Thought of the day:

“I think I just captured happiness”

Yeah, I think did. Ü Well, today was aryt. The mornings are like, the only interesting parts of my days. I go to san case and have fun… and more. ;p

Well, today was fun and awkward. I mean, it was weird cuz I brought a Barbie doll to our clinic today. [I know, I’m still asking myself the same thing with CAPITAL LETTERS, WHY??] Lmao. In the morning I was like the 3^rd one to get there. The first 2 were Vera and Jyl. We just did some random stuff and talked about random stuff too. Then Kit arrived so as usual, we played. Today’s a Monday and like. I wasn’t used to playing na. Amazing what two days off can do to you. ;p anyways, as usual we played our dome card game. At first I played this one person game that Vera taught me it was all good. Then, we played unggoy-unggoy. That was in court 5 though cuz Leigh, Nikki and Edgar were playing. Then, we went back to the canteen place where we played heart attack. It was my second time to play but this time, I lost. Ugh. And everyone had to “labtik” [I forgot what that is in English] me. Hahaiz. Thank god it didn’t hurt. It was all good in the morning.

I was supposed to go to mmch for my very early enrollment then, thank God we didn’t. chub was supposed to run away.. that was a problem. but then, they worked things out and chub ended up staying home the rest of the day.

Uhm, there’s nothing else to say right now so ima cut this thing short.

Peace.

APRIL, WHO KNOWS AND WHO CARES… IT’S SUMMER!

Today is Friday, the last day of the weekday, the last day of our clinic for the week and the last day to gather all the memories and hope I’ll forget them.

I went to san case extra early today cuz me and chub wanted to catch up on some major gossiping. Well, not really gossip but maybe just to talk. But I got there a lil bit earlier than chub did cuz she accidentally rode the wrong jeep. “Go chub! You can do it!” Lmao. When I got there, Vera and Jyl were already there talking, so I joined in and we had this conversation. I just don’t remember what it was about though. Haha. When chub got there I gave her my organizer, which I asked her to keep, but before I gave it to her I had to tear out some stuff [personals… you know na;] but when we got to the court Chub’s class was bout to start. Ugh. Reminiscing started to sound good pa dyud. Whatapak! I don’t know how it happened basta I ended up hanging out with Leigh. We just talked bout random stuff. It was fun… I’ll always remember that! :] Haha.

Cards are phat! Cheeky-cha! Tong- itz! Heart attack! Unggoy unggoy!

Everyone in the tennis click [not that I’m in it or anything] was going out to ayala after class I wanted to go to but then, I had to go to the beach for god knows why. So I couldn’t go nalang though, I really really wanted to! Hahaiz. Next week lagi!

So anyways, the morning was the only interesting part of my day. I spent the whole afternoon at the beach and there was nobody there pa dyud! What a drag! I just kept texting and texting. Joy!

Clark texted me. Go laugh yours heads off and start the gossiping it was bound to happen.

I have nothing else to say. I’m too upset and stuff.

Aa_bebe_phat_aA

Mixed up inside and doesn’t know what to do. I wish that you would hold me and ask me to be with you. :’ [

It’s not what you’re thinking.

APRIL, WHO KNOWS AND WHO CARES… IT’S SUMMER!

Today is Friday, the last day of the weekday, the last day of our clinic for the week and the last day to gather all the memories and hope I’ll forget them.

I went to san case extra early today cuz me and chub wanted to catch up on some major gossiping. Well, not really gossip but maybe just to talk. But I got there a lil bit earlier than chub did cuz she accidentally rode the wrong jeep. “Go chub! You can do it!” Lmao. When I got there, Vera and Jyl were already there talking, so I joined in and we had this conversation. I just don’t remember what it was about though. Haha. When chub got there I gave her my organizer, which I asked her to keep, but before I gave it to her I had to tear out some stuff [personals… you know na;] but when we got to the court Chub’s class was bout to start. Ugh. Reminiscing started to sound good pa dyud. Whatapak! I don’t know how it happened basta I ended up hanging out with Leigh. We just talked bout random stuff. It was fun… I’ll always remember that! :] Haha.

Cards are phat! Cheeky-cha! Tong- itz! Heart attack! Unggoy unggoy!

Everyone in the tennis click [not that I’m in it or anything] was going out to ayala after class I wanted to go to but then, I had to go to the beach for god knows why. So I couldn’t go nalang though, I really really wanted to! Hahaiz. Next week lagi!

