anniversaries and nachos

so i guess today was supposed to be our 2 year anniversary but it’s not anymore cuz we’re not even together.
i guess life’s really temporary like that, you know? one day you have everything and the next it feels like you have nothing at all. but i don’t feel like i lost everything, you know? i kinda feel like i gained much more.

and even if i’m sad cuz we’re not even together on the biggest days of our relationship, i guess i’m happy cuz it’s over and i have so much more to look forward to this time. i hope next time will be better šŸ™‚

school now. byeee

2:30 curfews

lately my life has been generally good. like there’s school- i’m busy with that and then friends and yeah, that’s basically it.
i guess now i’m still trying to make up for what i lost and it feels nice not being tied down to anybody right now. but you know, you always want what you don’t have. šŸ™‚

i don’t feel like blogging much right now so i’ll proli get into the details next time i blog. besides, there’s not much to elaborate man sad.

i’ve been hanging out with this one guy lately and it’s been good and fun and everything it is when a friendship starts out. it feels nice to be giddy again šŸ™‚

king texted me and amiel admitted he liked me. like i didn’t see that coming. so now i’m going to stop talking to him. šŸ˜€
and life right no w is good and i want to sleep

i’ve heard of your kind…

i heard it’s always good in the beginning and that you’ll be something wonderful, something i’d want to keep and something i would fight for. i heard that you were someone who’d take care of me and treat me good.

i heard that i’d regret you. but i’m not the kind who regrets so let’s ride this boat.

went to barracks today. so hardcore.

details laterrrr. ā¤

I had gratuitous sex with a baseball bat Because I was high.

I AM SO AWESOME!!

Pick the month (number) you were born on:

1 I choked on
2 I punched
3 I smacked
4 I sang to
5 I gave my number to
6 I tweeted
7 I farted on
8 I gave a lap dance to
9 I fell in love with
10 I had gratuitous sex with
11 I Googled
12 I gave eProps to

Pick the day you were born on:

1 Akon
2 your mom
3 a banana
4 an iPhone
5 a cat
6 my neighbor
7 a ninja
8 a bottled of Jack Daniels
9 my brother
10 a baby
11 my dog
12 a pickle
13 the computer
14 a football player
15 Mike Jones
16 myself
17 my best friends boyfriend
18 a tree
19 my dad
20 a stuffed animal
21 a permanent marker
22 a slut
23 a condom
24 my psychologist
25 a policeman
26 a gangbanger
27 my cousin
28 a baseball bat
29 a DVD player
30 a corndog
31 my cell phone

Pick the color of the shirt you are wearing:

White: Because I was high.
Black: Because I was drunk.
Pink: Because I’m not homosexual.
Red: Because the voices told me to.
Blue: Because I’m too sexy for this shirt.
Green: Because someone offered me 1,000,000 dollars in Monopoly money.
Purple: Because I’m naked.
Gray: Because that’s how I roll.
Yellow: Because of the a-a-a-a-alcohol.
Orange: Because I hate my family.
Teal: Because I’m in love with a stripper
Other: Because that’s how I roll.

Now pass it along!

school, coffee and school

lately it’s just been about school. i have only 3 classes but i’m beat as hell. i feel like biochemistry is killing me and it’s just been rough cuz i feel like no matter how hard i try, i do better when i don’t even care. haha.

i’m leader for this project for CL at school and i’m pretty hyped about it cuz i get to help people and i guess it’s KINDA godly so at least i get to do something good after all the bad things i’ve been getting myself into. hehe.

ii have a major reason to smile this week. šŸ™‚ last night i had coffee with this guy, Justin, we’ve been texting and talking for like a week and as much as i hate senarios like this i just said wtf and met up with him. besides it wasn’t completely awkward cuz we both know the same people.. we just never ran into each other until a few days ago. tsss. i’m not even going to defend myself cuz i had fun. haha. it’s just nice meeting people and you know, talking and having a good time. hehe.

i think  this week is tiring but good at the same time cuz i got my original allowance back! šŸ˜€

i’m gonna go now. just thought i’d drop by for a while.

hugs!

saturday night

i bet everyone’s out but i’m staying in tonight. i lack sleep and i’m oh so tired. diana came over and i usually just let her to whatever the fuck she wants and i just sleep and shit. haha.

had pizza with kevin and diana earlier. and i drove from my school to yellow cab. I HAD SOO MUCH FUN. and kevin is such a freak. uhhhh. haha. i wanna do that again.

i also learned waray. it’s so much better than english šŸ˜€

i’ll be home tonight sleeping and menstrating. which is also why i don’t wanna leave the house.

