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let’s settle this once and for all

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ok. i’ve been acting like a complete bitch who doesn’t want to talk to anyone. i’ve been dodging text messages and not answering my calls just because well, i’m just not in the mood too. i can do that, right? lol.

honestly, i cannot deny the happiness he brings me. because, yeah he does make me happy and everyone knows it.

but sometimes, it gets too serious and i can’t help but wish that it would all just… stop

it’s not that i don’t like him anymore but you know, it just seems a little too serious for my type. constantly texting, talking on the phone, talking about stuff for real. and i don’t do talk, i just let it happen and not care. and sometimes, i unno, i just don’t want it. like, it’s too much pressure.

honestly, i can’t help but think that we’re as cut out for each other as i think we should be. i’m tired of texting of talking on the phone lang and i have a feeling that it won’t be as fun in real actual life.

i don’t know. it’s xmas eve and i shouldn’t be feeling this way but despite the given time and date i can’t help but wish it all to end.

i’m soo evil right now

but i don’t think i can do this anymore.

i don’t i can do it.

i don’t wanna hurt anybody.

he’s the last guy i want to hurt. but honestly, i don’t think i can make him happy. i think all i’ll do is hurt him and hurt him. because quite frankly, i’m not the girl he thinks i am. sure, he gives me all these weird feelings but, i just have too many things going on in my life right now that i don’t know what i want or who i want or if i want to do this. i wish i could wish it all away. but i think i have to end it before i do something completely stupid. and i know for sure that i will. or already have. because that’s what i do. i do stupid things.

i’m sorry

mother meets promenade king

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yes, yesterday, mother and the whole shebang [papa, lolo, lola, tita tina and tito mike] met francis and boy, was that fun. lol

papa was actually dumbstruck for the first time in the 10 wonderful years that he’s been in my life. lol. he wasn’t able to talk to him and said that he was saving his questions for prom night. but you could tell by the way he was fiddling with things that yes, i got my papa’s heart beating crazy at the thought that i’m getting all grown up now. sob.

the talk was interesting and my god.. fast! mom just asked him when and what time i’d be home and where’d we go after prom.

now the woman can’t shuttup about the guy. she’s practically inlove with him. lol. i have no say on the matter.

sos, mama. lol. she says na he’s the kinda guy she wants me to be with, attractive, nice, well rounded and descent. lol. nya feel pud kaayu nimo, franc? HAHA.

apparently, they wanna see him around more.

so anyways, after they talked, he gave me his xmas gift. hand saniter. hehe. sipat. he always had a thing about me writing on my hands. lol. i’m an artist. kill me. haha. bitaw, i loved it. šŸ™‚

soo.. after he left, the grown ups started talking about their high school romances. haha. that was funny. i just wasn’t paying enough attention to write it in details. lol

so now, i’ve gone all lazy on marc. i’m soo sorry but i do this to people. i’m like that. i put people through misery and pretend it’s my job to. im just like that.

i should warn you that i change my mind very quickly witout even thinking. i get restless and pulan-non and when i do, i tend to let go of certain things no matter how much they mean to me.

i’m just like that. and i wnat you to know to know this in case this happens. and i have a feeling that maybe it will. šŸ˜

next blog please..

i swear to god i’ve been nothing but nice

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it’s the 23..i think and i’ve been home all day. well, except for angie’s house where i almost got eaten alive by her tiny dog. lol.

yesterday was the christmas party where i got to wear my pretty black dress that i lurved soo much. lol.

the party was ayt. i thought teacher jojo got me but teacher paski got me. lol. and i even have the nerve to shout, “i knew a teacher got me” in fronna anne and sam which was pretty stupid cuz i thought teacher jo did. lol. but i had a feeling it was a teacher anyways so i was pretty damn close!! lol.

my whole day was spent at ayala and just that. i got to talk to marc the whole night which was fun. slept at around 12 and yeah, that’s that.

today ; tomorrow until maybe next week

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today was the last day of tests. yey for that. lol. we had filipino and english which was synch. i just hope my grades make me feel like it was. lol.

i have a new love. and no, it’s not a boy nor a school supply! it’s a book. yey. i have a new hobby. lol. it’s the diary of a crush. lol. so, in some way, a little bit of something is still involved. but it fancies the hell outta me and i’ve learned some new kick ass words like arse, kiss slut and the word fancy now fancies me and whatelse? argh. i want a vintage dress now. lol.

anyways, christmas break is almost on it’s way! all i have to go through next is our xmas party and then i’m free. i think i’ll be totally bumped out tomorrow because i have pratically been snobbed by my bandmates who might be playing tomorrow. i don’t know. i could care less right now. if i’m not wanted then i won’t beg on my knees to be wanted. but honestly… i kinda wish they’d want me. oh well, i wont need to put up with this for long. i’m almost off the hook.

the only thing that excites me about tomorrow is that i get to wear my pretty new dress that mommy bought me from bayo. i’ve been rambling on about how pretty it is and how pretty i could look in it to vince and marc. you know i know that you love me. lol.

