A Tribute To All Of You

Posted on March 14, 2009 by issaplease

by Jean Louise Perez

– cige pili lang mu ung kinsa mu ani. libre ra bitaw. hahaha.

This is for the girls who loved too much and got nothing in return. This is for all the tears we cried and all the nights we stayed up trying to figure out what it is we were fighting for. This is for every time we ever let a guy treat us less than we were and get away with it. This is for everything we ever did hoping his happiness would become OUR happiness even though we knew it never really would – and this is for us who stayed anyways hoping one day he’d wake up and decide that he’d love us, that he’d treat us better, that he’d do what he said and actually love us.
This is for the nights we spent crying, wondering what it is we did wrong. I guess there’s really nothing to say or do anymore- I gave you love, love you just didn’t want and what else can I do? I’m never going to love the way I loved you again and I’m never going to let anyone hurt me the way you did. Well in the end, at least I leave this chapter with lessons learned- You were never really worth it. And if you were, I wouldn’t be writing this out to you.

This is for the boys who take what they can and leave us with nothing in return. Were we not enough for you? This is for making us believe in magic even for so shortest time. This is for every time you watched us cry and never did anything about it. This is for you.
I hope you hurt like hell one night soon, while your laying in your bed all alone because your ‘new girl’ wasn’t all you thought she was. I hope your thinking of me, and all that you gave up then you pushed me away. Like I’d never meant anything to you at all. I hope you realize your mistake. I’ve given you all that I’m ever gonna let you take. If you want anything more from me, you can just forget about it.

This is for the girls who forgot how lucky they really were until he was gone. This is for every time we put him on the bottom of our list because we knew he would still be there when we got back. This is for the time we screamed at him, the time we kicked him, punched him and that time we told him we wished he would just drop dead- we really didn’t mean it. This is for that time we threw away the roses he gave us on valentines day because we didn’t think they were good enough- i wish i could just take it all back and hug you and thank you because i never got to. in fact, i never got to thank you for anything.

This is for the boys who waited around for us. This is for the boys who put up with all our shit- the whinning, the crying, the dramafests. This is for that time you stayed up until 3 am to make our anniversary gift and for that time you saw me throw it to the side of my room right after getting it. This is for the times that we never got to tell you how much you meant to us and for the times we never even told you how much we love you. If I could take it all back, I would. But all we have now are memories and yet neither they could ever bring you back. And how do you let go of the best thing that’s ever happened to you?
Because no one will be as perfect you are- and I just lost my shot.
I remember you telling me to move on and get on with my life. You said that there were lots of fish in the ocean. But i’ve dipped my feet into it, I’ve dived and even drowned myself in it but I’ve still found nothing in it for me. It will always be you.

I’m sitting here and I realize that most of us want to belong to someone. 😦

and me, i’m still in the same position i’ve been in not because of him anymore. it’s not him who’s holding me back from moving on. it’s the absence of that one guy who can make me laugh and cry and shout that’s the problem.

– CIGE HILAK NAMO. BOWWW.

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Posted on March 14, 2009 by issaplease

it’s not james anymore. it’s not james who’s holding me back from moving on. it’s the absence of that one guy who can make me laugh and cry and shout that’s the problem.

i’m testing the waters. but there’s nothing in it.

Its so frustrating because I broke up with him
Cause I was sad of crying everyday
Like I didn’t want to cry anymore
And then I was crying cause I was fighting
And now im crying because he’s not here to make me stop
He was like my best friend
Its like losing your best friend
[The Hills]

I got used to living without you,
Endless phone calls and dreaming about you.
Always said that you were my ‘meant-to-be’
But I guess I was in love with your memory.
[In Another Life-The Veronicas]

You know I love you, I really do.
But I can’t fight, anymore for you.
I dont know, maybe we’ll be together again.
Sometime, in another life.
[In Another Life- The Veronicas]

Lying is bad, or so were told constantly
from birth; honesty is the best policy.
the truth shall set you free, i chopped
down the cherry tree, whatever. the fact
is lying is a neccesity. we lie to ourselves
because the truth, the truth freakin hurts.
no matter how hard we try to ignore or
deny it. eventually the lies fall away,
wheter we like it or not. but heres the truth
about the truth; it hurts, so we lie.
[Greys Anatomy]

I want you to know that I love you. I never did stop, not for one gasping second. My love for you is unconditional and it will never end as long as I live. I refuse to find others when I have the one I want. I never doubted us, but you did. I never stopped thinking about you, even though you stopped thinking about me. I never wanted to let go, but you did.

Look, i know this sucks for you and i want to be there
for you, i do, but i can’t do this anymore.
i can’t keepbbeing your second choice, not when you’re my first.

Don’t worry. You may think you’ll ‘never’ get over it, but you also thought it would last ‘forever’.

I think I’ll love you forever. But I think, maybe, that’s the problem.

See that any time you feel pained or defeated,
it is only because you insist on clinging to what
doesn’t work. Dare to let go and you won’t
lose a thing except for a punishing idea.

You know, the only thing that scares me
is that you might love her more than you love me.
[Pearl Harbour]

“What I wanted? I wanted you to fight for me. I wanted you to tell me there was nobody else you could ever be with and that you’d rather be alone than without me”
[One Tree Hill]

If it didn’t work the first time, it’ll definitely not work the second time. There’s a reason for every break up. Your just wasting your time on someone you’ll never work it out with cause in the end you’ll find who your really supposed to be with, but you can’t do that until you move on.

I hope you hurt like hell one night soon, while your laying in your bed all alone because your ‘new girl’ wasn’t all you thought she was. I hope your thinking of me, and all that you gave up then you pushed me away. Like I’d never meant anything to you at all. I hope you realize your mistake. I’ve given you all that I’m ever gonna let you take. If you want anything more from me, you can just forget about it

When you love someone,
you don’t want to hurt them,
even if they deserve to be hurt.

On the phone a year later, he asked her if she missed him. Her reply was “I don’t miss you. I miss the guy who called me every second he could, who sat at home on Saturday nights when we couldn’t be together thinking of me. the guy who knew how to say sorry, the guy who came to my house after every fight, the guy who told me I looked like a rose, that’s the guy I miss, well how could I miss you? I don’t even know you.”

The hardest part is waking up in the morning remembering
what you had been trying so hard to forget last night.

I tried so hard to save you, but eventually, I had to let go and let you save yourself. Not because I didn’t love you, but because I loved you too much.

So I’m going to let you go now,
Knowing you won’t chase me.
But in 5 years when your ready for this,
Stay the hell away from me.
I want you now, not later.

My problem isn’t that I miss you, cause I don’t.
My problem isn’t that I kissed you.
I figured out that you’re nothing that I thought you’re about.
You’re just caught in a place in which time will erase in my heart.