as unholy as my last 3 days of “holy” week have been, i think this is the best holy week that i can remember. lmao. it’s been fabulous.

a sea whore

haha. i’m soo weird. i actually got that from evesdropping on people. i heard them say “sea horse” and yeah, my mind. it was soo cute that day too, cuz my papa was baking practically the whole morning. lol. see, apparently, everyone in my family wants to have my chocolate color so, they all sat under the scourging sun for at least a good 2 hours and hoped that they’d turn chocolate too. but, haha. wala gyud. too bad for them. and yeah, i got bored after a while from te ocean so, i too sat on that bench, under the sun and prayed that i’d get a sun burn. hey, at least now i’m black cuz of the beach not from tennis. i also got to go on an adventure note: i love adventures now too! lmao. well, i consider going back an forth from tambuli east to tambuli west and cebu beach club an adventure. sue me. 😛

got to scam on some eye candies too. they looked like hearters who’re now i college, though. lmao. i bet they were. messing. like i have time for boys. i have to focus on my tennis career, i couldn’t possibly have  boyfriend!! – confessions of a teenage drama queen named issa, not lola

good friday

yes! this friday was a good one. it wasn’t just good, too. it was wacky, wild and crazy. well, all those mean the same thing but, i’m just “stretching” my point. haha. so we woke up at like 8 in the morning, took a bath, got dressed and ready to go to moal boal. it’s absolutely gorgeous there. i wanna go back. it took us apporoximately 3 hours to get there are another twp hours to walk around every beach resort there and ask if they had available rooms. uhm, excuse me crazy parent’s, it’s holy week, everything’s booked just in case you didn’t aready know that!  and for a split second, we almost thought of camping out. which wwould’ve been cool but no. 

top three, “aha kuno mi matug” places

+ 800 php bahay kubo that was madd tiny
+ 200 php na room nga murag bahay ni lola

i think that about does it. haha.

i was able to snorkle and get darker. lol. i met shaldon,  nichole mella and the aldeguers/ garcia’s. it was soo fun. the grand parent’s came too. it took they a good 5 hours to get there though. crazy old people taking tge long way. THAT’S THE WAY TO GOO fine seniors. i loved it soo much. and the way home. well.. i was thinking of something . stuff, really.

black saturday

now i know why they call it that! cuz everyone’s practically black on this day. well, for those who celebrate it. sorry, americans. we get tans. you get school. i’m a bitch. but this other bitch bitch bitch said she din’t wanna talk to me cuz im chinky? what?! basically cuz m pinoy. lmao. like, i choose to be pinoy. BITCH BITCH BITCH. but i won’t fight back, im not a racist. i’m not mean!! so, anyways. i’m home. people are in danao. i didn’t want to go. so, yeah.

people ringing my phone . what’s the deal? lol

ixxa prezz
-be holy, bitches-

as unholy as my last 3 days of “holy” week have been, i think this is the best holy week that i can remember. lmao. it’s been fabulous.

a sea whore

haha. i’m soo weird. i actually got that from evesdropping on people. i heard them say “sea horse” and yeah, my mind. it was soo cute that day too, cuz my papa was baking practically the whole morning. lol. see, apparently, everyone in my family wants to have my chocolate color so, they all sat under the scourging sun for at least a good 2 hours and hoped that they’d turn chocolate too. but, haha. wala gyud. too bad for them. and yeah, i got bored after a while from te ocean so, i too sat on that bench, under the sun and prayed that i’d get a sun burn. hey, at least now i’m black cuz of the beach not from tennis. i also got to go on an adventure note: i love adventures now too! lmao. well, i consider going back an forth from tambuli east to tambuli west and cebu beach club an adventure. sue me. 😛

got to scam on some eye candies too. they looked like hearters who’re now i college, though. lmao. i bet they were. messing. like i have time for boys. i have to focus on my tennis career, i couldn’t possibly have  boyfriend!! – confessions of a teenage drama queen named issa, not lola

good friday

yes! this friday was a good one. it wasn’t just good, too. it was wacky, wild and crazy. well, all those mean the same thing but, i’m just “stretching” my point. haha. so we woke up at like 8 in the morning, took a bath, got dressed and ready to go to moal boal. it’s absolutely gorgeous there. i wanna go back. it took us apporoximately 3 hours to get there are another twp hours to walk around every beach resort there and ask if they had available rooms. uhm, excuse me crazy parent’s, it’s holy week, everything’s booked just in case you didn’t aready know that!  and for a split second, we almost thought of camping out. which wwould’ve been cool but no. 

top three, “aha kuno mi matug” places

+ 800 php bahay kubo that was madd tiny
+ 200 php na room nga murag bahay ni lola

i think that about does it. haha.

i was able to snorkle and get darker. lol. i met shaldon,  nichole mella and the aldeguers/ garcia’s. it was soo fun. the grand parent’s came too. it took they a good 5 hours to get there though. crazy old people taking tge long way. THAT’S THE WAY TO GOO fine seniors. i loved it soo much. and the way home. well.. i was thinking of something . stuff, really.

black saturday

now i know why they call it that! cuz everyone’s practically black on this day. well, for those who celebrate it. sorry, americans. we get tans. you get school. i’m a bitch. but this other bitch bitch bitch said she din’t wanna talk to me cuz im chinky? what?! basically cuz m pinoy. lmao. like, i choose to be pinoy. BITCH BITCH BITCH. but i won’t fight back, im not a racist. i’m not mean!! so, anyways. i’m home. people are in danao. i didn’t want to go. so, yeah.