i spent the whole day at ayala and i’ve been out for 3 days yet until now, i haven’t finished xmas shopping yet and i’m broke. who knew boys clothes costed millions. milions that i don’t have šŸ˜¦ haha.

well anyways, ima go now. i only asked for 5 minutes from people so, scram.

what’s gonna work? teamwork

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what’s NOT going to work? haha. zecrt-oh amig-oh!

lmao.

so aside from the world being cruel to me, things have actually been turning out ok for me. i mean, i did have to stay in the library after the tests due to the lack on friends at school but aside from that, i’m fine.

i figured, i’m ok with everything for real. if i don’t hear from him, aww.. ok rapud. just make sure i don’t hear from him in a very long time.

no more choices for me. santa knows what i want this christmas. make it good, mister. common, i know you want to šŸ˜‰

i can’t wait to go xmas shopping for my outfit on friday. i want a pretty dress and i’m not taking skirts as an option right now. yes, thank you šŸ™‚

mom’s home. now i’m not in the ranting mood. she just reminded me of how miserble i am at home.

argh, matey!

what’s gonna work? teamwork

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what’s NOT going to work? haha. zecrt-oh amig-oh!

lmao.

so aside from the world being cruel to me, things have actually been turning out ok for me. i mean, i did have to stay in the library after the tests due to the lack on friends at school but aside from that, i’m fine.

i figured, i’m ok with everything for real. if i don’t hear from him, aww.. ok rapud. just make sure i don’t hear from him in a very long time.

no more choices for me. santa knows what i want this christmas. make it good, mister. common, i know you want to šŸ˜‰

i can’t wait to go xmas shopping for my outfit on friday. i want a pretty dress and i’m not taking skirts as an option right now. yes, thank you šŸ™‚

mom’s home. now i’m not in the ranting mood. she just reminded me of how miserble i am at home.

argh, matey!

can i STAB you?

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i miss him soo much.
i miss the happy girl i was when i talked about him.
i miss the girl who loved the sun
and thought that God sent the rain to help the flowers grow.
i miss his voice and actually being in his arms.
i miss having him on playback  in my head all day.
i miss his smile and the thought thati could be the reason behind it.
i miss who i was with him.
i miss being in love.
or thinking that i was.

the phone’s ringing again. ever since i got up, that fucked up piece of shit hasn’t shut the fuck up and it’s killing me.

i am very much annoyed by the fact that the calls are never for me, they’re for the maid, and that i have to get up from my chair, in my room, just to pick up the phone for her. i think there are reasons why we have social divisions. i’m being a bitch, i know. but these are my thoughts and let me sulk in them. and ohh, yeah. one thing about the phone calls. they were his thing. and for a few days now… i haven’t seen him around.

school as usual has been nothing but cruel to me. thank God, i had jet to sit around with and talk about RYPIT moments and crush moments with. if it weren’t for him, i know for a fact that i would’ve been sitting in my chair pretending to write meaningful letters for my THE project and getting fat on my chocolate bar and candy that i brought. if i discontinue the want to turn anorexic or bollimic, i think i’l just turn diabetic. i think the thought of injecting myself everyday feels nice to me. HAHA. my god, i’m kidding. lmao.

btw, thank you, jet. thanks for helping me get through this.

i have bad PMS again. i have the need to destroy everything i’m humanly able to. relationships, things, people. hopefully not christmas. i know what can make me better though- it’s just something i can’t have right now.

i hate the wrinkles i’m giving myself

FUCK THAT TELEPHONE! IT’S RINGING AGAIN!!

So
anyways, when I got home last night I got to thinking. Yes, I actually
do this sometimes. I thought about relationships. My past relationships
and hopefully my future relationships. I haven’t actually had an ACTUAL
relationship or anything that I can call love. Afterall, love is only a feeling. Well
except for that time that I thought i was in love. I think that was
just a mere figment of my imagination. Haha. Something ALWAYS managed
to get in the way of my happiness. Tsk tsk. Why does it always happen?
Boys never fail to break my heart. Or was it the other way around? Haha
I’m kidding. I just want a guy that will call me up at random times
during the day to tell me he misses me. Or randomly surprises me in the
middle of the day because I miss him. A guy that won’t rush into things
and most importantly a guy that won’t play around with my heart. Are
guys like this totally obsolete from the world?


http://bellaluna56.blogspot.com/ <– layla’s blog

hey lay, i stole this from your blog cuz i love it.

last night, i wrote to santa clause. i told him everything i wanted for next year. who i wanted to become, what kind of person i wanna be with and a certain event in my life that i want to happen. I STILL BELIEVE IN SANTA CLAUSE and yes, i’m on the good list this year, as always, thankyouverymuch

i have Chemistry and Computer tests tom. i doubt that i can sleep late again though. lately i’ve been getting those, “WHY ARE YOU SOO THIN AND DEAD LOOKING NOW?! UNSA KA, WAI KATULOG?!” sermons every morning and i’m tired of hearing them. it’s not true. i don’t have problems.i get extremely bored and create them. lmao.

the back of my thighs itch. i think i’ll go scratch them with a blade. lol.

serisously, i’m over that.

issa, the IGUANNA