idk, it’s just been assignment after another. and it’s so crazy cuz some of the books that we’re required to buy aren’t even available at our book store so you can imagine the stuff i have to go through just to get the books or to get the selections of our homework that are in the books that i have yet to buy.

i wish i was in high school. it was so much easier back then.

i was looking at pictures on my multiply a while ago [issaplease.multiply.com] and i came across a picture of me in high school with my knee high socks and idk, i know that i don’t miss it but i can’t help but reminise. [sp?]

i’ve been studying the whole day and yesterday. and then tomorrow i have to wake up and do it all over again.

i think i just don’t see the beauty of all the hard work is cuz i don’t have passion for it. i think it’s true when they say that everything is just better when you love what you’re doing. but i don’t love what i’m doing. that’s the problem. but i am just being numb about the whole thing. deal with what they give you and just strive for it.

it’s all about the money at this point. forget being happy, forget everything that is supposed to matter. it doesn’t matter anymore because this was never my choice. oh well. another big *siiigh*

i got grounded yesterday for going home at around 12 riding a cab. but i didn’t actually ride a cab. i rode with james. but my parent don’t know that.

i had dinner with my friends and drank a bacardi with james. i got hit and thank god i did because it made whatever my mom said sound funny.

i stopped by james’s house to have a good talk with him. last night was perfect. so fuck whatever my mom said. i don’t know.

whether she likes it or not, i had fun. that’s all that matters now.

xoxo,
girl on the verge of insanity.