and yes, i am very lonely. no, not really. i really don’t have any reason in the world to be. i guess some might even say i’m lucky.i have the almost perfect friends, a good realtionship with my family. [the dad thing, it’s getting by] and no strings attached. yes, i live in paradise. but yeah. i unno. there’s always going to be something missing. oh, you know what i’m talking about.

chabel wants a guy that gives her butterflies. and makes her nervous but relaxed at the same time. she wants someone who makes her look forward to today and excited for tomorrow. she wants to like someone like the way she used to like way backin kindergarten. maybe not the kicking and punching part but – you get the feeling. she wants to say, “i’ve never felt this way for anyone in my life before.” and i say, uhhuh. what a cliche.

and carlow’s heart broken from trying to keep a love he couldn’t fix and mainly because of dota too. cige ma’g kaun ug lecheng yawang dota. porbida. wel, that’s life and that’s why i’m never going to have a boyfriend. ever. lmao. well, maybe not ever. but yeah.

and besides, i can’t fin a good guy. not anyone. i’m doomed. :)) and when i do, god, naa gyu’y contrast so, why am i ranting again? lmao.

i have no idea.

the point is. i don’t have a point actually. i just wanted to say something.

well, i got to ayala at around 1. i took a cab. yes,i can do that now. lmao.and then i went off to buy renette a gift.i got her earrings. yes, i’m a cheap person. but hey, if i had the money, i’d give something good man gyud bah :p

then me, renette and her brother stood around the fountain place til the people got there. thank god, francis got there quite early then tom, dj, kathya,jed, josh and then the others that i don’t remember and i could care less for. lmao. honestly,i can’t believe i went out wit them. i mean, i don’t mind but like, i’m not used to it. if you ask me, stc is still the way to go for me. but things’re changing soo much this year and i guess i’m dealing with it. go with the flow. i mean, i keep my new and my old friends.i was adventuring outside the box but yeah, it was ‘ok’, i guess. i mean, the guys lined up and the girls, i guess but i  wasn’t there to admire their standinginline efforts cuz i was wandering amongst the people of ayala. theresians. you know how i do. lmao.

oh, kathy picked up a bad mcdo plastic full of full. fries, chicken nuggets, coke and the like. i wonder who’s plan it was to put it there. i wonder who was smart enough to actually fall for it. smart people. but nuon,what’re the chances. lmao. at least we know. congrats, kath.

anyways, so we watched superman. but before that, i kept going to and forth to benchix and maanyag. starbucks, food choices and ratski. gaaah. i was sweating there. haha. friends. you know. no, maybe you don’t. lmao. fine, fine. maybe i just love running around the mall waaay to much but things happened. hehe. highschool drama don’t you just absolutely love it? lmao.

anyways, so, we watched superman na gyud, and it was kinda boring.i didn’t get it but i thought i’d like it. i had to share popcorn with thomas. and btw, he’s not a really good or nice seatmate or popcorn share-r. he kept hitting his knee against mine and shit. he even hogged the arm rests – geez! but whatever. it was fun either way. lmao. but me and kathya decided to leave cuz we did kinda promise james and nathan that we;d show up to their birthday too. so, we left for ratski. and omg, it was soo soo soo, omfg, i miss partying fun. lmao. it was mad crazii at that place. we we’re dancing like it was 12 midnight. haha. but- it wasn’t. lmao what kind of a lecheng yawa is this. lmao.whatever, me.

anyways, yes, i think i am a wild child. lmao. i have to admit, dancing on a chair with james was fun. the thought that the teachers saw me dance with him is fun-er. lmao. and singing on stage was hot. embarassing but- hot. lmao. teacher jojo thought that me and francis lumban were together and i’m pretty sure the other guys who met him thought that he was my guy too. hmm..

when i got home, carlow, paolo and someone else came over. carlow got his palanca and he just talked for a while. they found out about axel and the past and teased the frikkin hell outta me. that was insane. lmao. but whatver. i love those guys. soo fun. mother … you know. 😉

♥
issa chua.

about school. i’d just like to say,”dagha’g salamat sa ka ninyong tanan sa tanan ninyong gi hatag na suporta’s ako.” wtf. don’t ask. i am the pride of joy of maria montessori children’s house. maria montessori case ele bambini. lmao. to whoever reads this: this is not mockery. i’m enjoying life. this is life. deal with it. lmao. :p

i’m in glee club. yey. it’s fun. i guess and i’m also in karatedo. yes, i’m officially vying for honors. there’s nothing wrong with that, right? eveni f i don’t get on the list? yey. at least more clubs for me. karatedo. karatedo. lmao.

uhm, yeah, school is trying as always. i have to balance my time for ssc now cuz everyone’s takingit secriuosly. i can’t bring my phone to school na gyud cuz you know, secret spies and yes, i’m afraid i  have to be responsible and i good role model and shit. it’s a sacrifice but nowadays, yeah. nvm.

anyways, this week was ok, i guess. school was ok. bearable. well, my grades have been ok. perfects and a good 3 or 4 mistakes. i think or i’m just sounding really – unhumble right now. lmao

well, t. jojo made me cry in class. and once again, i’m the first person to cry in class. i do not blame myself. lmao. it’s him. he stole my notebook. i hate him for that. but i like him as an adviser. you know. whatever. i will eventually change my mind. lmao. sorry, kev. you have issues with him. i know. lmao.

last friday, mommy left for bangkok, she went with annie and debbie to – shop? yeah, well, it was basically cuza that. they proli needed a long vacation. whatever with them. i’m mad i’m not with them. but do they care? nooooo. and along with mommy being at bangkok, i’ve been under house arrest 😦 well, at least the fun came to me. yes, it did. nina, my love came over yesterday and we bonded. i missed her soo much. it was all fun. i love her:) yes, i do

and then today, we just went to ayala with the father and the monkey. just that. well, whatever. nothing to say really. life has been ok from someone else’s point of view but i think i’m just being ungrateful as always. but i don’t blame myself for some reason. hmm. i don’t like this feeling. lmao. i’m thinking of a quote right now. but, i don’t feel like thinking much so, forget that. lmao.

issa