my mom thinks that she is the most idealistic person in the whole world. she thinks that i should be like, act like her, think like her and blah2 [even if she doesn’t directly say it.] and if being exactly like her means regualrly cutting school , getting kicked out of it cuz of skipping school and getting drunk at a local cheap ass grocery store, getting pregnant at 16, having an abortion, getting married again, not grad. college, being a TNT in the states, cheating on her husband, working a $5 an hour job before reaching what is not even slightly CLOSE to success is her idea of an ideal person then i guess that’s what she expects from me. stupid bitch. sorry, but i can’t help.

i suppose i’ve always found comfort in back lashing her because she is most often, aside from my dad and raissa and yen yan, one of the people i hate the most.

she says we’re broke but most of the time esp. when james is around, the only thing she talks about is money. how much she spent on this and that and shit. and it’s embarassing because she talks about it as if she’s the only person in the world who pays the bills. seriously.

and she’s such a two faced hypocrite! she likes to exagerate things ESPECIALLY when other people are around. i’m sick of it.

she can never just say no without telling a 2 hour story of how you don’t deserve what you want because.. “you’re not responsible like ME. you never had to commute like ME. you never had to save for your own school shoes like ME. you never had to eat oil and salt with rice like ME.” and hello, stupid ass. the only reason why we’ve never done that is because you’ve never trained us to live a life like that because you worrked hard [and we appreciate it] so we wouldn’t have to live a life that you once lived! which totally defeats the point of your useless YAPPING!!

my mother always makes a way to make herself look stupid and the butt of all arguments. which i never point out to her face only because of the reason that she is PHYSICALLY ABUSIVE!

and i SWEAR that by the time i’m out of the house and she needs help… I’M PUTTING HER IN A FUCKING RETIREMENT HOME!