i love you all.

steaks and beef yakinikus <3

guess who just reached 80 pounds? I DID! I DID!! just like my plan. so now that i’ve gained some of my weight back, i’m gonna start maintaining it. šŸ˜€ i feel like i won a million bucks cuz it’s taken me a long time to actually start gaining my weight again.

anyways, i don’t even know why i’m rambling on about this. wa lang.

school has been exhausting. i have a full schedule from 9 – 4:30 and on tuesdays and thursdays i get off at 6:30. it pretty much sucks but i guess i’m fine with it rather than just staying home all day doing nothing or going out and getting wasted. right?

i’m soo looking forward to this weekend cuz i have plans

Friday: Kating’s party
– Theme: Never Never Land
i’m going as tinkerbell and i know i’m gonna have so much fun. i doubt there’ll be booze too so i won’t get drunk. i’ll just have good clean fun. so excited for that!

Saturday: School
😦

Saturday: Yumi’s party
– Theme: Black and white
i don’t even know what i’m wearing to this. i hope Kim’ll be there though šŸ˜€

happy fucking easter, bitch!

i’m blogging in the office right now. i’m not allowed to but since my parent’s left me at home with the kids after PROMISING to bring me with them to watch a movie, i don’t really care.

i had a good holy week if i sum it all up. excluding today.

i spent most of it at asturyas with my family and yesterday, i hung out with josh at ayala and a few of his friends who are now my friends šŸ˜€

today is easter sunday and not to mention- James birthday today. i know it’s his birthday and everything but i didn’t botther greeting him. if you want to know why… it’s just because, i don’t want to. and i don’t see the need to. šŸ˜€

i have school tomorrow. i’d rather die.

25 things about me

1. i could most probably be the one of the dumbest people you know. and i’d proli be on the top of that list. here’s an example: one day, i was sitting with my papa and i suddenly said “if you throw hot water on a fire, will it still burn out?”
my mom claims that my brother has formulated more sensible questions. hahaha.

2. i play super paper mario. i play it so much to the point where it’s not even funny anymore. i play it to an extent where i actually start to develop feelings for the characters. i think mario is AMAZING and he has mad skills, i think luigi is gay, i think i’m more appealing compared to princess peach and i feel bad when i have to kill enemies but i find it insanely rewarding when i get to kill the main enemies like bowser šŸ˜€

3. i have a hard time spelling. especially when it comes to like double letters. hehe. like let’s say.. opening. this is how i spell it: openning. šŸ˜€

4. i’ve only had one boyfriend in my whole life and the only thing i can say after that relationship is that my standards now are nothing compared to what i would settle for before. hehe.

5. i have the tendency to want to run away from my problems. If i could leave cebu just because i wanted to, i would and i proli wouldn’t have regretted it either. if you’ve seen The Perfect Man I’d proli be like Heather Locklear except not THAT bad.

6. i honestly do think that Cebu is too small for me. Dreams don’t come true in here and it’s suffocating. I never wanted to move back here and I’ve constantly wanted to move back to the States. When i finally do get to do that, I proli won’t want to come back either.

7. i claim to be a loner but Kevin says i’m anti-social. and i hate to admit it but he’s right. If anyone would live on a deserted island, that would be ME. well, there’d have to be maid and a mall. and things to actually do. haha. nevermind, i couldn’t live on a deserted island. HAHA.

8. i’ve planned my whole life already. I will go to school, graduate, take my board exam, NCLEX and move to the states. After this i will find a job at a hospital for children with cancer while going to school. and maybe i’ll take a break from being a nurse and try to pursue my dream of being a fashion designer and if all else fails, i could always go back to being a nurse. basta dapat, before i settle down, i would’ve established a good and promising career, i’ve traveled a bit on my own, i’ve gone on a cruise and naka puyo nako on my own. impossible as it may sound.

9. i don’t like it when my food touch each other. if such occassion arises, i would end up loosing my appetite just because i don’t like how my food looks like. šŸ˜€ i am also a very picky eater. i don’t like food that has an odd smell and if it looks ugly and dull, i proli won’t eat it either. also, i could eat hamburgers, fries, japanese and pizza every single day of my life if i could. and candy. i’m inlove with candy.

10. my biological father and his wife and kids are coming to Cebu after 12 years. and although i’ve anticipated this moment since godknowswhen, i am also very as in icouldshitinmypantsoutofth

eroof kind of scared. mainly because these people are strangers who have the benefit of being my family. nevertheless, they are still strangers.

