but god, i didn’t do it because i wanted to get away from him or because i don’t want him in my life anymore cuz i do. right now, it’s like my whole world just stopped and idk what to do or what i’m supposed to do.

i bought my first pack of cigarettes but i didn’t smoke it cuz i was scared that if i did, james wouldn’t get back with me but that’s stupid now because if he were going to, he would’ve done it before. but he hasn’t. and now we’re both single. he’s happy, i’m not. and that’s not really how i pictured things when i ended it with him.

i just thought that if we broke up, both of us would be miserable. both of us would be crying our eyes out day in day out. but why am u the only one who’s crying?

why doesn’t he wanna get back together?

why isn’t he sure anymore?

i love him, i do. and i want to be with him and this time i want it to work. but why isn’t it anymore?

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