people ringing my phone . what’s the deal? lol

ixxa prezz
-be holy, bitches-

oie tep. what’s the meanning? lmao.

update later with nasty pictures. 🙂

i don’t wanna
be your whole world. i just
want to be a tiny city. Somewhere… anywhere on

your map.

for some friggin reason, i’m obsessed with the song, shoot me.

i’m being bridesmaid for this woman’s wedding and i have to sing too. i need ideas. holy week’s coming up and i have no idea on what we’ll be doing. porbably be holy, since that is the way to go.

and if you’re wondering about the layouts, first new york now, paris. well, figuring that i’ll never have the chance to go there and if i do.. i won’t be a teenager and be able to enjoy it as much,i’d might as well enjoy it in my own little world. btw, carlo garcia says i’m strange. haha. complement much? i’m just to cool for him to handle.

i had tennis this morning. i sucked. i didn’t put much muscle into playing today though. it’s a monday, sue me. lmao. as if  THAT was an excuse. i’m going to be heading off to guitar lessons in a few. i’m learning papa don’t preach. don’t even ask me if i’m getting tired of it or if i will soon. i’ve been listening to this song for years but since i’ve had dsl and my ipod, it’s soo much easier for me to go crazy over it now.. and tell it to the world!

well, i’ll blog later. i still need help getting informed on how to add picture. mainly about getting the html address and such. lmao.

ok, bye

it’s a saturday and i woke up at about 1:30 pm.

this week has been something. hahai. what did i get myself into? lmao.

anyways, i might train in the evening.. if i don’t fall asleep again 😛

anyways, nothing much to rant about. tennis has been fun and guitar has been fair. swimming has been torture and yeah, this cough isnt getting better.

i love the summer :p

haha. pms, go figure

haha. pms, go figure

pisti. lechugas. atay. bitch. shit. fuck. rr. i need to wash my mouth with soap now.

but seriously… what’s wrong with me!?!?

i had to be in bed early last night.. it was around twelve and my papa made me wrap things up right after pinoy big brother was over. FYI: i stopped watching that show after budoy was kicked off the show.and before that, i never really watched it religiously. i’m just defending myself. haha. anyways, at least i got to add the pictures of me camwhoring at the office with the arm thinggies to my profile. haha. i’m weird. but people some are weirder. i have a fall back.

so anyways, the show was over and all the plugs were unplugged, switches switched off and i was on top of my bed, lying down, close to lifeless trying to find a decent reason to fall asleep. for some reason, church just wasn’t good enough. sometimes, i think i’m turning atheist. but i like to believe that i’m being tested. one night, while i was praying, i just concluded that i didn’t need a reason for me to know that he’s real. sure, mabe Jesus was just a prophet but he did miracles, right? and hey, if someone could die for my sins… i’d worship him, hands down. but about the frequent doubts, i guess it’s just cause nowadays, not much people believe in him and.. i unno, maybe i just don’t wanna look stupid by saying, “i love god.” but the truth is, i DO love God.
          I LOVE GOD

i know some people might be laughing at me right now or think that i’m pathetic. i honestly don’t think there’s anything wrong with it though.i mean, i’m not a bad person [or at least i think i’m not] and yeah, i’m happy even though i’m still going through shit. [continuation later…]

moving on…i had a lot of time to think last night [ i call it insomnia] and it’ll make me feel good if i just let it all out. so, here i am, doing just that.
                                                           i think i cried for yoiu last night

honestly, i don’t like talking about this cuz it’s far from over. kath thinks i’m desperate and i know pathetic comes along with that so, yeah,. it doesn’t do much for me mentally but.. i can’t stop thinking about it. but anyways, yeah, last night, i started thinking about e***** [let’s not publicize it]. god, i know! it’s been soo many years but i still feel soo bad. i kept having flashbacks of what happened, the first time i saw him, sinulog, that fight, those talks on the phone and all those times i kept remebering him and ended up feeling shitty.

it’s such a stupid fantasy but there was a point in my pathetic life when i came to the conclusion that i wanted to marry him. seee..i’m going crazy. i need a heartbreak.

shit. i feel so lame now. but, i don’t knooow.i just wish i could have another chance at this thing that happened so long ago. i wish that i never met guys after him so he could know that.. i’ve been saving myself.

no. i wish that the internet dies and no one reads this.

i swear, i’m having chest pains agains! mitral valve prolapse. pffft.

sorry, people. i’m not emo on guys. just today, i promise. afterall, our first cuts ARE the deepest.

anyways, aside from thinking of him, i thought about my dad. i miss him. i don’t know why. i’m not ready to make up and be friends and forget everything cuz i unno.. i don’t think i’m ready for it is all.

i know that we will be aiight, eventually. i’m like that.. one day, i’ll just feel shitty and say i’m sorry. maybe i don’t hate him that much when i think about it. maybe, i’m just upset that he doesn’t show that he loves me. maybe… i’m going crazy.. i am. i am. i am.

and then, at church earlier… fuck gyud. fuck. our discussion was about problems. DING DING DING
teacher someone said that problems always bring something greater. “honestly…” i thought at that sentence, “what could i possibly get out of this? a great friendship? like i want that. wait… maybe i do. i don’t know. i don’t  know what kind of person he his. i just know that he hurt me too much and i’m crying again.

i don’t know what i want anymore!!!!

anyways, i’m done with this.

i have 3 big piles of clothes in onmy floor that i need to fix but i’ll reconsider.

* i read this blog from a friend of gerlie’s that wrote, “i talk to much”… uhm..

i do too