11. My daily routine of make up application consists of foundation, concealer [if needed], liquid eyeliner, mascara, blush and bronzer. i also draw on my eyebrows if i have to. if i go to a party, it’s fancier. i get tips on youtube. yes, i depend on youtube for everything.

12. i probably don’t have to say this but i figured i would confirm your conceptions of me. i’m a dork and a loser. but you still love me. and this blog has just doubled my cuteness factor by a gajillion points. am i right? or am i? haha

13. although i am against smoking, i always had this picture in my head that i could grow up being a smoker. i guess i could always imagine myself coming home from work and lighting a cigarette. but then again, i doubt i would ever. i think i just got the idea from watching too many movies. which leads to my 14th fact….

14. i have the tendency to think that my life is a movie. i guess it’s cuz i always have this feeling that someone’s watching me. and idk, llife on the movies are always so much better. often times when me and my ex boyfriend would get into arguments, i would say something “movie-like” and he would always throw me off by saying the wrong thing and i’d end up laying in bed at night and think “wtf” because i couldn’t figure out why i never got that perfect scene in the movies. btw, i’m also crazy.

15. i do not regret what i don’t have or what i lost or what i let go of. i don’t regret anything i’ve done, i don’t regret anything i haven’t done and most of all i don’t regret letting go of one year and nine months. because i would be a terrible mess right now if i still held on. i’m a mess now but at least i’m rising up from the ashes. i’ll be YOUR beautiful disaster. ;] LOL

16. i have tons and tons of notebooks that go from way back. these notebooks are filled with poems, diary entries, songs, drawings and etc. that i’ve written proli since i was in the 3rd grade. from grade 3 to grade 5, i wrote about how i hated my mom for making me do chores. when i got to grade 5 i started to talk about boys and how i had to hide them from my mom [hehe] and how i hated life and how hard things were with my friends and my dad and stuff like that. i grew up very bitter. i don’t even understand why sometimes. haha.

17. the best moment of my entire life was on my 18th birthday when i got to dance with my papa. i
belong in his arms and he’s the best thing that has ever happened to me. i would be the luckiest girl in the world if i could end up with someone even half like him. he really is every girls dream man.

18. i’ve said this million times, i could live in a bookstore and die happy. i love art supplies because their colorful and plus some are glittery. i also like paperclips and pushpins. and i like paper. i often have the urge to buy a notebook just because i feel like it. they all turn into journals or something of the like.

19. i like it when i sound smart. maybe because i do believe am smart despite the fact that he called me stupid every single day.

20. i have A.D.D. or i think i do. hahaha. i have a short attention span which means i bore easily. if i get tired of texting, i won’t reply to you for no good reason. and when i’m bored again, i’ll proli decide to reply. even if it’s the day after. haha.

21. Sometimes i don’t like to take baths. šŸ˜€ but i do if i have to. like if i go out. this is why sometimes my mom urges me to get out of the house. so i’m forced to take a bath šŸ˜€

22. i secretly want to be an actress. i always have. sometimes i suddenly break into scene. haha. it’s usually the scene from A Cinderella Story. “But i can’t wait for him anymore. Cuz waiting for you is like waiting for rain in this drought. Useless and disappointing.” hehe

23. i can watch friends everyday of my life and love every single piece of it.

24. i get along with boys more than girls. it’s always been that way. girls are a hassle, we have too many issues. issues i’m not always willing to deal with. unlike boys, you actually appreciate it when they fess up. and because you don’t have conversations like this with girls…
kevin: what happens when you run out of food?
issadog_102890: you… don’t eat?
kevin: in your submarine bah
kevin:
kevin: no, it wasnt a stupid question
issadog_102890:
issadog_102890: yeah, it was!
kevin: noooo
kevin: its stupid to live in a submarine!!
kevin: youll die and shit cuz theres no fooooood
kevin:
kevin: unless you go fishing…
issadog_102890: but you’ll sink, dummy!
issadog_102890: or drown.
issadog_102890: wait, sink and drown are the same right?
kevin: no
kevin: i sink in water, but i wont drown
kevin: cuz i can go back up
kevin: why would you sink anywayyy? a submarine floats!
issadog_102890: becuase you’ll fish!
issadog_102890: you’ll have to open the submarine door and water will come in!
kevin: be on the surface of the water when you fish!
kevin: duhhhh!
issadog_102890: hahahahah.
issadog_102890: oh yeah.
kevin: HAHAHAHAHAHA
issadog_102890: i forgot that you could pass sa taas
issadog_102890: FU!!
kevin: you can ONLY pass from the top!!
kevin: i love the way you think iss

25. i secretly envy miley cyrus. baaaah.