he said he only wanted to be with a smart girl, one who uses her head, one who doesn’t mess everything up. he said he wanted to be with a girl AND live the life he used to live. which means, he wants to screw around and he’ll get to me when he wants to. i’ve become a conviniency [i think i just made this word up] to him. and the sad thing about all of this is that i let him get away with me not being a priority to him when he’s the only thing i make sure of in my life.
how is it possible to feel like this?
i blame myself for all of this.
well, i’m changing for him in hopes that if and when i do, things’ll be better, that it won’t hurt anymore, that i won’t be blogging in the computer lab with a tight throat cuz my tears want so bad to roll down my cheeks.
why is it that the harder i try, the harder i get slapped in the face?
god, you know the only thing i want is just to be happy. why does this feel so impossible?
i thought if we do good things, good things happen to us.
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i thought if we do good things, good things happen to us.i thought if we do good things, good things happen to us.i thought if we do good things, good things happen to us.i thought if we do good things, good things happen to us.i thought so too, but maybe i havent been as good as i thought i was. i need you too.
i thought if we do good things, good things happen to us.i thought if we do good things, good things happen to us.i thought if we do good things, good things happen to us.i thought if we do good things, good things happen to us.i thought so too, but maybe i havent been as good as i thought i was. i need you too.