in the grander scheme of things, you’d know that when I’m mad I like to walk around aimlessly- to anywhere, nowhere wondering myself where.

in the grander scheme of things, you’d find me and know what was wrong because you were the wrong and you’d know how to make it right.

in the grander scheme of things. I like that line. I thought about it while I was walking down dangerous roads wondering if you’d ever show up.

but instead you were laying flat faced on the bed waiting for me to come home. because I always fucking come home.

Dear Irene

You’ve been popping up a lot of my memories lately- photos, banters, an exchange of good conversations and the like.

I always wonder what would’ve happened if the worse never happened- what kind of things we would do, passions we would turn into projects and burgers we would eat like we said but never really got to.

I think about you quite often even if we weren’t childhood friends or kabarkada. You were always someone who I looked up to and a lot of good memories I have were because of you. And so dear friend, I am always mourning for you.

I wanted to leave a comment on a beautiful memory but I knew you wouldn’t reply so I left it as what it was- a memory. But I were to, it would’ve been along the lines of “I MISS THIS! Let’s do it again soon!” as you would eagerly reply to with, “YES! When I’m back in Cebu!”

That’s the thing with memories- sometimes they haunt you and sometimes they leave you missing for things you never really knew you had.

I hope you’re doing fine wherever you are. I hope you found what you were looking for. And I hope in your passing, you knew that I was always your friend.

You are always missed.

My Morning Skin Care Routine (Korean/ Asian Inspired) ft. Vinfusion For Kyani Fleuresse Serum

I’ve always heard that prevention is better than cure and I’ve tried to practice this concept whether it comes to my health, skin care and whatever else I can apply it to in my day to day life.

Lately, skin care has been an in thing in the beauty industry and to be honest with all of you, I ABSO-FREAKIN-LOUTELY love it! But when the whole influx of beauty products came to show, I found myself constantly asking, “where do I start?”. It took me a while guys, but apparently, old dogs can be taught new tricks so now I’m at least 75% sure about what I’m talking about and I’m here to teach…

So here’s a breakdown of how I go about my MORNING skin care routine and here’s to hoping that you can apply it in your day to day lives:

STEP 1: CLEANSE

What I use: CLEAN & CLEAR Essentials Foaming Facial Cleanser

STEP 2: EXFOLIATE

What I use: Silicone Face Brush from Emporium

STEP 2: TONE

What I use: Yves Rocher Micellar Water

STEP 3: SERUM/ BOOSTERS/ AMPOULES

What I use: Kyani Fleuresse Serum from Vinfusion

Fleuresse Serum is a light serum that incorporate extracts from Swiss apple stem cells. Swiss apples called Uttwiler Spätlauber has been discovered to stay fresh longer than any other variety and naturally occurring botanicals, which have been incorporated into this serum protect the skin from oxidative stress, inflammation and also reverse side effect of photoaging.

STEP 4: EYE CREAM

What I use: La Prairie Swiss Ice Crystal Eye Cream

STEP 5: EMULSION

What I use: La Prairie Swiss Ice Crystal Emulsion

STEP 5: MOISTURIZE

What I use: Innisfree Moisturizer

STEP 6: DAY CREAM

What I use: Pond’s Age Mircale Day Cream

I’m planning to do a more in depth post about the benefits of all these products in a future post along with my night skin routine which is a few steps more than this.

Lemme know if you guys are excited to find out about that!

In the meantime, find out more about Kyani and their products here.

xx,
Issa P.

I am so incredibly tormented by the thoughts that I have when I am not controlling them. The dreams I have trouble waking up from. That constant nagging fear and obsession with trying to figure out why they are what they are and where they’re coming from.

I am afraid to close my eyes. I am suddenly so afraid of a million things and I don’t know where they are coming from.

Barbie Dog

Your eyes, that annoying way you breathe, the way you didn’t like to snuggle when we got you but eventually learned to love, your doggy bag and how you loved it so much, how you hated dogs but you loved people, your dumb dumb ways, how you always couldn’t wait to get in the car, that time I shaved you like a lion and how you wouldn’t come out from under the bed for days, the way you would hide in my shoe closet and 5 1/2 years of you being the best dog anyone could ask for.

I love you, barbie girl, barbie dog, bebe bawbee, our little princess. I wish you didn’t leave me too soon. 😦

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11:11

it was 11:11 and I suddenly had the urge to ask the universe for one last favor- that you wouldn’t stop loving me… again.

Weird what we wish for sometimes.

Weird-er what our greatest fears are.

Samoka

It’s god knows what time and I’m waking you up in this sudden need of quenching.

“Give me water! Give me water! UHAW KAAYO KO!”And then I fall right back to sleep.

But there you are, thinking it’s the most important thing in world and there I am, lying almost lifeless, back in my slumber and there you are again, trying to get me to drink water.

It’s early in the morning and we’re laughing about it in the loo. We’re silly creatures, we don’t remember things but we’ll always remember laughing at the dumb stuff.

We’re at a club rn and I wanna crawl into bed with you again.

I used to fear the evenings and falling asleep because i might never wake up but now the nights are my favorite simply because they are always spent next to you.

Never wake me up for water, ok? Only I’m allowed to do that. 😂

It’s Slow and Beautiful Chaos

3 workshops (and hopefully counting…) in a span of a month, my presentations have gone awol on me so I am left to start from scratch, I haven’t answered my emails in 3 days and it’s making me very anxious as I hate having unread and unanswered mail, events for the next 3 days, meetings with clients, a delivery (!!) a flight to cdo for the labor day weekend and a wedding, NO ITINERARY YET (THIS IS MAKING ME ANXIOUS. I NEED TO KNOW!!), looking forward to meeting a few content creators while I’m there and a suitcase that I still need to pack and clothes I still have to buy.

Despite all this chaos, I am taking the time to write to you, to come back to you- my favorite place on earth. Honestly, if it weren’t for you, I don’t think I would be here right now. I don’t think my life would be this beautifully, amazingly chaotic if not for you.

I am grateful more and more each day.

Thank you.