i’m blogging in the library right now. i have midterms at 1:30 and i have a big feeling i’m going to fail this test. haha. i hope i don’t though. i can’t stand to fail. but in fairness to me, i’ve been doing ok. not awesome, just ok. haha.
just thought id drop by and blog a little bit because i’m bored and blogging is so much better than studying:)
i’ll update later. chiao.
every time people find out we’re texting though, i always get a common notion about him. so, i really really don’t know. i don’t wanna base our friendship on other people’s judgements of him though. i was never that kind. and you know me, if you tell me not to touch a live wire, i’d touch it anyway just because i have to find out for myself.
so anyways, it was really stupid cuz like i was saturday drinking with friends and he text messaged me to go home and oddly, i did. i don’t even know why. and when i got home, i felt kinda stupid cuz i listened to him. hahaha. but then it wasn’t that bad. we ended up talking all night and it was just fun, you know? i just won’t let him manipulate me like that next time :))
idk, we’ll see where this goes. he’s really cute though. and i like the fact that he’s constantly trying to hang out with me but then i’d feel bad cuz i never have the time too. just hope he understands that. and aside from that, i heard this really nasty rumor about him that’s kinda making me scared. but apparently, i like getting electricuted so i’ll proli have to keep you posted.
i just remember how hard it is when everything’s starting out. i guess i’m just really scared. but i told myself i wouldn’t let the past affect the future. who knows, this could be something really good.
i think i’m seeing him again tomorrow. can’t wait š
xxxx
today wasn’t the BEST day but i guess it’s better than being dead. and i definitely thought i was going to get wasted today. but i didn’t. maybe that’s what’s wrong with my day. i knew i should’ve just went and gotten wasted. **sigh** š¦
ok so here’s what happened:
1. i failed my biochem test by like 5 STUPID POINTS. only cuz i forget to put a D on the stupid carbonyl chain or whatever you call it.
2. diana bugged the hell out of me in the morning
3. i haven’t found a gift for papa yet
4. my bill is 700++ and i have no fucking idea whyy
5. school is soo tiring. i don’t wanna do it anymore. haha.
i just stayed at ayala today and studied all by my lonesome. it was nice to be alone and actually get SOME things done but then it kinda sucked after diana made me cry and then LEFT me.
i hate “a year from now” it tore me up today. š¦
i guess it still does kinda sting. sometimes.
today wasn’t the BEST day but i guess it’s better than being dead. and i definitely thought i was going to get wasted today. but i didn’t. maybe that’s what’s wrong with my day. i knew i should’ve just went and gotten wasted. **sigh** š¦
ok so here’s what happened:
1. i failed my biochem test by like 5 STUPID POINTS. only cuz i forget to put a D on the stupid carbonyl chain or whatever you call it.
2. diana bugged the hell out of me in the morning
3. i haven’t found a gift for papa yet
4. my bill is 700++ and i have no fucking idea whyy
5. school is soo tiring. i don’t wanna do it anymore. haha.
i just stayed at ayala today and studied all by my lonesome. it was nice to be alone and actually get SOME things done but then it kinda sucked after diana made me cry and then LEFT me.
i hate “a year from now” it tore me up today. š¦
i guess it still does kinda sting. sometimes.
so i guess today was supposed to be our 2 year anniversary but it’s not anymore cuz we’re not even together.
i guess life’s really temporary like that, you know? one day you have everything and the next it feels like you have nothing at all. but i don’t feel like i lost everything, you know? i kinda feel like i gained much more.
and even if i’m sad cuz we’re not even together on the biggest days of our relationship, i guess i’m happy cuz it’s over and i have so much more to look forward to this time. i hope next time will be better š
school now. byeee
lately my life has been generally good. like there’s school- i’m busy with that and then friends and yeah, that’s basically it.
i guess now i’m still trying to make up for what i lost and it feels nice not being tied down to anybody right now. but you know, you always want what you don’t have. š
i don’t feel like blogging much right now so i’ll proli get into the details next time i blog. besides, there’s not much to elaborate man sad.
i’ve been hanging out with this one guy lately and it’s been good and fun and everything it is when a friendship starts out. it feels nice to be giddy again š
king texted me and amiel admitted he liked me. like i didn’t see that coming. so now i’m going to stop talking to him. š
and life right no w is good and i want to sleep
i heard it’s always good in the beginning and that you’ll be something wonderful, something i’d want to keep and something i would fight for. i heard that you were someone who’d take care of me and treat me good.
i heard that i’d regret you. but i’m not the kind who regrets so let’s ride this boat.
went to barracks today. so hardcore.
details laterrrr. ā¤
Pick the month (number) you were born on:
1 I choked on
2 I punched
3 I smacked
4 I sang to
5 I gave my number to
6 I tweeted
7 I farted on
8 I gave a lap dance to
9 I fell in love with
10 I had gratuitous sex with
11 I Googled
12 I gave eProps to
Pick the day you were born on:
1 Akon
2 your mom
3 a banana
4 an iPhone
5 a cat
6 my neighbor
7 a ninja
8 a bottled of Jack Daniels
9 my brother
10 a baby
11 my dog
12 a pickle
13 the computer
14 a football player
15 Mike Jones
16 myself
17 my best friends boyfriend
18 a tree
19 my dad
20 a stuffed animal
21 a permanent marker
22 a slut
23 a condom
24 my psychologist
25 a policeman
26 a gangbanger
27 my cousin
28 a baseball bat
29 a DVD player
30 a corndog
31 my cell phone
Pick the color of the shirt you are wearing:
White: Because I was high.
Black: Because I was drunk.
Pink: Because I’m not homosexual.
Red: Because the voices told me to.
Blue: Because I’m too sexy for this shirt.
Green: Because someone offered me 1,000,000 dollars in Monopoly money.
Purple: Because I’m naked.
Gray: Because that’s how I roll.
Yellow: Because of the a-a-a-a-alcohol.
Orange: Because I hate my family.
Teal: Because I’m in love with a stripper
Other: Because that’s how I roll.
lately it’s just been about school. i have only 3 classes but i’m beat as hell. i feel like biochemistry is killing me and it’s just been rough cuz i feel like no matter how hard i try, i do better when i don’t even care. haha.
i’m leader for this project for CL at school and i’m pretty hyped about it cuz i get to help people and i guess it’s KINDA godly so at least i get to do something good after all the bad things i’ve been getting myself into. hehe.
ii have a major reason to smile this week. š last night i had coffee with this guy, Justin, we’ve been texting and talking for like a week and as much as i hate senarios like this i just said wtf and met up with him. besides it wasn’t completely awkward cuz we both know the same people.. we just never ran into each other until a few days ago. tsss. i’m not even going to defend myself cuz i had fun. haha. it’s just nice meeting people and you know, talking and having a good time. hehe.
i think this week is tiring but good at the same time cuz i got my original allowance back! š
i’m gonna go now. just thought i’d drop by for a while.
hugs!
i bet everyone’s out but i’m staying in tonight. i lack sleep and i’m oh so tired. diana came over and i usually just let her to whatever the fuck she wants and i just sleep and shit. haha.
had pizza with kevin and diana earlier. and i drove from my school to yellow cab. I HAD SOO MUCH FUN. and kevin is such a freak. uhhhh. haha. i wanna do that again.
i also learned waray. it’s so much better than english š
i’ll be home tonight sleeping and menstrating. which is also why i don’t wanna leave the house.
i love you all.
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