So anyways, the morning was the only interesting part of my day. I spent the whole afternoon at the beach and there was nobody there pa dyud! What a drag! I just kept texting and texting. Joy!

Clark texted me. Go laugh yours heads off and start the gossiping it was bound to happen.

I have nothing else to say. I’m too upset and stuff.

Aa_bebe_phat_aA

Mixed up inside and doesn’t know what to do. I wish that you would hold me and ask me to be with you. :’ [

It’s not what you’re thinking.

[Highlight of the day]

                                                “Heart attack!!”

OoO, I’m in trouble and I have no one else to blame for it but myself!

I don’t know why I’m worrying so much, there was never a “thing” and I don’t think there ever will be, especially after what happened! What did I get myself into this time?

I know that I should just embrace the present and be ready for the future. And in line with that, I’ll be sure to be holding my racket when that day comes! I should just live in the moment that **stuff** happened. [Discretion is the key!] And that maybe ina couple of days or weeks or months I’ll here it from somebody else that my nightmare just came true. So I’m prepared.

Yeah, I’m still prayin that he’ll say the words that I will always remember till’ the day I die. And when he does say it, I won’t be dreamin anymore. :]

Omg. Everything is suddenly racing into my head and it’s making me sick to the stomach! I don’t know what to do or think anymore… all I know for sure is… because of today, I just might have ruined my chances and maybe, it’s not all my fault. If I had only told someone how I felt, all of this could be stopped. I’m sorry, there’s just no one trust worthy to tell.

today was the best.

i got my phone back, i went to yala, i slept, i talked to my teachers at school and stuff.

i had my hair cut for no good reason.

bought myself fake pearls since my mother refuses to lend me hers. ugh. LoL.

i didn’t do anythin’ great or extreme or whatevr today. kalma lang.

**i think that’s why i like today soo much.**

oh yea, me and martin are textin. iTz sUmMer aGain dYud.

OMg.                                    ¢¾Today.¢¾

Today was the best.

¢¼ Hold my hand and mean. Hold it and never let it go cuz I dont want you to.¢¼

I wish I was your awwie cuz I see you touchin and carin for it a whole lot.

But then again,  wish I had your awwie so you would take care of it for me.                                            

knock! knock! am i still invisible?

i just want you to know i’m here watchin you from a far hopin that when i turn around, you’re thinkin the same thing.

that was nice. and so are you.., just talking to you makes me different. can this be more than my ordinary… ¢Àcrush?

APRIL 13, 2005

Highlight of the day:

                                   “issa, dalawa, tatlo.”

And once again, I find myself sitting in front of the computer typing… typing. Typing down everything that has happened to me for the past days or the day, at the least.  Computers are so much safer than pieces of paper! And today, I learned it the hard way! As you all know, my ever-dearest mother and me aren’t in the best of terms. I woke up at 6 something to the sound of her voice saying “ate issa, di nata mag away ha?” with a nod and a little unsure ness I went back to sleep knowing that the chances of that ever happening was way slim. But hey, if saying “yes” would shut her up then hey, I’ll start saying yes to everything she says!

So after I took a bath, I went down stairs for breakfast… and I wish I didn’t. “ako pa’y selfish?!” wtf?! What was she talking about?

Which is where I conclude that I shall never trust paper again! And if I do, no form or anger or love or hurt shall be placed on it. And until my mother learns to mind her own god-damn business… I’m postponing the usage of my diary. [The notebook kind]

 So once again, I’m cell phone less,  my friend is mad at me, I’m mad at my friend  and my relatives from M-a-n-I-l-a are here. [Hey, I can still go the ayala… it’s all good!]

Now after all this bad luck in these couple of days, what’s the best part of it?  I say, is still crushing on him.  But then, he can’t see me.  I’m alive in MY dreams and there everything is perfect. If I had to predict something far more than true… it would be that… I’m invisible.

                                                “Issa, duha, tulo”

                                        [oMg! Pinansin mo ako!]

You noticed me! :’’’] [Tears of joy!]

Peace.

