I wanted to be the one thing different in your life- the one thing that set you apart.
I wanted people to look at you and hate you because for as long as I was in your arms, I could never be in anyone else’s.
I wanted to be so much to you.
But I am slowly learning that want and wanted are two very different things.
Pro’s of quitting smoking:
– I don’t have smokers breath anymore
– My clothes and anything I lean on have stopped smelling like someone burned me alive
– There’s more room in my bag for idk, whatever little space a cigarette box takes up
– Everyone is so proud of me
Cons:
– My skin has been going through these horrible break outs
– My teeth have turned yellow! eek
– I GAINED SO MUCH WEIGHT
– I have to deal with uncomfortable social situations now
– I’ve become a raging hormonal bitch
– I am always hungry or eating JUST BECAUSE
– I’ve lost the “sexy” in my voice
So in general, I really don’t know if there’s more good or bad in all of this. On the brighter side, I won’t die of lung cancer… instead I’ll die from something else. Ultimately, I will die however. Not cuz of cigarettes. But I’ll still die.
xx,
Fat Issa
Researched watecolor ideas tumblr…. was not disappointed :)))
Pixie Dust Creations, in partnership with OLX, are throwing an awesome event this weekend and the best part- it’s all for a good cause!
This May 16- 17, 2015 (Saturday- Sunday) from 3 PM – 8 PM at the Ayala Terraces, I, along with my other Cebu based fashion bloggers such as: Jean Yu of www.lifeonaflavoredrunway.com; Toni Pino- Oca of www.perfumedredshoes.com; Doyzkie Buenaviaje of www.iluvcebu.com; Kristine Roa of www.theglamarazzi.com; Marco of www.lamikaayo.com and many more, will be there to sell our pre-loved items. For each item sold, P20.00 will be donated to the iLeaners Inc., which is a non-profit organization, aimed at promotion reading efficiency in the rural areas of Cebu.
We’re really looking forward to seeing you during this event! If you’re not into shopping, then you can also drop by the area and donate used school supplies to help out iLearners wonderful cause.
Here are a few of the items that I will be putting up for sale:
PLUS! For a minimum purchase, you can also bring home art work made by either Jean, Toni or I. For sneak peaks, check out my instagram and snapchat: @issaplease. I’m always leaving like easter egg surprises there!
Can’t wait to see you all!
xx,
Issa
Even our silence is heavy.
So she asked him,
“Baby, aren’t you tired of not loving me? Because I’m getting tired of asking you to. ”
And he looked at her with an empty stare, so empty that he didn’t even have to say the words that would validate it all.
And that’s when she learned to never ask questions with answers you’re not ready for.
I am definitely a lot of things to different people. To some I’m strong willed, driven, independent while to others I am sweet, timid and… I can’t think of anything else! HAHA. I’m a pretty neurotic person to be honest with all of you and I function on sheer instinct and most of the time unnecessary emotions. Most of the time, I am my own worst critic (but aren’t we all?!) and I have a bad habit of creating non-existent competitions when in fact there isn’t any need for it at all. I guess I’m just hard wired that way when I really wish that I was more logical, mentally stable and put together, to say the least.
I don’t wake up in the morning and look at myself in the mirror thinking I’m such a great catch or that I make a significant difference to the society, usually it’s just me laying in bed wishing that I could just stay there for another 5 minutes more. I look at other people who have more than I do and think, “what am I doing differently?” or “I work just as hard as they do so, what gives?” but then I realize that my time just hasn’t come yet but in God’s time it will. I cannot cook to save my life, I do not know how to iron clothes or how to pick out the perfect bag for any occasion and my most recent thoughts are about me not being a very competent human being.
Don’t feel bad for me, I’m very much aware of the situation.
All these things aside, I see the good and the bad in this splice of life and I think to myself that things could have been a lot more crappier for me. Foundation would have ceased to exist, everyone would’ve hated me cuz of my bi-polarism (I totally made that word up) and the internet never would’ve came to be and you all would never realize how awesome I really am. trololooool.
When I was pitching photo shoot pegs to Jing Pascual, I told him how much I wanted to do a series of head shots because 1. I wanted to show off my vaping skills (errr…) and 2. lately, I’ve been inspired by up close and personal photo shoots because of it’s rawness and vulnerability.
As you can see in these set of photos, it’s pretty clear that I’m a whole series of emotions and I guess that’s what makes me the most human. Despite all of my weird antics and personalities, at the end of the day, I am who I am and I can either love it, hate it or change it. And isn’t that the greatest thing about being human- Being able to correct our own wrongs?
I’ve practically laid down my entire self for everyone to knit and pick at which is the rawness and vulnerability that I had initially intended.
As hard as it is for me to talk about these things, I actually find myself enjoying this. Maybe this outpouring of emotions was what I needed to pick myself up again. Life.can.be.so.hard.sometimes.
So if you’re anything like me and life is being a b*tch to you too or you’re just paying your dues to the world, please know that you’re not alone. And if I, crazy sensitive; melodramatic; probably undergoing some sort of nicotine withdrawal Issa, can talk about all these things with a grain of salt then you can too. Sometimes life just gets like this!
Camisole: Forever 21 Basics| Cover up: Given| Shorts: Abercrombie & Fitch| Emotions: Homegrown
Keep your head up high,
Issa ❤
Photography by Jing Pascual
So this is what depression feels like. Everything is pretty much fucked up in my life, but at least I’ve got blogging. That’s always been pretty good for me.
My AONY life interest piece would probably go something like this:
“I’m slowly re-realizing that love is never really enough. It doesn’t matter how much you love someone, if you don’t have the right ingredients to make it work then it most probably isn’t. I am also remembering that you can love a person all the time, but never always be in love and mostly that someone will always love someone more in the relationship. I don’t know if I’m grateful that I am remembering all these things from my past relationships while I’m still in one or if I should be scared because it might be a sign that it might be ending but either way, this makes me very very sad. I thought I was a pretty put together and strong person but apparently, I am not.”
Don’t be so offended when someone cat calls you when you’re walking down the road. Honestly, take it as a compliment… NOT EVERYONE THINKS YOU LOOK THAT GREAT.
#iamneversorry
I need a new bikini. like I feel like I’m going to die of a broken heart if I don’t get one. SERIOUSLY.
And I need to get over this rump so that shopping can be fun again!
Issa Talks... Alot 