how do you just let go of 1 year and 8 months?

ever since me and james ended everything has been so fucked up. i feel like i’m loosing EVERYTHING. Me and my mom have been fighting a lot lately [i haven’t told her about the break up], i got a REALLY bad mark on my parentheral return demo, i LOST my diary that was supposed to change my life this 2009 and i’ve just been really blah lately.

and it just keeps reminding me why i liked it when we were together so much. cuz james was always there to take care of me and when he was around [or when i knew he was] everything just fell into place.

and now, i don’t even know where to go. i don’t know what to do.

😦

i wish he wakes up soon and decideds to be a better person. for me. for our relationship.

i don’t want another boyfriend. i just want him </3