.. today is just not “one of my days” ..

oMg. this day is just too frustratin.. i think i’ve had enough of it! zZzZzzZzzZZzzZZz… wAit. not until i finish this blog. [lucky bastard]

honestly, i could go through the time and effort of cuttin myself some much deserved slack and sayin that today isn’t as bad as i think it is.. yea, i could say tha’ buh then, i’d be lying and my mOmMa taught me never to lie. [buh, we all bend the rules on “special occasions”.. consider this, normal.]

so here i go, sharin my disfunctional life to the world.. so ya’ll can laugh yer freakin heads off!

so, my “bad luck” started when i almost felll off the freakin jeepney on the corner of BBRC. it was soo humiliating! ugh. can’t believe i had the whole jeep starrin at my ass.. [well, of course.. i do get out of the car head first.]  screw that drunk driver. hope madakpan to xa!

i reached san case early today.. wel, early for me that is. it was all good.. well, i thought it would be.

anyways, edgar [elnaaa!!] got there early and since i had brought a really cool lookin takyan with me and he was the only person who was willing to play with me, YOU GUESSED IT! we played. har har.

and just about when i was havin a good time “chica chica-ing” my freakin trick knee played a trick on me!  and i was like, so affected the whole time! i mean, walking was hard enough, imagine having to JOG 8 rounds around 2 tennis courts!! MURDER!

and just about when the knee probie was working out, my mother.. my favorite person in the whole wide world HAD to suck out the little bit of happiness left inside of me! she called m up.. rightin the middle of tennis and she was all, ” can you just not go out today cuz we don’t have a maid and i need you to babysit!!” ugh. so, that meant, i couldn’t go to chub’s nalang! and i wanted to soo bad! ugh.

*what did i do to deserve this?! i eat my veggiez! *

so now, there’s the jeep, the knee, the call, the guy [i’d rather not talk about it!].. stayin home all day.. you sure you wanna hear that one?!

oMg. iT was the best.. nOt! watchin over a 2 year old and a 6 year old is like, not the best job ever! which is why im not suprised our helpers all wanna go home. i wanna run away, from my own family!

all day long, my mom was makin yaw-yaw which seems to be her god given talent. she kept tellin me how irresponsible i am. wtf?! 

*sorry lord.*

but, i’m almost over all of this now. unless i run into some more bad luck, like.. the computer shut’s down while im typin or i don’t get to save this. if i do though, someone up there feels sorry for me.

oh, and more bad and sorta good news.. my aunts from manila are comin over. i think i’ll go on the bad side right now. don’t get me wrong i miss and love them alooot it’s just.. bad timing.liman ka, wa mi katabang and then mabot cila!? kinsa ma’y mag yaya kuno beh?! ako nasad?! ah, paita gud ana!!

hahaiz. i hate today. no one to text. no one to talk to. no clothes [that are nice] to wear. no where to go.

and then there’s Lagz. just when i thought i was gettin lucky tonight…  WWWHHYYY?!?!?!?!

aa_bebe_phat_aa

peace. not to lagz though.

.. today is just not “one of my days” ..

oMg. this day is just too frustratin.. i think i’ve had enough of it! zZzZzzZzzZZzzZZz… wAit. not until i finish this blog. [lucky bastard]

honestly, i could go through the time and effort of cuttin myself some much deserved slack and sayin that today isn’t as bad as i think it is.. yea, i could say tha’ buh then, i’d be lying and my mOmMa taught me never to lie. [buh, we all bend the rules on “special occasions”.. consider this, normal.]

so here i go, sharin my disfunctional life to the world.. so ya’ll can laugh yer freakin heads off!

so, my “bad luck” started when i almost felll off the freakin jeepney on the corner of BBRC. it was soo humiliating! ugh. can’t believe i had the whole jeep starrin at my ass.. [well, of course.. i do get out of the car head first.]  screw that drunk driver. hope madakpan to xa!

i reached san case early today.. wel, early for me that is. it was all good.. well, i thought it would be.

anyways, edgar [elnaaa!!] got there early and since i had brought a really cool lookin takyan with me and he was the only person who was willing to play with me, YOU GUESSED IT! we played. har har.

and just about when i was havin a good time “chica chica-ing” my freakin trick knee played a trick on me!  and i was like, so affected the whole time! i mean, walking was hard enough, imagine having to JOG 8 rounds around 2 tennis courts!! MURDER!

and just about when the knee probie was working out, my mother.. my favorite person in the whole wide world HAD to suck out the little bit of happiness left inside of me! she called m up.. rightin the middle of tennis and she was all, ” can you just not go out today cuz we don’t have a maid and i need you to babysit!!” ugh. so, that meant, i couldn’t go to chub’s nalang! and i wanted to soo bad! ugh.

