tito lander said we can hang out! so yeah! whatever!!! [wait, she’s letting me call her at this point. gotta call her] she wants to hear me say goodnight and goodluck in her wetdreams ahahahahaha. jk!! mwah!!! i think i’ll go now!! im tired!! bye LOSERS…

bik ❤

lies, lies and more lies

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my dad is gay. and soo out of place.

issadog_102890 (1/1/2002 12:35:24 AM): a boy is coming over tomorrow
daaady Chua (1/1/2002 12:37:03 AM): who is this boy thats coming over?
daaady Chua (1/1/2002 12:38:05 AM): tell me about this boy and WHY he’s coming over
issadog_102890: haha
issadog_102890: his name is james balagosa
issadog_102890: and he’s coming over to pick up his ipod
issadog_102890: we’ve been churchmates for 11 years
issadog_102890: and i think he’s courting me <– lie numero uno
issadog_102890: HAHAH
daaady Chua: so after he picks up his ipod, he’s leaving, right?
daaady Chua: how come you have his ipod?
issadog_102890: because he asked me to upload songs
issadog_102890: and idk with mommy. sila man nag sabot. maybe he’ll have dinner
daaady Chua: ahhh.. his excuse
daaady Chua: that’s just his excuse so he can come see you
daaady Chua: next time he can upload it himself
issadog_102890: well at least he’s coming over sa house.
issadog_102890: thats’s what mommy wants man
issadog_102890: we’re family friends man sad
issadog_102890: so mommy’s ok with him <- is she?!
issadog_102890: he jus has to do everything in a christian way
daaady Chua: ic
daaady Chua: sush, when you’re out with your friends, be safe always k?
daaady Chua: no drinking or hanging out with those who drinks
issadog_102890: yeah
issadog_102890: we usually have coffee raman at starbucks after dinner <– i’ve never even had coffee with my friends!
daaady Chua: do any of your friends drink?
issadog_102890: and then papa picks me up at wherever it is i’m at
daaady Chua: aw ok
issadog_102890: sometimes but only during private parties <– If paseo is where you have private parties then, YEAH!  
daaady Chua: dont be riding with anybody who drinks k?
issadog_102890: yeah.
issadog_102890: i don’t drink man <– HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
daaady Chua: thats good sush
issadog_102890: but i’ll start drinking when i’m 18 na gyud <- AND YOU CAN’T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT CUZ YOU’RE IN RICHARDSON, YOU DOPE!
daaady Chua: we’ll think about it <- think your ass
daaady Chua: what does your mom say about that?
issadog_102890: about drinkin?
issadog_102890: i drink with her man
issadog_102890: the only times i drink are when i’m wit her <– HAHA. partially true. but not really
daaady Chua: ic
daaady Chua: what do you drink?
issadog_102890: wine lang <- cuz i’m rich! HAHAHA. EWK.
issadog_102890: haha
daaady Chua: sush, its 2 na. tulog sa ko ha?
issadog_102890: ok, dad
issadog_102890: gnight
daaady Chua: ill talk to you tomorrow nalang
daaady Chua: gnite sush
issadog_102890: ok, dad
issadog_102890: bye
daaady Chua: luv u
no reply to that

in control

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my friends say i’m being anal and too into it. they think that my whole time is devoted to lagz and to no one else. and honestly, they could be right about that but friends are always top on my list. i have a list of tops, not in a specific order though basta 1st gyud si god. and if they need me, i’ll be there for them. :]

they’re suprised that i’m soo into him and the whole idea of us and i don’t blame them.

but hey, i’m inlove. and it’s finally safe to say it. cuz i’ve waited, prayed, got it and prayed some more and i just hope this lasts forever. :]

thanks for being my everything. you’re worth it. you make me feel like i’m worth it. you make me feel like i’m worth the fight. i love you.


you don’t look like you there.

nowhere but here <3

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i’ve been a busy bee lately so i’m sorry if i wasn’t able to blog. [to whoever reads this] i like the fact that someone’s leaving me little letters when i do check my xanga though, it helps me write. it keeps me happy :]

so for the past 4 days i’ve been at stc for this artists called to serve [atcs] workshop. for the past 4 days, i’ve been spanking tamborines and praying and hanging out with james. see, i’m a tamborine dancer and he’s a magician.

“you wanna know what kind of magic
i used to make you fall for me?”

omg you dork. get real!!! :p
jk. i love you.

i can SMACK that. HAHA.

the whole thing was a really cool experience though. like, during the afternoons we’d change into different outfits. first day was kiddie outfit [i didn’t change] then retro [i wore my dress AGAIN] and third was international [i didn’t care to hange either] hehe. Tep joined which just wmade the whole thing better. :]



we’re cool. HAHA.

aside from the whole thing being fun, it was also really tiring. i swear i’m still not fully rested frm the whole thing. and honestly, i DON’T miss tennis.

me and james kinda fought on the third day though. totally my fault. sorry about that. who knew you were as emotional as i am.

life isn’t as regular as it’s usally been though. life was been one hell of a shocker to me. a few week ago my parents couldn’t stand to talk about james or simply the thought of him. but now he’s like the only thing they can talk about. last saturday i actually have candid pictures of his mom and mine conversing about clothes and stuff and the day after that, his dad and mine sat together during church. i even got to hold hands with his dad for like 5 seconds and mommy… MY MOMMY actually talked to lagz. and the coolest part is, James didn’t block out or give her a bad answer, he actually put a really big and genuine smile on and talked to her. i feel soo lucky right now. :]

last night me and papa went out for dinner then we had coffee at IT Park. Coffeebean is better than Starbucks but, it’s not like i can even afford any of em anyways. 125 pesos for Coffee. that’s just crazy! lol.

me and papa had a really good time. i actually found it in me to admit that i do like James and the coolest thing is that, he didn’t block me out or tell me that i wasn’t allowed to see him [they don’t know the WHOLE thing.] instead he give me a whole lot of things to do with the situation. he even wants to hang out with him [man date. soo gay] and maybe he can have dinner with us one night and he’s actually open to the idea of him coming to the house. i like how this is tunring out.

i honestly feel soo blessed to have a faher like him in my life. he makes me feel a lot much better and idk, he just tells me things that no one else could tell me. He doesn’t beat around the bush, he just tells me straight. something my real dad could never do. but i still have good feelings or my dad. maybe t’s love. i dont know

plus on our way home,he caught up with us. parked infront of our car and everything. oh i love speakingofthedevils. no, i love suprises. could never get tired of em. hehe.

so yeah, i’m hoping that james can come over tomorrow and pick up his ipod. maybe he can even hang out for a while i mom’s ayt with that. hehe.

enough sah. rest.

then today i had a meeting at school. it was just really fun to hang out with josh and jet again. i miss being one of the guys. yeah, being a girl is fun but i like not caring about what i’m going to wear or being consious about what i say as not to offend the other sistah. lol. i like staying balanced. ;]

then i had dinner with friends. arden came over. we’re beaching on thrusday before school ends and i miight sleep at her place on saturday. lol. crazy day. crazy day. hehe.

so yeah, i’m done.

so that was last week, yesterday and today ;]