*what did i do to deserve this?! i eat my veggiez! *

so now, there’s the jeep, the knee, the call, the guy [i’d rather not talk about it!].. stayin home all day.. you sure you wanna hear that one?!

oMg. iT was the best.. nOt! watchin over a 2 year old and a 6 year old is like, not the best job ever! which is why im not suprised our helpers all wanna go home. i wanna run away, from my own family!

all day long, my mom was makin yaw-yaw which seems to be her god given talent. she kept tellin me how irresponsible i am. wtf?! 

*sorry lord.*

but, i’m almost over all of this now. unless i run into some more bad luck, like.. the computer shut’s down while im typin or i don’t get to save this. if i do though, someone up there feels sorry for me.

oh, and more bad and sorta good news.. my aunts from manila are comin over. i think i’ll go on the bad side right now. don’t get me wrong i miss and love them alooot it’s just.. bad timing.liman ka, wa mi katabang and then mabot cila!? kinsa ma’y mag yaya kuno beh?! ako nasad?! ah, paita gud ana!!

hahaiz. i hate today. no one to text. no one to talk to. no clothes [that are nice] to wear. no where to go.

and then there’s Lagz. just when i thought i was gettin lucky tonight…  WWWHHYYY?!?!?!?!

aa_bebe_phat_aa

peace. not to lagz though.

.. today is just not “one of my days” ..

oMg. this day is just too frustratin.. i think i’ve had enough of it! zZzZzzZzzZZzzZZz… wAit. not until i finish this blog. [lucky bastard]

honestly, i could go through the time and effort of cuttin myself some much deserved slack and sayin that today isn’t as bad as i think it is.. yea, i could say tha’ buh then, i’d be lying and my mOmMa taught me never to lie. [buh, we all bend the rules on “special occasions”.. consider this, normal.]

so here i go, sharin my disfunctional life to the world.. so ya’ll can laugh yer freakin heads off!

so, my “bad luck” started when i almost felll off the freakin jeepney on the corner of BBRC. it was soo humiliating! ugh. can’t believe i had the whole jeep starrin at my ass.. [well, of course.. i do get out of the car head first.]  screw that drunk driver. hope madakpan to xa!

i reached san case early today.. wel, early for me that is. it was all good.. well, i thought it would be.

anyways, edgar [elnaaa!!] got there early and since i had brought a really cool lookin takyan with me and he was the only person who was willing to play with me, YOU GUESSED IT! we played. har har.

and just about when i was havin a good time “chica chica-ing” my freakin trick knee played a trick on me!  and i was like, so affected the whole time! i mean, walking was hard enough, imagine having to JOG 8 rounds around 2 tennis courts!! MURDER!

and just about when the knee probie was working out, my mother.. my favorite person in the whole wide world HAD to suck out the little bit of happiness left inside of me! she called m up.. rightin the middle of tennis and she was all, ” can you just not go out today cuz we don’t have a maid and i need you to babysit!!” ugh. so, that meant, i couldn’t go to chub’s nalang! and i wanted to soo bad! ugh.

*what did i do to deserve this?! i eat my veggiez! *

so now, there’s the jeep, the knee, the call, the guy [i’d rather not talk about it!].. stayin home all day.. you sure you wanna hear that one?!

oMg. iT was the best.. nOt! watchin over a 2 year old and a 6 year old is like, not the best job ever! which is why im not suprised our helpers all wanna go home. i wanna run away, from my own family!

all day long, my mom was makin yaw-yaw which seems to be her god given talent. she kept tellin me how irresponsible i am. wtf?! 

*sorry lord.*

but, i’m almost over all of this now. unless i run into some more bad luck, like.. the computer shut’s down while im typin or i don’t get to save this. if i do though, someone up there feels sorry for me.

oh, and more bad and sorta good news.. my aunts from manila are comin over. i think i’ll go on the bad side right now. don’t get me wrong i miss and love them alooot it’s just.. bad timing.liman ka, wa mi katabang and then mabot cila!? kinsa ma’y mag yaya kuno beh?! ako nasad?! ah, paita gud ana!!

hahaiz. i hate today. no one to text. no one to talk to. no clothes [that are nice] to wear. no where to go.

and then there’s Lagz. just when i thought i was gettin lucky tonight…  WWWHHYYY?!?!?!?!

aa_bebe_phat_aa

peace. not to lagz though.